Her eyes quickly attain focus on the person standing in front of her and she withdraws herself from him in surprise and shock. Emma wipes her face in a hurry and runs behind him and locks herself in the room.
She stares into emptiness. She stares and stares and stares.
You know what? F*ck this, I'm gonna kill myself.
She quickly grabs a scissor and holds it beside her neck and glances at the reflection in the mirror.
"Do you know how much I hate you?", She says to her reflection.
"Nobody likes you. Do you get that? No one trusts you! Emily-- she, she--"
No, I can't kill myself for this. She puts down the scissor and wipes her face with the cotton pad and sits on the bed.
How will I kill myself? I'm such a coward to do it. I'm scared.
She hesitantly pulls out her phone and clicks on Natalie's name.
Block Natalie? She gives the ✓
Block Ex? She presses ✓ again.
She does the same with the rest.
Block Chase? ✓
Block Ethan? ✓
These are some of the people that she wanted to get rid of. But in Ethan's case, she is not sure but he surely takes advantage of her in every way so that needs to stop.
She checks all the calls, emails, and messages. Replies to everything and everyone.
She scrolls through the names and finds Victoria to message her.
Emma~ Hey Vicky, I'm sorry about the last day. I know I'm late for this but......... I hope you understand me even if Emily doesn't.
This is a hint that Emma gives to Victoria so that she'll understand that Emily and Emma are not on good terms.
She adds something to it.
Emma~ Please tell Emily to watch her mouth and that her words cut deeper than glass. I'm sorry for the trouble.
That message will bring back everything together. Why suicide? That's stupid. Oh god, I'm stupid.
Emma switches her phone off. I don't want anyone to disturb me this evening. This took longer than I expected. Natalie is a spy of Calvin and Emily is awesome at questioning and intimidating people. I'll get no calls anymore and no messages and I'll take a long slumber.
Emma stares out the window, gazing at the beautiful evening sky. I just want Addison back. God, I miss her so much.
Out of the blue, a poem by William Wordsworth, called A Slumber Did My Spirit Seal floats across her mind.
I don't know how I remember this but I studied this when I was in high school.
And it goes like,
A slumber did my spirit seal--
I had no human fears.
She seemed a thing that could not feel
The touch of earthly years.
No motion has she now, no force--
She neither hears nor sees,
Rolled round in earth's diurnal course
With rocks and stones and trees.
She never thought that she had this type of memory power but maybe she remembers it because the poem meant a great deal for her. This poem is about the death of a loved one.
Now I know why I remember this. It was one of Addison's favorite. She was majoring in English literature and history while I was majoring in marketing and accounting.
She used to recite some of her favorites and it was one of them which I learned in high school.
She keeps thinking about Addison and she eventually feels her eyes getting heavier and heavier as she had no lunch this afternoon. Emma falls asleep on the bed.
Niall walks forth and back as he thinks about the rubbish he said to her.
Why did I say that?
He got irritated with the stunt that she pulled and he lashed out.
I didn't do anything wrong anyway, so why do I feel guilty?
Niall's explosion had another reason. It was Nick. He was getting in his nerve that he said something he shouldn't have. And that was why Nick was crying like a little boy.
Niall goes up into his room and shuts the door. He walks into his bathroom and turns the tap on. He gets naked and sits inside to watch as the tub fills up.
Nick followed Niall to his house when he stormed out. "Niall!!", He called.
"Leave me alone, asshole. Nobody is getting married."
"Look, I'm not the only one who cares, okay? Dad and Sarah are the ones who forced me into telling this to you. I have nothing to do this!"
Niall scoffed. "Then why are you saying it again and again? Oh, you'll get to sleep with Emily, right? Worth the shot."
Nick gasped in disbelief and threw a pillow to Niall's head. He threw it back and hissed.
Nick closed the door. "I don't sleep with Emily on a deal as you do."
Niall glared. "What the f*ck did you just say?"
Nick crossed his arms. "You heard me."
His scowl deepened and growled. "Are you telling me that I sleep around with woman fa or a deal?"
"Don't talk like you never did anything bad, Niall. I know what you did to Claire."
He frowned and shot daggers with his glare. "What Claire? I don't know any Claire."
Nick sat down and rubbed his throbbing temples. "Don't f*ck with me, Niall! You know her. Claire Phillips! She owns the Phillias club in California. I know what you did to her."
Niall threw a punch on Nick's face. "Don't you dare take about things you don't know."
Nick stumbled and held onto the bed clutching his bleeding lips. "I know it all and if I tell Emma about this, she'll never want to marry you and that's why I'm keeping this in-between us so that it won't scare her off."
Niall ran his fingers over his aching knuckles. "Who wants to marry her anyway? I don't care what she thinks about me. You better say this to her so that she'll f*ck off and give me peace. She's already doing something to me that I can't understand."
Nick smirked and spoke, "You are already developing feelings for her. I knew that you couldn't resist her."
"What the f*ck are you talking about Nick? Are you freaking out of your stupid mind? I don't like her. I don't even want her working for me. You and dad did this or else I would've never picked her as my assistant."
"You can't deny facts and her charms. I like her, to be honest and I, don't understand how your brain works because I can't see any reason for you to hate her."
"She's like the class hoe we used to have in our classes. Sleeps with literally every scum bag and guess what? Every one of my friends was her prey. Chase, Calvin, Zach, and even our cousin Ethan. But he's an idiot, I know but that doesn't change anything about her and why would I marry such a slut like her?"
Nick rubs his face and said, "Yeah why would she marry a man like you? You are just the same."
"Don't compare me with her!", He snarled.
"Yeah? It hurts, doesn't it? Then don't compare my bestfriend with class hoes! She is not what you think she is. Emma is caring and loving and she knows how to put someone's need before her's. Don't say anything about her before you get to know her."
"She has slept with you too, hasn't she?"
And with that, It was Nick's turn to give it back. He swung his hand in full force and threw a punch right on his jaw and he stumbled down hitting his head on the drawer.
"How dare you!?", He yelled pouncing on Niall and hitting on his face again.
"She is my best friend and I love Emily!", Nick screamed at him again but Niall tossed him off of him and slapped him hard that Nick almost lost consciousness
Niall pulled himself to the corner not wanting to kill Nick and screams, "I wish you weren't my brother!"
Nick gasped and stared at his elder brother shutting his eyes and crossing his fingers. He couldn't believe it.
"Take it back, Niall."
"No........", He trails off and said it again.
"Niall, don't say it", says Nick trying to hold back his tears. He couldn't believe that his brother, who has always said that he loved him saying that he wishes Nick weren't his brother.
It was enough to break his heart.
Niall didn't open his eyes until he heard movements in the room and when he finally opened his eyes, he was gone.
Nick went home.
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