3 weeks later… 3 weeks have been horrible… I feel really depressed; I don’t know what I really want to do.
I’m trying to be myself again, slowly… I sigh deeply as I am in Sophia’s kitchen with Sophia and Kaylee since the guys are out.
Sophia raises her eyebrow in confusion and she asks in a curious voice, “Talk to me.”
I sigh deeply as I shake my head and I say, “No.”
“Because I’m not ready Sophia!” I snap as I see Sophia sighs deeply and I say, “I’m sorry.”
“It’s fine.” Sophia smiles weakly.
I smile weakly as I don’t really say much… I see Kaylee looks at me with a sad look, she didn’t really say much because she knew it hurts me so much…
I walk toward their dining room to sit down on their dining chair and I keep quiet…
“Aunt Ana…” Kaylee looks at me with a worried look and she says, “Talk to us please.”
“Fine… do you really want to know what’s going on with me?” I turn around to Sophia and Kaylee, I see Kaylee and Sophia nodded but they are really sad and worried… I don’t need their damn pity.
“I couldn’t even sleep at all… I have been crying lately and I want to die because Henry fucking damaged me!” I sigh deeply and I say, “I wanted to end my life…” I see Sophia and Kaylee sit down next to me and I continue to say, “Henry really damaged me… I couldn’t have my happiness back anymore.”
“Yes, he did really damaging you… you would work on your happiness when you get a chance.” Sophia sighs deeply and she says, “I know it’s really hard for you. I do understand because he kidnapped you, abusing you, and raping you… he broke your heart‼”
“Yeah.” I sigh deeply as I close my eyes and I say, “I kept pushing Michael away.”
I open my eyes and I say, “Because I have so many bruises on my body… and I’m so scared about what Michael would say or think about my body…” I shake my head and I say, “I don’t want Michael to leave me.”
“He won’t… because he does really love you so much… he does care about you and wants to know what is best for you.” Kaylee smiles softly and she says, “You really need some vacation.”
“Oh, I really do need one.” I whine softly as I see Kaylee and Sophia giggles softly and I say, “I love Michael so much… but I’m scared of his reaction.”
“All you can do; tell him about how do you feel…” Sophia smiles softly and she asks in a curious voice, “Do he know about what happened to you?”
“No… I haven’t told him.” I sigh deeply as I shake my head, I put my elbow on their dining table to put my head on my hand and I say, “I just don’t know what I would say to him… I mean… I have been crying nonstop when Michael lays down with me, I got scared and anxious about it.”
“It’s very normal to feel this way… I know you’re in pain and you’re so scared about it.” Sophia smiles weakly and she says, “You know about my first ex-boyfriend hurt me and treated me like shit.”
“Yeah, I know.” I smile weakly and I say, “I just hate when I feel this way… I just want my personality, happiness, positive, and good things back to me in my life…”
“You will… take your time Ana.” Kaylee smiles softly.
“You’re right…” I sigh deeply and I say, “I’m sorry about today and other things, my depression killing me, I have been so down lately.”
“I know… it is not easy… it would take a lot of time for you to fight your depression…” Sophia sighs deeply and she says, “Whenever you ready to tell Michael, you have to.”
“Okay… I think I have a therapist tomorrow afternoon.” I see Sophia and Kaylee nodded and I say, “I would tell my new therapist about what happened to me.”
“Okay… it’s fine with us… it’s a huge step for you to get help.” Sophia smiles softly.
“You’re right…” I sigh deeply as I hear someone knock on their front door and I raise my eyebrows in confusion and I ask in a curious voice, “Who is it?”
“Go check… someone surprises you.” Sophia smiles softly.
“Okay…” I get up from their dining chair as I walk toward their front door and I open their front door as I see my 3 best friends, Mackenzie, and Violet smiles big on their faces and I say in a surprised voice, “Oh my god!”
“Surprise‼!” Mackenzie smiles big and she says, “We came here to stay with you guys for a night.”
“Who is the idea for you guys to come over here?” I raise my eyebrows in confusion and I step away so they can come in.
“Sophia.” Leah smiles softly and she says, “We knew you went through a horrible situation so Sophia called us and ask us to come here to cheer you up.”
I smile big as I see Mackenzie close their front door and I say, “Thank you, girls… I guess we would have so much fun!”
Definitely what I need for now… a girls’ night in with my best friends, my sisters, and my niece… I love them… tomorrow would be really hard… I can do it, I’ll be okay.