When I enter the room, no one is inside. I check the bathroom and there is no on in there too.
Where are you?
“What the fuck are you doing here?” I hear someone say.
I quickly turn around to see Haley standing behind me with her arms folded.
“Haley, let me explain...”
TO BE CONTINUED....
“No. I do not need any more explanations from you. I am done with them.” She says looking straight at me. Her eyes have no emotion in them.
“Haley I just want to talk to yo--” She cuts me off mid sentence.
“Please, just leave.” She closes her eyes for two seconds and opens them again.
“But Haley can’t you just listen to what I have to say?” I am begging her to listen to me.
“No. Now please just go back to your house.” She says with her hands gesturing towards my room.
“Haley just please lis-”
“Stop calling my name in every sentence you say! JUST STOP REECE! GO AWAY.” She yells with both her hands on her ears.
It is then that I realise that all this time that she was here, she did not even take my name once but now. And I took her name every single time.
“I’m sorry...” I finally say and that is when I see tears forming in her eyes.
And I have this sudden urge to go to her and wipe those tears away. But I don’t move.
“What’s done is done now. You cannot change it and neither can I.” She says and wipes her tears with her right sleeve.
“I just want you to know this that along the way.. I forgot all about that shit and had real feelings for you Haley. I guess it was when we went to that bonfire. I dont know how but you actually started swooning me off my feet. And-” she cuts me off again.
“Reece please.” But I do not listen. I continue.
“And yesterday when I met Mike and he reminded about it to me is when I realized that I wanted out of the stupid thing. I was telling him the same thing on the phone when you woke up today morning. I’m just so sorry Haley. Please forgive me?” I feel shattered from the inside.
I never knew I would say stuff like this to a girl ever. I have ever just had one serious relationship in which I did like the girl a lot but she cheated on me with one f my best friends’ brother. And since then, I never really had proper relations with anyone until Haley came in my life.
“Reece I am sorry too. I do not know how long it will take me to come out of this mess and actually forgive you because let’s face it, you broke my heart. Whether it was intentionally or not. It has happened. You and I both know we can do nothing to change that.” She says and sighs heavily.
“I know. And I am utterly sorry too. But everyone deserves second chances right?” I say in a hope of her actually thinking about me the same way she used to before this mess happened.
“I dont know Reece... to be completely honest, I can’t look at you the same way anymore.” She says and walks to her bed.
I feel a pang of pain throb in my chest when she utters those words.
“I understand...” I say looking down.
“I’ll just leave...” I continue when she says nothing and turn around, heading to the door.
“Goodbye Reece.” I hear her say, and those two words hold so much emotion in them, that without even looking at her I know she has her eyes closed with tears streaming down her face.
I pause at her doorstep. Look back to her. See her silently crying which makes me tear up too. Not wanting her too see me cry I look forward again and exit her room.
As I walk to my own house, one big realization hits me hard.
I just lost the one girl that I truly love.
Yes I say Love because I still love her. And I will for I dont know how long. But that is what I know.
And I also know that what Haley said was correct. I can do nothing to change it.
The song lyric from one of Passenger’s songs comes to my mind, ′You only know you love her when you let her go.′
I let her go. And to now see her with someone else will be my punishment.
BACK TO HALEY’S POV
Walking around the block with the wind making my hair sway and myself shiver a little, I decide I should go back home and eat something.
I need to keep myself busy so that I can block all thoughts of Reece.
I had decided to walk and stroll outside to fresh my mind. But all that my mind has been thinking about is Reece.
On one hand, I am going through the stage in a break up that every single girl goes through. I am sad and depressed, I cry, I miss him, I want him back and I keep thinking about him.
But on the other hand, I am disgusted by what he did. I cringe when I think of him, I cry a little more when I think of what he did to me and I feel anger.
Turning back on my heels, I head to my house again.
The fact that no one is home makes it a lot easier for me to go through this pain.
When I go to my room, I see him standing there with his back facing me.
“What the fuck are you doing here?” I say with my arms folded.
He quickly turns around and says, “Haley, let me explain...”
“No. I do not need any more explanations from you. I am done with them.” I say looking straight at him trying my best to show no emotion.
When I look at him, I see that his knuckles are bleeding and he has a black eye forming. As much as I want to go to him and hug him and heal his wounds, I do not move.
“Haley I just want to talk to yo--” He tries saying something but I just cannot take it.
“Please, just leave.” I close my eyes for two seconds and open them again.
“But Haley can’t you just listen to what I have to say?” I feel him begging to me.
“No. Now please just go back to your house. ” I say with my hands gesturing towards his room.
As much as I want him to stay and talk to me, I know in the end I will be the one crying again. And that is exactly what I Do not want.
“Haley just please lis-”
“Stop calling my name in every sentence you say! JUST STOP REECE! GO AWAY.” I yell with both my hands on my ears.
I just cannot listen to him call my name. It brings back memories that I do not want to visit any time soon.
“I’m sorry...” He finally says and that is the moment when I feel tears forming in my eyes. No. No I will not cry in front of him. I need to be strong. I have to be strong.
“What’s done is done now. You cannot change it and neither can I.” I say and wipes my tears with my right sleeve.
“I just want you to know this that along the way... I forgot all about that shit and had real feelings for you Haley. I guess it was when we went to that bonfire. I dont know how but you actually started swooning me off my feet. And-”
“Reece please.” I try cutting him off. Him explaining anything to me is the last thing on my list. But he does not listen and continues.
“And yesterday when I met Mike and he reminded about it to me is when I realized that I wanted out of the stupid thing. I was telling him the same thing on the phone when you woke up today morning. I’m just so sorry Haley. Please forgive me?” He says.
“Reece I am sorry too. I do not know how long it will take me to come out of this mess and actually forgive you because let’s face it, you broke my heart. Whether it was intentionally or not. It has happened. You and I both know we can do nothing to change that.” I tell him the truth and sigh heavily.
“I know. And I am utterly sorry too. But everyone deserves second chances right?” He says and when he says that, I remember that one essay that I had to write in school about second chances:Everyone has some or the other tragic in their lives at least once. Even I had mine, but as they say “everything happens for a reason” seriously I would like to know the reason sometime... Love is a very strong feeling. Yes I did fall in love with the most attractive guy that I had ever laid eyes on but sometimes somethings just don’t work out the way you think it will. Right? But everybody deserves second chances... at least that is what I think.
That much is all I can remember. The last line makes me shudder. I inwardly shake my head no.
“I dont know Reece... to be completely honest, I can’t look at you the same way anymore.” I say what needs to be said and walk to my bed.
“I understand...” he says looking down and I can see that he his hurt but I do not say anything more.
“I’ll just leave...” He says and turns around, heading to the door. Tears start forming in my eyes again.
“Goodbye Reece.” I say, trying my hardest not to cry. But I do, so I close my eyes and let the tears stream down my face.
I feel him pause at the doorstep. I know he can see me silently crying but I neither stop crying nor I look up at him even once. I sense him look forward again and exit the room.
The pain I feel is more surreal than I thought. Seeing Reece after I messaged him was the last thing I wanted but it turned out to be the first thing that happened.
I know I have to be strong and keep my head high.
I wash my face many times in the bathroom and look at the time.
I am sure Sam will be back from school now, so that is where I exactly go.
She and Kale will be the only people to ever know the real reason for our break up. I do not want to create bigger messes in my family, so I will not tell them.
I ring her doorbell and her mom opens the door and welcomes me.
“Go wait in her room. She will be coming in any time.” she says to me.
“Haleyyyy! I missed you today girl. Where were you?” Kale hugs me from behind.
“Leave her alone. He is lying. I missed you more babe.” Sam hugs me too.
When I turn around and they see my red nose and puffy cheeks, worry flashes on their faces.
“Are you okay?!” They both ask at the same time and I shake my head no.
“Tell us everything.” Sam sits on my right where as Kale sits in front of me.
“Reece and I broke up...” is the first thing I say and both of them have a shocked face.
“Why? What happened? You both were okay yesterday on his birthday?” Kale asks.
I narrate the whole incident that happened today morning and tell them what happened just now too. When I finish, I know I am crying again. For the thousandth time today.
“That bastard. I will kill him.” Kale says.
“I will shred him Haley. Where is he? That fucking ass hole!” Sam goes all angry and so does kale.
“Guys please. Let’s just forget about him. I don’t really want to think about it.” I say.
Kale wipes my tears and Sam nods her head.
They both hug me tightly and Sam says, “Lets watch some movies!” And Kale goes, “Yes please!”
I smile. This is the first time today that I smiled a proper smile.
“Go wash your face girl. I’ll choose the movie and Sam can go make popcorn.” Kale says and we all laugh at him being all orderly.
“Oh by the Hales, our exam time table is out. Guess which paper do we have first.” Sam says.
“History?” I bite my lip. I so don’t want my history paper first.
“Nah, we got Maths! But... after maths, we have history...” She stretches the word history.
“Oh god no. Guess now all I have to do is concentrate on my studies.” i say.
“We all have to now. Just a month and a few days are left.” Kale says.
“Go remove some good movies Kale, we both will be down in a minute.” Sam tells him and he salutes her like soldiers do, and goes down.
“You know Hales, Jackson was really restless today that you didn’t come to school. I think whatever misunderstanding you guys had, you should resolve it and forget about it. He really cares about you Haley, I can see it in his eyes. And I am sure he has more thank ‘just friends’ feelings for you. Just give him a chance yeah?” Sam says.
“You’re right, I’ll try.” I smile.
“You sure you okay right?” She asks me one more time and I nod a huge yes.
She comes and hugs me tightly, “Just forget about that jerk. You and him have now different paths to go to. Okay?” She says whilst hugging me and I slightly nod.
“You know what the good thing is? We have vacations now and then directly exams. So we all have loads of time to study.” She smiles and I do too.
“Come lets go down now.” She pulls me by my hand and we both smiling at each other, head down.
We see Kale sitting around with so many DVD’s with his hair all messed up.
“Can’t decide?” I laugh.
“They all are so good man!” He sighs.
“you are good for nothing!” Sam yells from the kitchen laughing.
“Let me help you.” I sit next to him.
“Ooh you got a collection going on her huh. Horror, Rom- Com, Chick flicks.. hmm let’s watch, She’s the man!” I finally decide.
“Good choice.” sam comes in with two big bowls of flavoured popcorn and sits on the couch.
And Kale and I put all other DVD’s back in and sit down too.
That is how my rest of the day goes. Watching movies, with my best friends.
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AUTHORS NOTE: Hey guys! I UPDATED! :D
SO THIS WAS REECE’S POINT OF VIEW. HE WAS A JERK IN THE START BUT YEAH HE DID START DEVELOPING FEELINGS FOR HER... BUT YEAH WHAT HAS HAPPENED HAS HAPPENED NOW :)
I wanted to show u all both their point of views for the same scenario, so I did that. This chapter took me a little longer to write as it is 2680+ words too but yea, just 3 MORE CHAPTERS LEFT! AND THEN THIS BOOK WILL BE OFFICIALLY COMPLETED! HOW EXCITING IS THAT!!!! I’M EXCITED
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