Each drop of rain was like a single note in a song. I enjoyed the pattering sound, mimicking a calming musical arrangement as I sat in the theater with my family. It was a cold November afternoon and Aiden was enjoying Incredibles 2. He was really into the movie while Maddie was on her iPad looking at baking tutorials on YouTube. Avery was asleep on my lap. My legs were going to sleep and I needed him to get off of me.
"Baby, get up," I said, pushing him off of me.
"What?... Is everything alright?" he mumbled.
"Yes. You need to get off of me. My legs are tingling," I complained.
He sat up and started rubbing my legs and feet. I loved when he did that. It was the best part of my day. I had my eyes closed softly moaning.
"That feels good, baby?" he asked.
"Yes. I wish you could do this all day I need it since your babies are wearing me out," I said, rubbing my growing belly.
"Only two more months and they'll be out."
I could not wait until that day came. I wanted to see my twins so bad. Apparently, I'm more fertile than I thought. When I went to see Avery in San Francisco we conceived. I didn't find out until a week after he came back from touring.
Our second wedding anniversary was only two weeks after the end of his tour, so I decided that would be one of his gifts. We went to Tahiti and stayed at The Brando resort. It's a glamorous resort on the private island of Tetiaroa. Private islands have become our thing lately. We stayed in a plush one-bedroom beachfront villa with a private pool. The resort was so beautiful and relaxing.
On our actual anniversary day, we exchanged gifts. He got me a new wedding ring. I didn't think I needed one, but he claimed that since we decided to have a new start, I needed a new ring too. He also got me a rare book since that used to be our thing when we first met. He would always buy me a rare book or a rare vinyl album whenever he went on tour. I was so thankful for his thoughtfulness. I made him a cookbook with recipes from his mom, Noni, and Nana. Avery always loved cooking, almost as much as music. I also got him a personalized designer watch and his last gift was a pair of baby booties.
He was happy about the two other gifts, but when saw the booties he couldn't even talk. He thought I was playing a cruel joke on him, but I ensured him that I was indeed pregnant. Then he cried like a baby. I think this man had cried a total of five times in his entire life. He got up a hugged me and told me he was so happy. We had a really good time celebrating our second wedding anniversary. We have so many more to come.
We found out we are having twins again. God answered our prayers. I was really nervous for the first trimester since I lost my first set of twins a little bit after that. I prayed and hoped that my babies were healthy. I took it easy and worked less. Avery was so helpful and of course, he still is.
So far, everything's going great. I'm due in late-January. We are having fraternal twins again. One is a boy and one is a girl. My mother's a fraternal twin too. She said it skips a generation. So, I was destined to have a pair or two. I'm just happy that they are healthy and I'm pretty healthy too.
After everything happened with the kidnapping, miscarriage, Henry, and the stalking situation, I found I was dealing with a lot of stress. It got so bad I was having panic attacks. I'd feel fine and the next thing I know, it felt like the world was closing in on me. I got some counseling and took off a while to focus on myself. I worked hard to be there for my husband and kids. I just want to be a good mother, wife, daughter, sister, and friend. For that to happen I have to be the best me. I'm still a work in progress.
Despite my hardships, I eventually overcame most of my issues. I am still working on myself, but I feel so much better about myself and my marriage. My marriage is doing even better. I'm happy and so in love.
In addition to my thriving marriage, my kids are doing good. Maddie has been in art therapy to cope with her kidnapping. She's happy too and excited about finally having a little sister. Aiden is just a happy two-year-old. He's talking in paragraphs, running everywhere, and tearing up my house. It drives me nuts sometimes, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't want to say that I have it all, but I feel like I'm close to it.
"You didn't hear a word I said, huh?" Avery asked.
I was feeling so good from Avery's foot massage that I zoned out. I've been doing that a lot lately. I had so much on my mind.
"I'm sorry, baby. I was just thinking and you make me feel so good." I smiled.
"It's okay. I said do you want to ditch the kids and come to the studio at the office with me?"
"I don't know why we can't go to your studio that we spent hundreds of thousands of dollars on and that's right in this house, but okay," I said sarcastically.
"Because you don't like people in your house that you don't know. I'm working with a few new people and I need your ears and maybe your voice."
"You know since I've been pregnant my voice isn't the same," I complained.
"You still sound good. Anyway, Brailynn agreed to watch them for a few hours," he said, trying to butter me up.
"She must be desperate and broke. How much did you offer my niece?"
"None of your business.” He grinned. “Naw, I'm just playing. It was $500. She wants some shoes that Bryan won't let her get.”
"You can't keep giving them everything they want.”
"That's how I remain the favorite uncle. Your brothers have nothing on me," he said arrogantly.
"Whatever. Well, let me get dressed," I said, struggling to get up.
Avery helped me up. He smacked my huge butt. I hit his chest in retaliation. I went upstairs to change into something decent and warm. Wearing loose sweats and old hoodies all the time wasn't cute. I could barely find anything to wear. I gained almost 25 pounds so far and I had a feeling I was going to gain a lot more before it was time to give birth. My butt and my boobs doubled in size. Avery wasn't complaining though. He made sure that I felt like I was the sexiest person on earth.
I finally found a cute oversized sweater, leggings, and a pair of knee-high boots. I got dressed, put on a little makeup, and styled my hair. I grabbed my raincoat and headed downstairs. All of that made me tired so I went to the kitchen to get some water. My niece was in the kitchen raiding my fridge. She looked up and smiled when she saw me.
"Hey, Auntie Bee. You look cute. And you're getting huge. You sure you are not due this week," she teased.
"Whatever, child," I said, rolling my eyes.
I grabbed a water bottle and took a sip.
"I'm just playing, auntie. You look beautiful. I just can't wait until I get to hold them," she said, pouring a glass of juice.
"Me too. Well, thank you for watching Thing 1 and Thing 2. I don't know how long we will be gone.”
"Take all the time you need. Have fun!” She smiled
She left with a handful of snacks and her glass. I followed her to go say goodbye to my babies. I kissed them and told them to be good. Avery was dressed and helped me get into my coat. He also helped zip up my boots all the way up. That's when I realized that I did get bigger overnight it seemed. I grabbed my purse and phone. We headed to the garage. He picked one of his sports cars that I felt too fat to get in. He helped me in and got in too. We buckled up and headed to the studio. Since it was raining, he drove like a normal person.
About 20 minutes later, we arrived at our office building. We checked by security and said hello then we went down to the studio. When I walked in I was surprised to see Pharrell Williams and Chad Hugo. I smiled and they stood up to greet me.
"P, Chad, this is my beautiful wife, Blaire," Avery introduced.
"It's so nice to finally meet you. I love your music," I said smiling.
"We love your music too. You have a beautiful voice. Congrats on the twins," Chad said.
"Thanks," I beamed.
"Yes, you sound amazing. Well, we are working on some new tracks. Profit says you have a really good ear for music," Pharrell said.
"Not as good as you, but thanks. I'm excited to finally hear what my baby has been working on. It's been all secretive lately," I said playfully.
Avery has been working on a possible new album. He promised he was going to take a break, but I know my husband. Music is his life. He didn't let me hear anything which wasn't like him. I knew he was trying something new or he was making something for me.
He made me sit down in the booth and handed me the headphones. I put them on and then he kissed my cheek. He left and sat in front of the soundboard. He gave me thumbs up to let me know he was about to start the music.
"Can you hear me?" he asked as he spoke into the mic.
I nodded. Then the music played. It was an original song but it had a 90s R&B vibe similar to "Forever My Lady" by Jodeci. It had Pharrell's vocals. It was modern but still had that smooth romantic vibe even though the tempo was a bit upbeat. Then I heard Avery's lyrics about us and what I meant to him. He has written a few songs for me over the years, but this one had more meaning. This was his heart song. All of his deep and true feelings. It was a beautiful song and I couldn't help but cry. Like that ugly cry with snot and all.
Pregnancy hormones are the worst sometimes.
My hormones made me a blubbering mess half of the time. Avery came into the booth and held me. Then he kissed my forehead. He wiped my tears.
"You like it?" he asked worriedly.
"I love it. I love you. I never thought that anyone could make me feel so emotional, admired, confident, loved, and beautiful with a song. It's so beautiful. That's going to be a big hit. You all did a good job," I sniffled.
"I'm glad that you love it," he said.
"I really do. What's the title?"
"Still working on it. I want to take my time and make sure it's right.”
We came out of the booth and I thanked them again. We talked, listened to music and I did some singing for fun. I really appreciate the song that he made for me. It made me feel so special. It was fun and I love seeing Avery in his element.
It was getting late and I was ready for a midnight snack. We went to a mom-and-pop burger joint for some burgers and fries and ate there. Then we headed home. The kids were asleep as well as Brailynn when we got home. I knew they wore her out. Avery picked up the kids and put them in bed. I put an extra blanket on Brai-Brai and went upstairs.
Avery helped me get undressed so I could shower and get comfortable. I showered and found something to fit over my growing belly. I got in bed awaiting our nightly routine. Avery loved to rub my belly and tell the twins nice things about me before we went to sleep. I guess they loved it because they moved and kicked when they heard his voice and felt his touch.
"Your mommy is the smartest and most beautiful person I know. And she's the sexiest woman ever," he said, rubbing my belly.
"I don't think they need to know that last part.” I laughed.
"What? It's true. You sexy as hell.” He grinned.
"Well, that's enough. I'm tired and they need to calm down. Nine more weeks left. I can do this!” I said with a small fist pump.
"You can. It'll come faster than we think.”
He continued to rub my belly until we fell asleep.
I was in bliss and seemed that the next month and a half flew by. Avery was right about them coming earlier. I had the twins 6 and half weeks later, right after New Years' Day. I guess they couldn't wait or wanted to bring in the new year with a bang. After 10 hours of hard labor with no pain meds, I gave birth to two tiny but healthy little ones at home. It was such a calming and safe environment.
We had the birthing pool in our guest bedroom. It was just us and our midwife in the room. He massaged and kissed me. He said the most beautiful things to me that kept me going when I wanted to give up. It made us closer. Avery was so supportive and hands-on. He actually delivered them and cut the umbilical cord. My son came out first. He's 5 pounds 9 ounces. My daughter was 5 pounds 2 ounces.
We named them Ava and Maddox. Ava looks just like the female version of Aiden and Maddox looks like me. I'm so happy they have more melanin like me. I'm such a proud mommy to my four beautiful children, well six. I'll always have my first set of twins in my heart.
Though my life had some hardships. Things I don't wish on anyone, not even my worst enemy. It helped me to grow. It helped me to become this strong woman. A woman that could still thrive and be happy despite my trials. Even when life burned me, I healed. When hate knocked me down, I got back up. When I fell apart, love put me back together.
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