Chapter 17: Unplanned
Less than an hour after my fight with Adam, I stood numbly in front of her bedroom door. I knew what I had to do, I just wasn't sure how to do it.
The door opened as I reached out to knock. Scarlet was only shocked for a moment before anger took over her face and she pushed me away from the door shutting behind her.
"Scar I..." I started but was stopped short by a stinging slap across my face.
"I can't believe you!" She hissed angrily.
"Why did you hit me? I did nothing to you." I whined, rolling my eyes.
I didn't hurt, but it stung like a bitch.
"Because I know she wont." Scarlet said in a low growling voice. "Now you better get your ass in there and talk to her before she follows through with her plan to run away again."
"What? Why would she do that?" I asked, shocked.
Scarlet just sighed glaring at the ground now. "Just be nice."
I sighed and shook my head thoroughly frustrated. I was getting sick of being told what to do, I was the boss around here.
She seemed to realize what I was thinking.
She held up one finger and glared at me one eyebrow raised. "We are a family here, and if one of the members is screwing everything up I don't care who it is, we'll make sure they are well aware."
With that she stalked off tensely while shaking her head.
Slowly I turned back towards the door, stepped forward, and knocked softly.
I wondered absently why she had suddenly locked herself away. Had something happened to her in my absence? Anger and fear flooded my whole body and I reached for the door knob just as she spoke.
"What?" Aviana's forced angry voice sounded through the door.
"Can I come in?" I asked nervously.
I took her silence as affirmation and slowly pushed the door open.
Aviana sat on the bed, knees hugged to her chest. Her body faced the wall to my right but she stared out the window on the opposite side of the room from me.
She wore a maroon tank top and cut off jean shorts. Her dark auburn hair was hung loosely around over her shoulders, framing her flushed face.
It was clear by her bloodshot eyes she had been crying. Otherwise, however, her expression was hard, guarded, and distant. I knew her so well and I hated, for the first time, that I could see how broken she was through the mask.
I walked over to the foot of the bed and sat on the edge facing her.
We sat in silence until I couldn't bear it anymore.
"I thought I was protecting you." I sighed running my fingers through my hair.
"How so?" Her voice was strong, defiant, as she continued to stare out the window adjacent to us.
"I have quite a name and us being together might draw unwanted attention to you." I said halfheartedly.
She gave one quick humorless chuckle. "Yeah because that would be so new to me." She rolled her eyes over to me sarcastically.
"I know..." I started but she cut me off.
"No you don't. Even as a child the monsters under my bed have always been real, the only difference now is that I would be getting something in return." She said angrily.
"You honestly think I don't get that? I saw everything that first night." I snapped.
She flinched away from the memory, but I wasn't done. "I will not be another one of those monsters, and I certainly don't want to throw you to the sharks. I love you too much for that."
She gaped at me, mouth open for a split second before she shook her head and turned away biting her lip.
Everything was quiet for a long time before she finally whispered in a pained voice. "You love me?"
Her voice, surprised and doubtful, broke my heart all over again. How could she see herself as so inconsequential when in reality she was my whole world.
"Without a doubt." I said as I reached over brushing a stray strand of hair behind her ear. "If you are aware of the risk and willing to be with me anyway, I would love nothing more then to call you mine."
She blushed pressing her cheek into my palm with a small smile.
"Why should I believe you?" She sighed as her smile faded.
I wasn't sure what to say, so just watched her quietly.
"It doesn't matter anyway." She said so softly, I wasn't sure I was actually supposed to hear her. "I can't stay here."
"You're not going anywhere until I take care of Jacob." She shuttered and I brushed my thumb across her cheek. "I'm not going to trap you here. When it's safe you are free to go, but I do hope you'll choose to stay."
In the quiet I thought about what she had said, that she couldn't stay. Not that she didn't want to, but couldn't.
Suddenly I remembered Adam saying that she hadn't left the room in several days. Was she afraid of somebody here?
Anger burned in my chest and I felt my jaw clench. Had Ian started pestering her again since I hadn't been around.
I stood quickly moving closer to her and lifting her chin to look into her emerald green eyes. In my fear I was tougher than I had intended, but it didn't hurt her. To my surprise she didn't flinch or pull away.
"Why do you feel you can't stay here?" I fought to control the burning fury in my voice.
"I..." Her voice broke and concern crossed her face as one of her arms slipped between her legs and her stomach wrapping around herself. "I just can't."
I stared down at her new position and the anger quickly faded into shock and fear.
A long minute passed as I did the math. It had been just over a month, was that too early to know? I didn't know anything about pregnancy.
I felt panic rising in the pit of my stomach. This was not part of the plan. I looked back up meeting her terrified gaze and reminded myself that this would be even bigger for her. It's not like she planned it either.
"I'm sorry." Her voice broke as she realized I knew what was going on.
"I..." My voice broke as I instinctively wrapped one arm protectively around my torso when I saw the rage in his eyes. "I just can't"
The movement caught his attention and he looked at my stomach. It took less than a second for his anger to be replaced with surprise and terror. I had never seen Liam truly afraid before that moment, but he was terrified.
An unfathomable wave of guilt and fear gripped my chest. What was I going to do now?
Alone, pregnant, and hunted I was never going to survive this. It's not like I had anyone outside of the house that I could trust.
I couldn't speak.
He knew, I could see it in his eyes as they met mine full of a new determination.
He still had the same fright in his eyes, but it was clear he was trying to hide that from me now.
I just wasn't sure why or what to expect now.
"I'm sorry." Again I couldn't help the shaking in my voice.
I was terrified. Unlike everything else I had faced in my life this was not something I could just run away from. I was pregnant with the Reaper Kings baby. I was sure he wouldn't hurt me, and I wanted to believe he really did love me, but I wasn't stupid enough to believe that this wouldn't change everything.
He forced a smile, "I'm not some boy that's going to blame you and get mad. I know how this stuff works and I'm here to stay. It wasn't planned but it's not that doesn't mean it won't be every bit as loved."
I stared at him shocked and confused.
He could run from this, he had a way out, so why not take it.
"You want me to stay anyway?" Surprise coated my words but I didn't have energy to play tough right now.
He chuckled lightly, "I'm not a monster or a coward Avi." He leaned closer till his chin rested on my knees his face inches from mine, "And like I said, I love you, I'm all in if you are."
In response I felt myself smile brightly, feeling fresh tears in my eyes as I leaned forward closing the distance between us.
My lips crashed into his and I felt him chuckle as he moved so he was bent over me.
"You know what this means right?" He muttered into my neck as we finally pulled away to breathe.
"What?" I gasped, laying back as he laid down next to me. He was still kissing my neck as his hand slid up my shirt his fingers brushing over my stomach
"There's no way I'm letting you go now." He smirked kissing me again as I pulled him on top of me.