Chapter 46 - Anastasia
Next day… I open my eyes as I see Michael is still sleeping on my bed, we had been talking all night long, we smiled at each other, I am slowly being myself again… I sigh deeply as I get up from my bed and I walk toward my closet to grab my robe from my closet and I put my robe on since Michael and I haven’t go to Colorado until 5 in the afternoon which it’s fine with me.
I walk out of my bedroom as I walk toward their kitchen after I went downstairs, I see Sophia is cooking for breakfast.
“Hey Sophia.” I see Sophia looks up at me and I say, “Michael and I will go to Colorado for 3 weeks.”
“Good, you and Michael need one.” Sophia smiles at me and she asks in a curious voice, “How was your therapist appointment yesterday?”
“Ugh… really hard… I had been crying for a few hours, I was so angry…” I sigh deeply and I say, “Michael was with me when I told Jodie and Michael about what happened to me and he was so angry and he was upset.”
“He blamed himself…” Sophia sees I nodded and she says, “Yeah he does blame himself all the time, he thought it was his fault.”
“Maybe.” I sigh deeply as I see Sophia looks at me with a worried look and I ask in a curious voice, “What?”
“What’s on your mind?” Sophia raises her eyebrows in confusion as she sees I shrug and she says, “Ana…”
“I’m worried about my relationship with Michael… I mean I kept pushing him away… I had been really depressed…” I walk toward her high chair as I sit down on her high chair and I say, “I do love him so much but Henry’s words about Michael stuck on my mind…”
“Are you scared?” Sophia sees I take a minute to think as I nodded and she says, “Michael is NOT going anywhere, Anastasia… he loves you and he does care about you… he knew you are in so much pain!”
“Yeah, I know.” I see Sophia smiles softly and I say, “I’m so lucky to have Michael in my life.”
“He is an amazing boyfriend to you. I threatened him to not hurt you or your sisters and brother will kill him.” Sophia smiles evilly.
I roll my eyes and I say, “You’re an asshole. You know that.”
“Yup, I definitely know that. But you love me.” Sophia shrugs.
I giggle softly as I see Sophia has her brunette wavy down and she has her black robe with gray sweatpants and a purple tank top, she looks so beautiful, I’m so thankful for her in my life… I hear Damon and Michael walk toward us since I heard Michael’s voice, I see Michael smiles big as he walks toward me.
“Good morning beautiful.”
“Good morning honey.” I smile as I see Michael opens his arms around my shoulders to hug me tightly since I’m sitting on Sophia’s high chair and I ask in a curious voice, “How was your sleep?”
“Really good, I’m surprised that you let me sleep with you last night.” Michael kisses my head as he smiles softly through my hair, Michael sighs deeply and he asks in a curious voice, “We will go to Colorado so do you think you can pack your things, babe?”
“Yeah, I can do it, honey.” I smile softly as I see Sophia and Damon are talking to each other and I ask in a curious voice, “Did you rent a cabin for 3 weeks?”
“Yes ma’am.” Michael smiles softly as he notices that I’m nervous as hell and he says, “Babe, it’ll be okay… I will be with you for the whole time.”
“I know… I do trust you.” I sigh deeply as I feel Michael’s hand on my back to rub my back and I say, “Thank you for not leaving me when I have a hard time.”
“You’re welcome beautiful.” Michael looks at me into my brown eyes and he asks in a curious voice, “You feel okay?”
“Yeah, I think so…” I shrug as I smile softly.
“Do you prefer to ride an airplane for 3 hours to Colorado or you just prefer the drive to Colorado for 25 hours, well… almost 1 day and a half?” Michael raises his eyebrows in confusion.
“Hmmm… I mean… you would be so tired of driving for a day and a half, Mike.” I giggle softly.
Which it’s true… Michael and I had been going on a road trip whenever we get a chance but Michael does get tired of driving too far.
“Okay… good point… we could ride an airplane.” Michael smiles softly.
Later that evening… Michael and I arrived in Colorado since we rode an airplane for 3 hours, we decided to drive Michael’s rental car… I’m sitting on his passenger seat as I feel cold, but it’s kinda nice to have a cold outside.
I see Michael’s driving us to our rental cabin and I ask in a curious voice, “Do you think we will still be together?”
“Yes.” Michael smiles softly.
I nodded as I sigh deeply and I say, “I mean… I just am asking.”
“I know…” Michael looks at me for a few seconds and he asks in a curious voice, “What’s on your mind?”
“Us… but we can talk at our cabin babe.” I smile weakly as I see Michael nodded in understanding and I turn around to the window to look outside.
Snow… trees so beautiful… on side and grass has snow… so damn beautiful…
40 minutes later… Michael and I arrived at our cabin as we are inside since we already unpack and we are laying down on our family room couch since we are very comfortable.
“Okay… talk to me, babe.” Michael looks at me with a worried look as he puts his hand on my hair to stroke my hair softly.
“I mean…” I trail off as I sigh deeply and I say, “Since everything happened to me, I kept pushing you away from me because I couldn’t handle it, like… I was so scared.”
I look down on the blanket and I say, “Our relationship.”
“What about our relationship babe?” Michael looks at me with a worried look and he asks in a curious voice, “Is it bothering you?”
“Yeah…” I mumble softly as I sigh deeply and I say, “Very bothering me.”
“Okay… I’m listening.”
I look up at Michael as I see Michael have my full attention and I say, “I just miss our relationship before Henry came back into my life like kidnapped, raped, and abused me for 4 days, and I really thought you would leave me and don’t want to deal with me no more, plus… when you asked me for taking my clothes off like you missed my body but I started feeling insecure about my body because of bruises or scars on my body.” I sigh shakily and I say, “I wanted to die because I was scared that Henry would kill me, when he kicked my stomach harder, he kept raping me over and over again… and I screamed your name.” I let my tears fill up on my eyes as I sigh deeply and I say, “When I saw you in Henry’s old bedroom, your reaction was so scared but very angry… I thought you would scream at me for not answering your phone.” I sob softly and I continue to say, “I’m so sorry.”
“Babe… I’m not angry at you… but when I saw you in Henry’s bedroom, I was terrified, I was so angry at Henry for hurting and raping you… I didn’t save you…” Michael sighs deeply and he says, “You pushed me away, which it is hurtful… but I do understand why you pushed me away.”
I nodded as I sigh deeply and I say, “I’m sorry…”
“It’s okay.” Michael smiles softly.
I sigh deeply as I see Michael looks at me with a happy look and I ask in a curious voice, “What?”
“Nothing, you know you’re so beautiful.” Michael looks at me with a loving look.
I smile softly as I nodded and I say, “I know.”
“Let make food babe.”
Later that night… Michael and I finished cooking for dinner, we ate, then… now we are laying down on our bed, we are cuddling on our bed.
“Yes, babe?” Michael looks at me with a confused look as he sits up on our bed.
“Do you miss having sex with me?” I raise my eyebrows in confusion as I see Michael nodded.
“So fucking much.”
I smile softly.
I love him so much.