I'm going to go to Anthony's house, I know he's angry at me. but he can't be mad at for loving his sister. I make my way to his house getting more and more nervous and I don't know why. I never got nervous before.
I walked up to the door and opened it I had still had the key he gave me. When I walk in he's in the kitchen making a sandwich. When he sees me he instantly starts yelling at me "what the fuck do you want?"
"Anthony, you need to stop this nonsense okay she's your sister" I yell.
"Yeah and she was my sister when you decided to make a move on her and trap her into one of your spells" he screams back.
"Spells?" I looked at him confused " I- I care about her Anthony more than I have ever cared for a person. She brings the best out of me and forgives me when I fuck up in a million different ways. I have been doing a lot better in school because of her, she's everything to me"
"I can't agree with this Blaine, she's my sister it's my deputy to protect her always from people who would wish her harm"
"Kicking her out is not protecting her" I snap at him. I can't believe he won't accept that her and I are together.
"I gave a her choice and she choose you, actions come with consequences" he states. He says it like he's a serious parent trying to teach her a lesson.
"Her losing her brother shouldn't be a consequence for her loving me. You know how it feels like to fall in love you had that girl Kayla."
He replies "yeah and she cheated on me love is not lost on me. I see that you care for her and wouldn't do harm to her. But just because you don't mean it to happen doesn't mean it can't or won't happen"
"And what is that supposed to mean?" I run in front of him. Is he trying to assume I'm going to cheat on Arielle?, I would never do that.
He leans on the counter "why do you keep Madeline around knowing she trying to get you back?."
"I would never cheat on Arielle especially with Madeline."
"Have you ever told her to her face that you guys weren't getting back together ever?" He says with a smirk on his face. I really want to punch him.
I thought about it and I realized I never had "no I haven't but-" he stops me before I could continue.
"Exactly you let her think she still has a chance with you, does she?"
"No, of course not but it's more complicated then that ?
"Why?" he screams and bangs on the table.
"Because Madeline had my child that's why she was sent away."
He starts laughing hysterically, I stare at him wondering what was so funny. He's stares up at me "I'm sorry Blaine but if Arielle finds out about this especially from Madeline, she's going to dump you. Not only for lying to her but for keeping it from her for so long."
"I know but I don't know how to tell Arielle, how do you tell her something like this?" I asked him.
"It's called honesty use it sometime. I can't tell you what to do, but what I can say is I think you should tell her before someone else does" I think he's being sarcastic with the honesty, I probably should have told him I was with his sister but in the moment it felt right. I leave and go to school.
When we reach the park I ran into the middle and I screamed as loud as I could. This was free therapy for me and I needed it more than ever. Every time I feel like we're finally in a good place he comes in and trashes it.
Tomorrow is my appointment with my doctor so I could get my birth control pills. I didn't want to make the mistake of not being careful turns out I wasn't being careful with the right thing (my heart).
She comes up to me as I am screaming and I fall down to my knees. She asks me "Are you okay?" She's worried about me asking me over and over.
"I'm fine Anna" I say. I know she doesn't believe me. She walks back into the car and she's talking to someone on the phone. I can only guess who it is. Blaine.
After watching the snow hit the grass for a little while I got back into the car. She asks me "do you want to talk about it?" She asked.
"I don't think you want to talk about your brother, do you ?" I ask her. She puts a disgusted face thinking about it.
"Actually,I do you seem so sad over it , if I can help I want to help" Anna says.
"Our relationship was always going to be complicated. At one point I was going to have to accept the reality that I can't change him if he doesn't want to be changed but now he's keeping something else from me. I don't know it's not supposed to be this hard"
"You guys love each other and love always finds a way. I never seen him like that way he is with you. He loves you more than you would ever know and sometimes it's hard but some how you guys will get through it" she says.
her words are somewhat comforting. Right now it seems like it's the end of the world for me but maybe it's not. Maybe it's just the beginning. I can't fall apart every time Blaine shows me he's true self.
The next morning there was a knock on my door Blaine stands near my door watching my reaction before he says anything "I'm sorry Elle I really am. I should have said yes I don't understand why I didn't."
"Your sister help me realize that I can't change you without hurting myself. You should want me, without me having to telling you that you want me."
"I do I want you more than I ever wanted anything in my life Arielle. I love you more than anything. I'm so sorry Elle" he knees in front of me. I almost forgot I was wearing his necklace around my neck. It always felt like it was there like it was meant to be there.
"I love you too Blaine but I want you to want to be with me and not switch personalities when your friends come over" I say. He nods his head like he's agreeing with me.
He takes my hand and kisses the top of it "I promise it won't happen again Elle." He seems sincere, I guess I should forgive him, what are you saying no you shouldn't if you forgive him he's never going to learn.
I say "I have a doctors appointment for my birth control" I can see the freak out on his face.
"Why does birth control need a doctor's visit?" he asks worried.
"They need to give me a check up" he starts to freak out more. I can see the worry on his face.
"So a guy is that to check your vagina?" He replies. He's clenched his fists trying to hold in his anger. I can tell he's jealous.
"Or girl" I replied trying to make a joke but he's face is expression less.
I grab his arms and unclench his fist "I promise you I'm fine it's a routine check up."
"I'm not worried about you,I'm worried about the guy who is looking at your vagina. If he tries anything I'll punch him in his jaw" he threatens. I never seen him this worked up before. It's kind of hot.
"It's fine Blaine, he's a doctor it's kind of what he does"
"I'm coming with you" he states putting on his leather jacket.
"What?". I'm surprised but I shouldn't be surprised he would want to come with. He's trying to do that over protective boyfriend thing.
"I need some space from you okay?, I was just telling you so when someone else tells you, you don't freak out" I say.
"Space?,I can't be away from you Elle I said I was sorry I'll never do it again."
"I can't forgive you right now because if I do I'm giving away all my power to you. You need to realize what you did was wrong and it hurt me deeply" I'm not looking to his eyes. I look at my bed that is messy with the books that I fell asleep reading.
"I know that and that's why I said I was sorry Arielle."
"Sorry isn't enough. When your friends asked you a simple question to you took a long time to answer. Don't have me looking stupid in front of other people" look now where in an argument. This is why I didn't want to talk to him and I shouldn't have.
"You know how hard it is to express my feelings. You know how I feel" he comes behind me and whispers into my ears "you feel it in bones every time I touch you or kiss you. They don't understand any of that, there just a couple of assholes."
"Assholes you call friends Blaine. What's the point in being in a relationship when you can't show a little pda or show love to the other person" he sits there and thinks about it. I take it as my clue to leave.
He walks in front of me I roll my eyes at him "your right and I'm so sorry Arielle" he says.
"Sorry isn't good enough" I walk off into Anna's car. I had Anna take me to my appointment so that I could have some peace for a few hours at least.
Q: How do you think Arielle going to take it when she finds out?
Do you think she should forgive him?
Would you have reacted the same way?
Be safe and remember your loved 🦋.