Our plan seemed to work so far. All the blogs and news outlets retracted all the false stories and some even issued a public apology. Anastasia received major backlash and hate. Her crazy ass deserved it. It was so bad that she shut down all social media accounts. Even though I hated that I had to put myself out there like that, I'm glad I did it. And I would do it again in a heartbeat for my wife.
I know all of this came with my career but sometimes I wish people would just focus solely on my music. Leave my personal life out of it and see that I'm human just like them. I knew that was never going to change and I didn't want to think about that anymore. I just wanted to put everything behind me and focus on my family.
As soon as my wife got authorization to leave the hospital after being there for four days, I packed up my family and went straight to New York. She needed to get out of Atlanta. I knew being there was a constant reminder of everything that happened. I knew she didn't want to go home, not that we could anyway. The FBI was still doing a thorough investigation and probably cleaning up. Blaire seemed to be okay and I didn't want anything to trigger her or set her back.
I left the house in the care of my in-laws. They were a bit hesitant about Blaire and the kids leaving but, they understood that a change of scenery would benefit her. Bryce and Brent were the most vocal against Blaire leaving. They even insisted on us staying with them. I was surprised by Bryce since we haven't been close in years. I thought it was cool of them to offer, but I didn't want to impose on their families.
I know my wife. I know what's best for her and our family, and that's going back to my hometown. I missed New York. If it was up to me that's where we would live. I love Bee so much that I'd follow her to the ends of the earth. She always wanted to be in Atlanta, so I moved everything for her. I have to admit Atlanta is a really cool place too, just not right at the moment.
Drew and my parents came along with us. Drew refused to stay, even though I have security personnel in New York too. He didn't want to be too far from us. My mom wanted to stay with us, but I wanted it to be just my wife and kids for a while. I needed this time alone with my family. I haven't spent quality time with my kids in over a month and I hated that. I usually was away from my kids unless I was on tour and I usually bought them alone if I could.
My kids needed me, especially when their mother wasn't currently mentally and physically strong enough. We definitely needed a change. So, I decided to do something fun with them to ease them into the recent but major changes. I took my kids to all my favorite spots when I was a kid like the zoo in Central Park and Coney Island. I also took them to Jane's Carousel Under the Brooklyn Bridge. Aiden loves trains so we went to the NY Transit Museum. I noticed that my fans didn't approach me like they normally would for pictures. I guess people can actually be decent and understanding.
I had a good time spending a few days with just my kids, while Blaire stayed in bed. She told me that she just wanted to rest for a while. I expected that because she was beyond exhausted. It was hard seeing her drab skin, darkened eyes, and overall solemn demeanor. Whenever I was home she was asleep. Well, all she did was sleep all day. I hoped that all the rest helped and she enjoyed some time to herself.
She felt crowded and suffocated with everyone constantly waiting on her hand and foot, and some solitary and quiet would help. I missed her though. I wanted her to be with us, but I understood needing time alone. I just wish she could see the smiles on our children's faces as they explored the city with me. I wish I could see a real smile on her face again. I decided that it was time for her to spend more time with us.
After we came from the mall, I figured it was a good time to start. I quickly changed Aiden's diaper and clothes. Then put all the bags away. I realized I haven't done this in a long time. I'm so used to Myles or one of the maids doing it for me. Taking care of the kids by myself was an adventure too. Blaire didn't want a nanny raising our kids. We never had one and I don't think we ever will. My mother-in-law or Blaire's sisters-in-law always took care of them whenever we were working.
Maddie tried to help Aiden get in the playpen. I quickly picked him up before she did. Then I told them that we were going to surprise mommy with her gift and her favorite snacks. Maddie grabbed the small gift bag. I grabbed all of Blaire's favorite snacks. Aiden wanted to help too so I gave him one tiny thing to hold. We all ran to the bedroom. Blaire was in the bed watching tv. She quickly wiped her eyes and gave us a fake smile. It was obvious that she's been crying.
"Look, mommy! We got a gift for you and your favorite snacks," Maddie said proudly.
"Oh, thank you so much, baby love," she said.
Maddie gave her the gift bag. Then I handed her gummy bears, chips, and dark chocolate bars with pecans. Aiden handed her bag of pistachios. He climbed into the bed and cuddled up to his mother. I was still shocked that at only 11 months he was doing so much. It seemed like Blaire just gave birth yesterday. She didn't bother opening the gift and maybe it was best that she didn't do it right now. She went straight to the chocolate and indulged.
"Thanks, Daddy, Aiden, and Maddie. This made me so happy," Blaire said.
I went to her side and kissed her forehead.
"You ready to get out of this room?" I asked.
"Not today. Still tired," she answered.
"You still don't feel good, mommy? Is the baby okay?" Maddie asked.
Blaire's eyes welled up with tears. She looked away avoiding Maddie’s gaze. My heart felt like it broke into a million pieces. I didn't even think about telling my baby girl that she wasn't going to have another brother or sister. I also thought about the gift I just got for Blaire. It probably wasn't the best time to give it to her.
"I'll talk to her," I told my wife.
Blaire nodded as she rocked our sleepy son back and forth. I hugged Maddie and guided her out of the room. We went to the kitchen and I placed her on one of the barstools in front of the island. I got her some cookies and milk. As she happily chewed, I decided to just tell her directly.
"Mommy is going to be okay... She's just sad and tired... Umm... But there isn't going to be a baby sister or brother anymore. The babies passed away," I said.
She scrunched up her face. I could tell she was confused. Then she looked sad as if she figured everything out.
"You mean the babies are gone like my real dad?" she asked.
"Yes.” I sighed. “I’m sorry.”
"Oh, no. Is that why mommy was at the hospital? Why did they die?"
"Yes, that's why she was in the hospital. I don't know, sweetheart. Sometimes sad things just happen."
She sat there for a long time. I could tell she was deep in thought.
"Well, Grandma always says God doesn't take away, He only gives. So God will give you and mommy new babies later. Just like when my dad died, He gave me you later to be my new daddy," she reasoned.
Man, I felt that deep down in my heart. I was almost in tears at the wisdom from a child that I always felt was a blessing to me. Blaire and Maddie changed my life. They completed me and made me more serious. They made me see the value in things I never even cared about.
"You're right," I said.
"I know, daddy.”
She grinned and then took another bite of her cookies.
"I don't know about that little girl.” I laughed. “I'm going to check on mommy. You can watch tv when you are done."
I walked toward the room. Aiden was knocked out in the bed and Blaire was looking at her phone. When she noticed me, she put it down.
"How did it go?" she asked nervously.
"Good. She took it very well. We are raising a very wise little girl," I said proudly.
"I know. Thank you for doing that. I don't think I could.”
"We are a team. Whatever I lack, which is a lot you make up for and vice versa.”
"You've always been good with flattery. Anyway, what did you get me this time that I don't need," she teased.
I smiled. Seeing her in a good mood was like a breath of fresh air. I was still a bit nervous about how she would react to the gift.
"Just open it," I said.
She picked up the bag from the nightstand. Then she took a brief peek. She smiled as she took out the small black box. She opened it and she saw the necklace I had made in honor of the twins. It's a double-sided pendant in rose gold. One side had an image of our babies' sonogram and the other side was an inscription that said: Though I didn't get to hold you two in my arms, I'll always hold you both in my heart.
She looked at it and mouthed the words on the pendant. Then the tears started. I wasn't sure if she liked it or hated it. She looked at the image of our twins again and kissed it. Then she looked up at me.
"Thank you, Av... This is so special. I love it," she cried.
I sat next to her and pulled her in tight to my chest. I kissed her cheek and then kissed her soft full lips. She kissed back passionately and heavily as she ran her hands through my curls, pulling and tugging. It felt amazing and I was instantly aroused. My dick was so hard and I wanted her badly. We haven't been like this in months. Then I felt a bit awkward. I didn't know if I should touch her back and if I did how would she react. Would she freak out or shut down again? I stopped myself and pulled away a bit. As I did, I caught a glimpse of my son that was still asleep in the bed.
"Maybe I should call my mom to come and get them? We need some alone time," I suggested.
"No.” She shook her head. “Dr. Andrews told me to wait at least two weeks. It's barely been one. And I'm not sure about... that," she said, looking down.
"It's okay. No pressure. You have to be ready and I can wait.”
My aching dick didn't agree at all with waiting right now. My wife is the sexiest and most beautiful person in the world. As much as I wanted to make love to her, I could wait. My needs didn't matter. I wanted her to be completely comfortable with having sex again.
"I'm sorry, Av," she said softly.
"Bee, it's okay. I promise... Well, let me put him in his crib and go check on Maddie," I said as I stood up.
"No. I got it. You have been doing so much the last few days. I really appreciate you. I love you.”
"I love you too.” I smiled.
She grabbed Aiden and headed to the door. When she left I went straight to the bathroom to take a cold shower to get myself together. After my much-needed and extra cold shower, I grabbed my phone and went to my home studio. I had some lyrics I wanted to test out to a few beats I got a few weeks ago. I was on my phone trying to memorize the lyrics so I could write them down. Then I got another message from an unfamiliar number.
Unknown: You have better options out there and you still want to be with her. I'm the one you need. You'll see what you deserve soon.
I harshly rubbed my face. I thought this mess was all over. Anastasia really needed help. I was not going to worry about it. I knew Anastasia wouldn't dare to touch my wife, and if she did Blaire would kill her. I'm just going to beef up my security and leave it to Alex and my lawyers to deal with it. I immediately let them know and Drew. Then I went back to my music. I don't need this stress and my wife doesn't either.