It was a few hours later when I heard the click of my bedroom door opening; my body reacted so fast that I didn’t even know it was moving. In the next second my body was shifting into wolf form as shreds of my clothes went flying through the air. I crouched my body in front of the bassinet ready to attack whoever was about to walk through the door. Klaus’s body appeared in the dim lighting and his hands flew up in surrender at the sight of me ready to attack; my body relaxed seeing him and I walked over to the closet to shift back to human form.
“Sorry I thought that you would be sleeping.” He said when I came back out of the closet fully clothed. He was leaning over the bassinet stroking the side of Nicolas’s face lightly when I walked up.
“I was but I’m a little on edge right now,” I said smiling down at our baby who was still fast sleep; I reached down and tossed out a few pieces of my night gown that had landed in the crib with him.
“You don’t have to worry; you are safe here.” Klaus said taking my hand in his.
“I will never go a second without worrying about him,” I replied.
“I know; me either.” He said pulling me into a tight hug.
Other than a few kisses to the cheek or holding my hand every now and then this is the closest we had been since we got in that fight before I left while I was pregnant. The feeling of his body so close to mine gave me a sense of security and I never wanted him to let me go. I thought back on the kiss he had given me earlier in the office and how full of passion it was as I wrapped my arms around his waist and pulled myself closer to him.
I felt air rush over my shoulder as he nuzzled his face into my neck and took in a deep breath of my scent. His arms tightened around my body and I could feel the rumble in his chest as he let out a low seductive growl. My fingers dug into his back in response my hormones instantly wanting to take over my body. It felt like it had been forever since I had been with him and my body was craving for his touch once again.
“Can I stay with you?” He whispered into my neck as he began to trail kisses down to my collarbone.
“Yes,” I replied turning my head to the side to give him better access to my neck.
“I love you Alexina; I want you to be mine.” He said picking me up and gently placing me on the bed.
“I am yours,” I said pulling him into a kiss; our lips moved together like they were made for each other. Every second that passed had me craving more of him.
“I want you to be mine forever, I want you to be my mate; I want to mark you!” He replied while staring me in the eyes once our kiss ended.
As much as I wanted to sleep with him I wasn’t sure if I was ready for that step. He had told me that he loved me before but was he just saying that to get me back or did he really mean it? Could I trust him with my heart? Was it possible that he found a way to let me in and love me? I was so scared that he was going to hurt me again but at the same time I wanted to say yes; I wanted him to claim me as his mate.
“Klaus I…” I started to protest so that we could talk about it first but he interpreted me.
“Alexina I love you; I always have I just wouldn’t admit it to myself before. I can’t fight it anymore and I don’t want too. I want you to know that I love you and I want everyone else to know too. I want to make you mine; I need to claim you. It kills me to watch you walk around every day without my mark on your neck knowing it should be there. I love you Alexina; I really do love you, please just let me make you mine.” He begged never taking his eyes off mine.
His words sank in making my heart melt like a burning candle; he really did love me. All my reservations from moments ago disappeared as I let his words repeat over and over again in my mind. He was capable of loving again; not only were his words true but I could feel it, I could feel the love he had for me. Without another word I raised my head and positioned my lips at the base of his neck above his collarbone and traced the area with my tongue.
The previous mark from his deceased mate Dana had all but faded into two tiny light scars; the moment I would mark him they would disappear completely breaking any bond that he would have had left with her if she were still alive. I felt him shiver in anticipation as I lightly dragged my teeth across his skin. I felt my canines descend and rested them on his skin waiting for him to do the same to me. The moment I felt his teeth touch my skin we both bit down marking each other as mates.
At first there was a slight pain but it was quickly replaced by waves of pleasure that I never thought could have existed. Feelings of love and passion rushed through every inch of me making me softly moan; Klaus returned his own moans and growls of pleasure that just intensified the already overwhelming feelings coursing through my body. We licked away the few drops of body that escaped the already healing puncture wounds before locking eyes once again.
“Mine; all mine.” Klaus growled before pulling my tank top over my body and assaulting my skin with kisses.
He made slow and sensual love to me; it was even more amazing now that we were connected with the bond. I could feel everything that he felt; I could hear everything that he thought. If there was any doubt left that he loved me it would have been erased the moment he let me into his mind. I knew that he could block me out if he wanted to but he didn’t; he let me in and I could feel all the love he had for me giving me no doubt that I had made the right decision becoming his mate.
I knew that from this moment on my life would never be the same; I would have one more person in my life that I would love forever. He meant the world to me; the love I had for him only second to the love I had for our son. We had a bond that would only be broken by death and if I had anything to do with it that wouldn’t happen for a long time. I would give up my life for him and knew that he would do the same for me. Finally I felt like my life was once again complete; I had my mate who loved me and we had our son who we both loved with all our hearts. I once again had a family and I was determined not to lose it; we would live long and happy lives together as soon as we solved one problem, Garrett.
It had been two weeks since I received the package from Garrett; other than staying locked up in the pack house the whole time everything else seemed to be returning to normal. The relationship between Klaus and I was growing everyday; it was like we had been together for years rather than weeks. Although I felt safe in the pack house my wolf was itching to get out and go for a run; I have to admit I was ready to see new faces too. The only people I had seen for the last two weeks were Klaus, Chloe, Dane and a few other pack members that worked in the pack house during the day.
“Would it be alright if I went for a run today?” I asked Klaus as we finished up some new pack schedules.
“I guess that would be alright if you stay close to the pack house and take someone with you. I will have a few men run the perimeter first and I want you to stay away from the edges of the territory.” He replied before offering me a smile.
“I will; my wolf just needs to get out and run for a little while.” I said before standing up to leave.
“Dane will meet you at the back door in a few minutes; please don’t leave without him.” He said grabbing my hand and pulling me into a hug.
“I won’t, I love you.” I replied pulling him into a kiss.
“I love you too Alexina.” He said before letting me go.
I made my way to the back porch and waited for Dane to arrive. Once he arrived we walked together to the wood line before shifting into our wolves. He let me take the lead on our run and I was careful not to go more than a few miles from the pack house. The threat that Garrett would attack was still fresh in my mind and I didn’t want to be far from home in case anything happened. We were only about twenty minutes into our run when Dane asked to stop through mind link.
“Klaus needs me back at the house for something. Do you want to go back or should I call someone else to escort you?” He asked.
“I will call Tristan; I haven’t seen him in weeks.” I replied happily. It had been a while since I was able to talk to Tristan and I was anxious to see him again.
“That figures.” Dane replied sounding slightly angry.
“What is that supposed to mean?” I asked back.
“What do you think that I don’t know that you have feelings for him?” Dane replied followed by a low growl.
“I don’t know what you are talking about; Tristan and I are just friends, that’s all.” I said back with a growl of my own; who did he think he was assuming that something was going on between me and Tristan?
“You might be able to fool Klaus but you won’t fool me; I know what happened between you two.” Dane replied; I could see a smirk forming on his muzzle and that only pissed me off more.
“I don’t know what you think you know but you’re wrong if you think there is anything more than friendship between us.” I replied.
“Are you going to deny the fact that you fucked him?” Dane said arrogantly; I’m pretty sure that my mouth dropped open and I gasped. How did he know that? Was Tristan telling people?
“I will take that as a no. I have been watching you even since you arrived her Zena; I know everything that you have done. So what are your true feelings for Tristan?” He continued when I didn’t answer.
“That’s none of your business Dane!” I shouted back at him.
“Your right it’s not, but I think maybe he should know.” Dane replied as he tiled his head behind me. I turned around to see Tristan’s wolf standing a few feet behind me. I hadn’t heard him approach or felt him join in our mind link; shit how could I have let my guard down that much?
“I will leave you two to it then.” Dane replied before trotting off back towards the pack house.
Tristan’s wolf walked up to mine and gave me a few sniffs before wrinkling his nose at me and letting out a growl; no doubt he could smell the bond between me and Klaus.
“So you mated with him?” He asked sounding a little upset.
“Yes, I love him.” I replied.
“What about me; do you not have any feelings for me?” He growled back.
“Tristan you are a great friend and have been there for me when I needed you but I love Klaus and we have a child together.” I replied hoping that he would understand.
“What if you didn’t have Nicolas; what would your feelings be for me then?” He asked taking a step closer to me.
“Tristan please, let’s not do this. Can’t we just be friends?” I begged; I didn’t want to get into this with him right now.
“I need to know Zena; if you weren’t in love with Klaus would you have feelings for me?” He asked again.
“I don’t know Tristan; we had a connection but it wasn’t the same as the connection I have with Klaus. You will always have a place in my heart as a dear friend but it could never be more.” I finally admitted; although I don’t know if it was really the truth. I do love Klaus but if he wasn’t in the picture I might be able to see something more between Tristan and me.
“He’s not right for you Zena; he could never love you like I can.” Tristan replied taking a few more steps toward me closing the gap so that we were only inches apart.
“Don’t do this Tristan. Please just accept the fact that I am with Klaus; I don’t want to lose you as a friend.” I begged lowering my head.
“I can’t do that Zena; I can’t just be your friend. I have tried that before and every time I am close to you I have a hard time holding myself back. You need to choose it’s either me or Klaus; you can’t have both!” He replied nudging my muzzle to get me to look up at him.
“Please Tristan don’t make me do this!” I begged; if he made me choose it would be Klaus.
“That’s all the answer I needed; you either need to go back to the pack house or call someone else to baby sit you, I’m done here.” He growled back at me with more anger than I have ever felt from him.
It felt like my heart was being torn in two I didn’t want to lose Tristan but the love I had for Klaus was more than the love I had for him; what was I supposed to do? I turned on my heels and ran as fast as I could back towards the pack house as the tears started to soak my white fur. How could Tristan make me chose like that; how could he throw away our friendship just because I didn’t have the same love for him as I had for Klaus? Why did he have to be so cruel?
After shifting back to human form at the edge of the wood line I started making my way back up to the pack house. The long painful sounding howl that came from the woods behind me no doubt was Tristan and the sound almost brought me to my knees. I had hurt him and I doubted he would ever forgive me for it. What would my life be like without him to fall back on when I needed a friend?
I ran the rest of the way to the pack house and locked myself in my room to cry for the next few hours. I somehow managed to pull myself together to take a shower and have dinner with Klaus. Klaus asked me several times what was wrong but I refused to tell him; there was no need to pull him into this mess too. There was already a thick tension between Tristan and Klaus and I didn’t want to make it worse.