He probably got paranoid from my utterly embarassing breakdown in the park and that is why refused to leave my side.
My schedule changed a bit since mum started going to work. She leaves the house around 9 am and comes back home around 5 pm which means I have to take care of Ray from now on.
Not that I mind, I'd take care of ray for a full day if it meant mum being able to work without having to worry about him.
I just have this weird feeling in the pit of my stomach that this is all a dream. I feel like any moment something will go wrong.
I get snapped out of my thoughts as my mum comes inside the kitchen and kisses me on my cheek.
"Oh sweetie, you don't have to make breakfast, I can do it baby" my mum says to me.
"It's okay mum..I had nothing better to do and I woke up at like 5 in the morning. I thought I'd get ready early and make breakfast" I told her smiling and then returned my attention to the scrambled eggs.
That was not the entire truth, I didn't sleep at all night. I just had this strange feeling in my gut. I don't know what it is and I can't seem to get rid of it.
"Do you want pancakes Ave? Ray asked for some for breakfast last night, I'll make some for you too if you want?" My mum asks me while whipping up her own pancake batter.
I've told her a billion times to use the pre-made one to make it easy on her but she doesn't listen.
"Umm yes two please" I tell her.
"When the eggs are done, can u go and wake up Ray? He should start getting ready for school, his bus will be here in an hour" she says to me.
I turned the gass off and picked up my phone from the counter. It was 6:30, indeed it was time for that little devil to wake up.
I ran upstairs and into Ray's room. He was fast asleep in starfish position.
If our father was still here, Ray would probably be up and in my mum's arms till now. He doesn't like being left alone when dad is in the house.
I asked him once why he liked staying with me or mum or Maddie all the time and he told me 'so that the monster wouldn't get me'.
It broke my heart... Ray never had a dad. He had a monster. I hated my father even more for this. He used to be nice to Ray, he used to love him but eventually he turned his back on him too. He wanted a son so bad but he never took care of him.
I think the reason he always wanted a son was so he had some kind of guarantee that there would be someone to take care of him in his old age. He disgusts me, even when he's gone.
I sat on the side of his bed and gently woke him up "Ray, buddy get up or you'll be late for school" I said while slightly shaking his shoulder.
He woke up with a start and looked around. When his eyes landed on me, he seemed to settle down.
"Hey aves" he said while sitting up on his bed and rubbing his eyes.
Our father did this to him...I wanted to kill that man but now he just disappeared without paying for what he did to us all these years, to Ray.
I hugged him and he tried to get away...of course the normal sibling behaviour.
"No, aves.. I'm not a kid anymore..mommy!" He screamed while trying to wiggle his way out.
"Okay okay" I said. "Get up and get ready, you got school in an hour. Be down after brushing and bathing, got it?" I told him.
He got up instantly and started making his bed. I taught him to do that first thing in the morning.
Ray will not turn out like father. I'll make sure of it. He's going to have a good life from now on.
I went back downstairs to see that only in what like 10 minutes my mum had everything laid out on the table. She was used to making breakfast fast cause my dad didn't like to wait. He would throw all the things she made if she was even 5 minutes late in serving breakfast.
"Mama, do you think he'll come back?" I asked her. I didn't want him to. All these years we were stuck with him cause he never let my mum get a job. When she tried a couple of times, he somehow found out and made me and Maddie go through hell to punish mom.
She never dared to try again, she didn't want us to get hurt.
But now things were different, I had a job and mum had a job...we could live without him now, couldn't we?
"I don't know baby but I will make sure that even if he does, he wouldn't come anywhere near you three" she said
She said three....she still hoped Maddie would come home but I didn't now. I would never forgive her for what she did to mum. It was stupid of me to want her to come back...mum, Ray and I are happy now and I don't want anything to change.
Soon Ray came downstairs and we had a peaceful breakfast, as a family for the first time in years.
I would usually eat early and leave in order to avoid my dad and mum always fed Ray in his room to prevent him from encountering dad.
This felt nice. I felt hungry for the first time and even though this was not an extraordinary breakfast, it still tasted sooo good.
After breakfast, I did the dishes, Ray's school bus picked him up and I was off to school as well.
I was feeling alive for the first time in years. Everything looked brighter and calmer on the way to school.
I didn't even feel annoyed at any of the kids I saw in the hallway as I made my way towards my locker. I guess my father was the reason for me feeling like shit everyday.
I put my book bag inside my locker and took out the subject book I needed.
"Hey, short stuff" I heard Carter say from behind me.
"I'm not short, you're just freakishly tall, big foot" I said to him while turning around to face him.
"You're in a good mood today" he said to me while smiling his boyish smile as usual. I didn't even feel irritated at him..wow this was a fucking miracle.
"I insulted you, how does that make you think I'm in a good mood?" I asked him, chuckling a little myself.
"Well, your usual responses include
'fuck off Carter' or 'leave me alone' "
He says while trying to mimic the face I make.
"Hey, I don't make that face" I hit him on his arm and start walking towards my class. Carter walked beside me since we both had the same class.
"Are you free today at around 6-ish?" He asked me
I thought about it and no I didn't have anything to do. "Yup" I said while nodding my head.
He smiled "good then would you come to the game today? We're playing against Corwell" he said reminding me that today was a big day for our school.
Ahhh Corwell, our rival school, they always managed to snatch a trophy at every inter-school tournament and were very proud about it. We hated them or atleast the other kids did. I didn't have enough time to care about stupid school rivalries.
Everyone in our school is very confident that with out new quaterback..aka Carter, we'll be able to beat them.
"I don't know shit about football, what would I do at the game?" I told him honestly. I'd just get bored there.
"I feel hurt, can't you just come for the sake of cheering me on?" He asked me while putting his hand on his chest, faking pain.
I rolled my eyes at his goofiness.
"Get your girlfriend to cheer for, why drag me into this?" I told him. I do not want a crazy, jealous bitch scratching my eyes out.
"Wow right in the gut..you do know I'm single right?" He said to me looking serious now.
Wait what? He was single? How did I not know that? Oh right, I was too busy dealing with my shitty father to actually care about highschool drama and it's not like I got any friends to tell me about this stuff.
"Oh, well if it'll make you stop nagging me then I'll come" I told him, I didn't even realise but we were standing outside our classroom.
"Okay, I'll see you today then. Meet me at the boys locker room around 6:30 and I'll get you the best seat in the stadium. You'll get to see me in action from every angle then. Ahh your welcome" he said to me, smirking egotistically.
I laughed and pushed him inside the classroom. The teacher would be here soon and if he saw us both standing outside, he'll have a sheep!
School went by in a blur. I guess me not paying attention in classes had nothing to do with my problems. I just don't like school.
Soon I was home, watching power rangers with Ray. Lord that boy loved this show. We watch the same shit everyday and it's only been three days and it's driving me insane!
"Come on buddy, watch the rest when we get back from the library. I'm getting late for work" I rushed Ray, so we'd be one time for my job. I had to take him there everyday, since I can't leave him home alone and Pramod, the sweetheart, didn't mind at all.
"Aw spoiled beans Ava, he was about to save earth from aliens" he said while pouting but also listening to me and switching the TV off.
"You can watch it after you get back from the library. Now go get you back pack and make sure to put in all the homework you got today so you can complete it there, okay?" I told him. I didn't want him sitting idle in the library for hours so we made this arrangement.
Soon we are in the library and I got Ray settled on his chair right behind the front desk. Pramod agreed to keep an eye on him while he did his work. I couldn't constantly watch him since I had to arrange books but I did check in on him from time to time.
I took the books out from storage and starting stacking them in order and rearranged the ones that other people left in the wrong sections. Argh stupid asshats. No respect for the library whatsoever!
I felt a tap on my should and turned around to find Carter standing there.
"What the fuck are you doing here" I whispered to him.
"I brought this for you" he said while handing me a t-shirt.
"What is this?" I asked him...why is he giving me a t-shirt?
"It's my jersey.. didn't you say you'd cheer for me?" He said
"Oh but if you're giving me this what will you wear?" I asked him
"It's an extra, they give us extras you know..." He said looking at me funny.
"Hey it's not my fault. I've never been to any of these stupid games before" I told him defensively. I was hurt he's look at me as if I was stupid.
"I didn't even say anything" he said
"You looked at me weird" I told him while turning back to do my work.
"Well, you read me wrong then." He said. He kept following me around as I did my work.
"I hope you don't mind me coming to your work. The librarian said I could talk to you, he didn't mind" he told me
"I don't either but you could've given this to me at school, you know" I told him.
"I had practice so I couldn't. Anyway I'm going home to rest a bit before the game, see you there Ava" he waved and left.
I went to front desk and stuffed that jersey in Ray's bag. The shit I have to do just because I like him as a human being.
I finished work early and me and Ray were home by 5. I asked pramod to dock $25 from my pay since I'm not a total and complete bitch.
I left ray downstairs, made sure all the doors and windows were locked and started getting ready for the game tonight.
I don't know why but I wanted to look presentable..I usually didn't care for my appearance much but I guess dressing up for this wouldn't be a bad thing.
I just wanted to enjoy tonight. This was going to be the first time I would do something normal teens did.
I wanted to feel normal even if it was just for one night.