Letting Him Go

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Chapter 9


It had been a week since everything had happened with Mandy things here were crazier than ever. My dad had placed body guards (enforcers wolves) everywhere from both our pack and Matthew’s pack and I couldn’t go anywhere alone. I felt like Mandy, except I had not done anything wrong.

My dad wanted Mandy dead, she was a traitor and she needed to be dealt with. Matthew only intervened for the sake of his daughter. She was not in any way off the hook. She was taken to where Matthew’s Pack kept their prisoners and she was locked up in a cell. She was only let out to spend time with Isabelle. When I felt myself feeling sorry for her I thought back to how cruel and ugly she had been that day.

Matt true to his word had stayed away from me and had, in no way tried to come between me and Nick. It was getting closer to my due date and I still had so many things to buy. Nick had been busy in meetings with my dad and the other Alpha’s; they were trying to find out Andrew’s current location. The threat to my life had everyone on edge. They knew he was coming for me, but they didn’t know when.

“What’s wrong, Love?” he asked attentively.

“I hate being followed all the time.” I said frowning.

“I know you do,” he said looking sympathetic.

“I hate that your unhappy Alli, I really do but I need for you to be safe. It’s not only your life that’s at risk,” he sighed, pulling me into his arms.

“I know,” I whispered.

He was right. My son was in danger too and it was my job to keep him safe. I didn’t know how much longer I was going to make it before my anxiety got bad. They needed to find Andrew and kill him. I wanted my life back.


Every day since Mandy had told me what she had done had been hard for me. I lived with the fact that my mate was with someone else. Before it had not been so bad because I had truly loved Mandy. I wanted to see her and hold her. I fought with myself all the time to stop from going to her. I knew that I had to do what I could to just move on with my life.

Mandy was getting harder and harder to deal with. She continued to taunt me about how I had lost my mate. I didn’t know what was going to happen to her. She was my daughter’s mother and it saddened me to think that my daughter would have to grow up without her. I sat with my daughter and rocked her back and forth trying to calm her; she had had a bad night. It was almost as if she knew what was going on around her. She was under guard 24 hours a day; anyone who posed a threat was to be killed. Isabelle was this packs future Luna and the pack would all protect her with their lives.


I was going crazy in this cell all I could think about was how Alli had ruined the life I had made for myself. Everything was perfect until she came into the picture. Matthew was mine. He was my husband. It filled me with rage that she had been right. Matthew had chosen her even when he had decided to stay with me.

I had to find a way to get out of here. I knew that I would not be able to take Isabelle with me and my heart broke. The truth was that I needed to be free more then I needed to be her mother. I could always have more children but I would die if I stayed here much longer. Isabelle would be safe with Matthew; she would grow up and take over his pack one day. That was the last thing I thought before I drifted off to sleep.


I didn’t know what to do anymore. I felt helpless just waiting for Andrew to try and get to Alli. All I could do was make sure that she was never alone. I knew that she hated being followed all the time; I also knew she put up with it for our son. There were so many things that were weighing heavy on my mind. Matthew was free again and it was hard for me to believe that he would stay away from Alli. So far he had stayed true to his word and I was thankful. Alli had not tried to contact him in any way either and my heart swelled with the knowledge that she had no intention of leaving me.

I was so lost in thought that I didn’t see the car behind me. By the time I realized what was going on it had hit me and pushed my car off the road. Causing me to hit a tree hard. I tried to move but I was pinned. I could fell blood running down my face and I struggled to breath. I felt my door being opened and someone talking. I tried to look up but it hurt too much to move. The next thing I felt was a prick in my arm and then nothing.


Today had been a really long day. There was still so much to do before the baby was here. Thinking about what I still had left was making my head hurt. I couldn’t wait to get home; Nick always made me feel better. Things were still crazy but with each passing day I got more used to my bodyguards. I knew most of them since they were part of my pack so sometimes we would just sit and talk. When we pulled up to the house Nick’s car wasn’t there and everything was dark in the house. That was weird; he called me 20 minutes ago to say that he was heading home. I pulled my cell phone out and dialed his number. It went straight to voice mail. Bells started going off in my head and I started to panic. Something was wrong I knew for a fact that Nick would never turn his phone off or let it go dead. Not with what was going on right now. I was having a hard time catching my breath thinking about all the things that could have happened.

“Alli are you okay?” Nate said looking concerned.

I looked up to see him and Kevin looking very worried. “Somethings not right,something happened to Nick.” I said tears filling my eyes.

I picked up my phone and dialed.

“Daddy I need you.” I cried into the phone.

“What’s wrong Alli?” he asked apprehensively.

“Daddy please come right now.” I said handing the phone to Nate.

“I don’t know Alpha she says that something’s wrong with Nick, Yes Alpha.” He said ending the call.

“Alli he’s on his way,” he said handing me back my phone.

I waited for my dad in my car I refused to get out. I wanted to go look for Nick. I dialed Nick’s number and again it went straight to voice mail. I felt sick, I rubbed my belly to try and calm myself.

“Alli what’s wrong?” My dad asked opening the car door.

“Nick’s not answering his phone.” I sobbed.

He looked at me like I had lost my mind.

“He called me to tell me he was on his way home he should have been here before me. He’s not here!” I yelled.

“Alli calm down” He said grabbing my hand in his.

“He would never not answer his phone dad.” I screamed.

“I'm telling you something’s not right.”I pleaded. I was getting more upset by the minute.

I was on my way to a full blown panic attack.

“Baby girl please try to calm down this is not good for the baby.” He said picking me up in his arms and carrying me inside the house.


I didn’t know what was going on. I hurt all over and I couldn’t seem to keep my eyes open for more than a few seconds. I could hear voices in the back ground talking but I couldn’t make out what they were saying. My mind was foggy and I was having a hard time trying to piece together what had just happened and where I was. Why did I smell blood? I knew that I had to try harder to open my eyes but I just couldn’t. My eyes grew heavy and again I fell into darkness.


I pulled up to Alli’s house and there were cars everywhere. What the hell was going on? I thought to myself. Alpha Mark had called and said that he needed me to come to Nick and Alli’s. When I had asked why he had said that he would explain when I got here. He had told me to please hurry. As I walked up to the door my mind was racing thinking about what could be going on. It wasn’t till Mark opened the door and I saw the look on his face that my mind went to Alli.

“Is Alli ok?” I asked needing to calm my wolf.

“No, something happened to Nick.” He said letting me in.

“What happened to Nick?” I asked trying to calm my racing heart.

“We don’t know, but he seems to be missing, she’s bad right now Matthew. We can’t get her to calm down.” He beseeched me.

“So you called me.” I whispered.

“Where is she?” I said gritting my teeth.

“I know what I’m asking of you Matthew and I would never do this to you if it wasn’t so important. She’s going to hurt the baby if she keeps on this way.” He said blinking back tears.

I walked into the room that she shared with Nick and I felt a pang in my heart, but that was nothing compared to what I felt when I saw her balled up in the middle of her bed.

“Alli,” I said sitting on the edge of her bed. She lifted her head to look at me.

“Why are you here?! She yelled.

I was shocked at her reaction to me. This was not going to go well.

“I bet you’re glad he’s missing aren’t you?” She growled.

Me being here was only making her more distressed. I got up to leave and she starting sobbing harder. She was making herself sick. I knew that she would hate me for what I was about to do but I had to. For her and the baby. Before I could change my mind I walked back to the bed and before she could react or say anything I pulled her into my arms.


I felt myself calming down and I was able to think clearly again. I knew that I was hurting my baby by working myself up like that. I just couldn’t calm down. His touch was so soothing he just held me and I couldn’t bring myself to push him away. I wanted Nick I needed him, silent tears fell from my eyes and he wiped them away. My skin tingled from where he touched me and I closed my eyes wanting it to stop.

“Alli, are you calm now?” Matt whispered in my ear.

I shivered and I hated myself for it.

“Yes,” I said feeling drained.

“We have to find him Matt.” I said trying to not to cry again.

“We will I promise. Just try to rest for the sake of the baby.” He said sounding worried.

“I won’t stop looking for him till I’ve found him and brought him back to you,” he said holding me close. “Just rest,” he said sounding sad.

I closed my eyes knowing that he would do what he said. I let myself fall into a deep sleep feeling safe and loved.

I woke up and looked around only to find an empty bed. I felt so much better now that I didn’t feel so tired. I got out of bed and walked out of my room only to find Nate sitting next to my door.

“Where is everyone?” I asked walking past him.

“There not back yet,” he said as the front door closed.

My dad came walking around the corner.

“I was just coming to check on you?” He said pulling me into a hug.

“Dad what’s going on?” I asked afraid of what the answer would be.

“Our pack and Matthew’s Pack have been out all night looking for him. We can’t find anything. Not his car. Nothing.” he replied watching for my reaction.

How was I going to not lose it? My Mate was missing and someone was trying to kill me. It was all too much I started to feel dizzy and then all I saw was black.


The fog was finally lifting from my brain and I was able to think straight for the first time in days. I opened my eyes slowly it took me a minute to focus. I remembered hitting the tree and then it was kind of fuzzy from there. Where was I, I looked around trying to see if anything looked familiar. What the hell! I was in a cell with a bed in it. There was only light coming in from the window above my head.

My head snapped up when I heard someone crying I looked in the corner and there was a girl sitting in the corner. I couldn’t see her face because she had her head in her hands shaking. Who was she? Why did I feel the urge to comfort her? What was I doing here? Where was Alli?


A few days had passed by since Nick went missing and I was barely getting through each day. I missed him so much my heart ached for him. I hated not knowing what had happened to him. Was he ok? Was he trying to get back to me? My breathing started to get fast and I knew that I was on the verge of another panic attack.

“Alli please calm down, you need to stay calm for the baby. You know that that’s what Nick would want”. Macy begged sitting next to me.

“It’s so hard, I miss him Macy. What if he’s not ok?” I said fighting back tears.

“Nick loves you and he will find a way back to you. He wouldn’t miss this little guy coming into the world.” She said rubbing my belly.

"You need to try and sleep, you have only slept a few hours these past few days. You have to stay healthy and strong for the baby. “She said frowning.

“I can’t! I’m so anxious I can’t seem to calm myself.” I said getting up and walking to the window.

“Why not let Matthew help you again?” she asked.

“No,” I said turning to face her.” I don’t want him!” I said tears running down my face.

” I think you’re being hard on him Alli. Yes, maybe he touched you without your permission but in his defense it was for your own good.” She said frowning.

“You need to see it from his point of view, he came because they called him here. Do you honestly think that this was easy for him, I love Nick Alli, and you know that? But that will never change the fact that Matthew is your first mate. He has to be hurting Alli and bad. He did it for you and the baby, you need to snap out of it and just do what you have to do to keep your baby safe and healthy”. She said walking to the door.

She was right I was falling apart and I couldn’t see anything past the fact that Nick was missing. I ate because our son needed food but I wasn’t hungry. I was falling into depression. I closed my eyes and tried to see him kissing my belly and asking the baby how his boy was today. My heart was breaking and there was only one person who could help me through this right now. Macy was right how could I be mad when all he was doing was trying to help me. I picked up my phone and dialed.

“Hello, Ummm Matt its Alli.” I said trying hard to not break down.

There was a brief silence before he said, “I’ll be right there” Ok.” I said ending our call.


I was exhausted I had been looking for Nick nonstop for days. We were no closer to finding her then we were then. There was still the threat to Alli’s Life everyone was on guard just waiting for the other shoe to drop. I went to see Isabelle and I couldn’t help but wonder what it would have been like if Alli was her mother. I sighed knowing that it was just wishful thinking. Isabelle opened her eyes and stared up at me with those beautiful bright green eyes she was so perfect. My heart swelled with love for her, my thoughts went to Nick and what he must be feeling right now knowing that his child was so close to coming and he couldn’t get to Alli. I knew that someone had to have taken him, there’s no way he would have walked away from Alli. He stood up to me twice knowing that I was her first mate and that I could easily kill him. I admired him for that. If I couldn’t have Alli there was no one better, then Nick.

My phone rang and I was surprised when I heard Alli’s voice on the line.

"Matt it’s me Alli.” I could hear the emotion in her voice and I knew how hard it must have been for her to call me. I wasn’t going to make it any harder.

““I’ll be right there.” I said putting Isabelle down and heading to the door.

When I walked into her room I was shocked at how tired she looked. Her eyes were puffy and she looked like she could drop any minute. If I had known that she was this bad I would have come sooner. It was killing me to see her hurting like this I knew that I could make her forget for a while but I also knew that to her it felt like she was betraying Nick. It didn’t matter that we were supposed to be together she hated how I made her feel. She had no control over her body or her emotions when she was close to me. Nick was her mate in her eyes and I knew that if she could calm herself any other way I wouldn’t be here. I went and sat next to her on her bed and looked up to see her holding her hands in her lap. She looked so fragile yet so beautiful with her growing belly.

I reached over and grabbed one of her hands and held it in mine. I looked to see that she had her eyes closed and that her breathing was not so erratic.

“I’m sorry to make you come.” She said looking away.

“I told you Alli, I will always come when you call.” I whispered.


I felt my body relaxing and I was thankful, I was so tired. I leaned closer to Matthew and I laid my head on his shoulder. It felt so comforting to be with him. How could I feel like this for both Matthew and Nick? They both made me feel safe and loved. I laid my hand on my belly and let myself drift to sleep.

I woke up feeling so much better. I knew that Matthew would be gone so I didn’t bother looking to see if he was still in the room with me. I knew that there was a chance that maybe I wouldn’t see Nick again. It crushed me to even think about it. I needed to do something to get my mind off of everything that was going on. I got up and walked to the door and peeked out.

“Did you need something Alli?” Nate said getting up from the chair he was sitting on.

“No I think I just want to go outside for a little bit.” I said walking past him.

He got up and followed close behind making sure to call and let them know where we were going. I sat on the bench behind my house and looked at my garden. Tears filled my eyes thinking about how Nick had hired someone to plant all the things here for me. I didn’t want to think about my life without him. He was my husband and the father of my baby, he just had to be ok.


The girl had not quit crying, I still had not seen anyone. I didn’t know why I was here and it was driving me crazy. Was Alli ok? I knew that the best thing for me to do was stay calm. I turned to see that the girl has finally stopped crying she looked up and my heart stopped.

“Olivia.” I said shocked. She looked as shocked as I did.

“Nick is that you?” She said getting up off the floor.

What the hell, this could not be happening to me.

“Why are we here?” I asked hoping she would have the answer.

“I don’t know. I’ve been looking for you. I was going around to the packs to see if anyone knew you or where I could find you. I met an Alpha named Andrew and when I told him that I was looking for you and why he locked me up here.” She said moving closer to me.

“Why would you be looking for me, you made it very clear how you felt about me the last time I saw you.” I said standing up.

“I was wrong to act that way, I was scared and didn’t know how to handle what you were telling me. I love you Nick, I’ve never stopped.” She came and stood in front of me and froze.

Being close to her had my emotions going all over the place, I needed to get away from her so that I could clear my mind. Why did she have to show up now? It was clear now that Andrew was the one who had brought me here. I knew whatever he had up his sleeve was not going to be good. This was going to hurt Alli which was most likely why he did it. If Alli hurt so did Matthew, He was using me to hurt her and there was nothing I could do about it.

“You’re married?” She said tears forming in her eyes.

“Yes, and my son is due in the next few weeks.” I said a smile on my face.

I looked up to see that Olivia looked devastated. She was mate and I knew that it had to hurt her. I wanted to hold her in my arms and take that hurt away, but I wouldn’t. I loved Alli she was my mate now and the mother of my unborn child. I had made my choice and I would never hurt Alli by betraying her. The door opened and I turned my head to see Andrew walking in. I knew what he looked like because of the information we had on him.

“I see you finally figured out who was in there with you.” He chuckled.

“Poor Alli is going to be so heart broken.” He said a smirk on his face.

“What do you want with us?” I said glaring at him.

“You’re my bait.” He said folding his arms over his chest.

“By now everyone is out looking for you, and that leaves Alli with less protection. Finding your first mate was an accident, but it works in our favor. We can control you as long as we have her. Really bad for you though, stay loyal to your wife, or do what we say to keep her alive.” He said looking at Olivia.

I felt all the blood leave my face and I knew that I was right this was going to end very badly. When it came down to it how was I going to choose.

“I want you to call Matthew and tell him that I have you and your Mate.” He grinned.

I knew what he wanted he knew that by telling Matthew that he would send more people out looking for me. I wasn’t going to play his game.


I hated to leave her all I wanted to do was lay there with her holding her close to me. But for as much as I wanted her she wanted only Nick. I needed to focus my mind somewhere else before I drove myself crazy. I had my hand on the door when Macy stopped me.

“Mr. Eastman, How’s Alli? She said looking worried.

“I left her sleeping.” I said grabbing my ringing phone.

“Hello, Matthew its Nick.” I froze waiting for him to say something else.

“Look, Andrew has me and my first mate.” He said with so much emotion I felt it.

“He’s using my mate as a way of controlling me, I won’t do anything to hurt Alli.” He paused and I waited.

“Don’t come looking for me, he wants to draw attention to me and away from Alli. Making her easier to get too. I’m not going to make it back alive, as soon as he knows that I didn’t do what he wanted it’s over for me.”He rushed out.

I heard a sob in the back ground and I realized that must be his mate. He was going to sacrifice himself and let his mate die to save Alli.

“I need you to tell Alli that I love her and that I’m sorry that I’m not going to be there when the baby comes. Take care of her Matthew, tell her to tell my son everyday how much his daddy loved him.” He choked out.

My heart hurt for him, he had been my rival when it came to Alli. He was doing what I didn’t he was choosing his Mate over everything, Even his first mate. He was willing to die and go through the pain of watching his first mate die to keep her safe.

“I’m coming for you, do not give up on Alli now. She needs you. Stay alive for her and your son.” I said meaning every word.

I looked up to see a shocked Macy.

“What are you going to do?” She asked crying.

” I’m going to go pay Mandy a visit.” I said walking out the front door.

“I’m coming with you.” She said running to catch up with me.

I grabbed my phone and called Alpha Mark to let him know what was going on and to make sure that Alli stayed where she was.


Alli was going to be devastated if she lost Nick. I knew that we had to get Mandy to talk, and fast. Nick’s life was on the line. I tried my best to calm my racing heart, I knew that she was the only one who could tell us where to find him. We pulled up to the pack house and I followed Matthew inside the house. Wow this place was awesome it was huge. He led me to the basement where there were a bunch of cells. They were all empty except for the one that Mandy was in. She frowned when she saw us and I narrowed my eyes at her.

“What do you want Matthew?” She said glaring at him.

He opened her cell door and stepped inside closing it behind us.

“Tell me where Andrew keeps his prisoners!” He demanded.

Why?” She asked moving away from us.

“Why should I tell you anything after you’ve locked me up like a dog?” She spat.

“He has Alli’s Mate.” I said trying to get her to see reason.

“Aww poor Alli’s mate is missing, she must be so devastated.” She said grinning.

“I’m glad, it’s her fault I’m here in the first place. Matthew and I were perfect before she came along.” She said looking crazed.

This girl was a piece of work she was to blame for what happened to her. I felt my wolf start to come to the surface and I knew that my wolf was angry. We loved Alli. She was our sister and we were not about to let her suffer more then she already had. I knew that my eyes were glowing by the look on her face.

“I’m only going to give you one more chance to answer the question.” I said backing her into the wall and wrapping my hand around her neck.

I pulled my lips back showing her my canines.

“Tell me where Andrew keeps his prisoners before I rip your f*****g throat out you ignorant B***h. I growled.


I woke up knowing that Matthew was gone, I was relieved that I didn’t have to deal with him right now. My thoughts went straight to Nick and where he was. The baby kicked like he was reminding me that he was still with me. I smiled, knowing that no matter what happened I still had my baby. I was getting better at keeping myself calm it made me feel better knowing that I didn’t have to depend on Matthew so much.

“How are you doing baby girl?” My mom said coming into my room.

“I’m better than I was earlier.” I said laying my head on her shoulder.

“Everything is going to be just fine”, she said patting my back.

“Alli”, she said looking into my eyes.

“No matter what happens with Nick you need to stay strong for this baby”. She said holding my hand in hers.

Did she know something that she wasn’t telling me? What was going on? I felt my heart start to speed up and the panic coming on.

“Mom, what do you know?” I said standing up.

“Mom, please tell me.” I said my eyes watering.

“Nick called Matthew to tell him that Andrew has him and”, she paused and looked at me sadly.

“They also have Nicks mate.”She whispered.

Mate was all that kept repeating in my head over and over. In that moment I felt the world crashing down around me. This was it, I was going to be alone. After all my heartache with Matthew fate kept being cruel to me. What must Nick be thinking right now? I felt my heart starting to break and I couldn’t stop the tears from falling.


Olivia had not said one word to me since I had gotten off the phone. She just sat in the corner with her head in her hands. I know that I had hurt her, but what could I really do. Alli was who I loved. Yes, I had a connection to Olivia but she had rejected me and left my heart broken. Alli was the one that had picked up the pieces and healed my broken heart. She had given up her mate to be with me, she could have gone back to Matthew after what Mandy had done. She proved her love to me by staying, she was everything to me. I wasn’t keeping my hopes high that I would ever see her again. I was willing to die here to make sure that she stayed safe. A pang of guilt hit me thinking that I was condemning Olivia to die also. I had to choose, and I had chosen Alli.

“How can you do this to me?” Olivia whispered from across the room.

“Do I mean so little to you that you’re willing to just let me die to save your whore?” She spat.

I felt my wolf coming to the surface and I made myself stay sitting where I was.

“I can understand why you’re angry, but don’t take your anger out on Alli.” I growled.

“You never stop defending her.” She yelled.

“What about me? I’m your mate. How can you choose her over me?”She yelled angrily.

“You stopped being my mate the day you rejected me.” I said glaring at her.

“Did you really think that I didn’t know what you did?” Andrew said opening the cell door.

He had two shifters with him and I knew that this was it.

“I’m sorry,” I said looking at Olivia who was trying to hide behind me. I pushed Olivia to the corner and shifted.


As soon as Mandy had told us what we needed to know I called Mark letting him know what was going on. I had my Beta and a few other members of my pack come with me and I sent Macy to be with Alli. She was going to need her friend if things went bad. I needed to get Nick back alive for Alli. The drive to the house Mandy had told us about was only a few minutes away and it made me angry that he had been hiding right under our nose the whole time. When we pulled up there were about 15 wolves guarding the house.

My pack spread out and shifted. They were all dead before they knew what was happening. It made me laugh thinking that Andrew thought that he could take me. My pack was the biggest pack for a reason. Yes, I was young but I was ruthless at the same time. I showed no mercy, where mercy was not deserved. My wolf was angry, Andrew thought that he could try and kill my mate and get away with it. He would die today, and I was going to enjoy watching the life leave his body.

We were in the house in a matter of minutes, we found the door that lead to the basement and the smell of blood hit me right away. I could hear Andrew laughing.

“Aww too bad you won’t be able to save Matthew’s Mate.” He laughed.

When he heard us his head snapped to me and he laughed.

“Your poor little mate is going to be so heartbroken.” He laughed mockingly.

“You’re too late, Alpha.” He spat.

I looked to where he was standing and there sat a pale looking girl covered in blood. She had Nick’s broken bloody body in her arms screaming. There were two dead wolves laying on the ground, there was blood everywhere. I wasn’t sure if she was hurt or if Nick was still alive. I needed to get him out of here and fast.

“Say good bye Andrew, I’m about to rip your throat out.” I growled before I shifted. I saw the fear in his eyes before I attacked.


I fought as long and as hard as I could. I just hoped it was enough to keep Olivia alive. My thoughts went to Alli and our baby and I hoped that Matthew would take care of them. I could hear someone screaming, I tired opening my eyes but I couldn’t. I felt myself being carried.

“Do not die you son of a B***H. Live for Alli and your baby.” Matthew growled.

That was the last thing I heard before I slipped into darkness.


I was running to the car with Nick in my arms yelling to my pack to get the girl and take her to Mark’s. The pack doctor was waiting for us there. He had to live, He was in bad shape he had a lot of deep gashes and he had lost a lot of blood. His body was trying to heal but there was too much damage. He was so still and he was barely breathing I hoped I made it to the pack house before I was too late.

When we pulled up Alpha Mark and Nicks Parents were there waiting. I carried him inside and the doctor took over. We all went and sat in the living room to wait. The door opened and my pack walked in with the girl that had been with Nick, his mate. She looked like she was in shock and I felt bad for her. She looked around nervously.

“Where’s Nick?” She said tears falling from her eyes.

Everyone just stared at her for a while before Nick’s dad asked

“Who are you?”Someone asked.

“I’m his mate,” she whispered. The room went quiet and I looked to the door and saw why.


What was going on? Nate had said that I needed to get to my dad’s quick. He wouldn’t tell me anything and I was about to go crazy. I walked out to my car and Macy got in the driver’s seat. A million things were going through my head. Had they found Nick, if they had why didn’t he come home. When we pulled up Nick’s parent’s car was here and so was the doctors. My heart stopped and it took me a minute to catch my breath.

“Alli come on.” Macy said opening the door and helping me out.

The closer we got to the front door the more I was filled with dread.

I walked in and I saw everybody in the living room. There was a girl covered in blood and she was crying. Then I heard it, “I’m his mate"

Everyone looked up to me and I was so shocked that I stood there frozen.

This was his first mate, she was beautiful and I couldn’t stop the jealousy that shot threw me.

“Where’s Nick!” I cried.

“Alli calm down,” my dad said getting up from the couch.

I was calm! I mean I was as calm as I was going to get.

“Where is he daddy? I need to see him.” I said tears falling down my face.

“The doctor is working on him right now, he’s in bad shape Alli.” he said sadly.

“No, he can’t leave me,” I said rubbing my belly.

The girl looked over at me and I could see the hate in her eyes. She looked down to my belly and she frowned.

“This is your fault”, she spat.

“They only took him because they wanted you! If he dies, it’s on you.”She said accusingly.

“I would keep your mouth shut if you want to keep your tongue.” Macy said pulling me behind her.

The girl paled and closed her mouth. My knees started getting weak and the room starting spinning she was right. I tried to keep myself from falling but it was useless. Matthew was across the room before I hit the floor.


This girl wanted me to rip her throat out! How dare she talk to Alli like that? Alli was a mess as it was she didn’t need to be burdened with more things. When Alli had started to fall, I had frozen. Luckily Matthew had caught her. He picked her up and carried her to the couch and sat down with her still in his arms. It was hard to watch him with her. He loved her and I knew that Alli only wanted Nick. Matthew had hurt her and she had every right to feel like she did. But in moments like this I wish she could see how he looked at her, how he held her so gently.

“Why is he holding her like that?” Nick’s mate asked looking confused.

“Isn’t she married to Nick?”She said sneered.

“Not that it’s any of your business but that’s her first mate, just like your Nick’s." I shot back.

Matthew narrowed his eyes at me and turned his attention back to Alli.

“What’s your name?” I asked the girl standing in front of me.

“Olivia,” She responded.

“Ok Olivia, let’s get this all straight before Alli wakes up.” I said frowning.

“Nick loves Alli and she loves him. He is not going to leave Alli for you. Mate or not. So, if I were you I would stop with the remarks. Alli is an Alpha. She’s actually our future Luna, so if you know what’s good for you I would just keep your mouth nice and shut. You got that?” I growled.


I could hear crying and it hurt my heart to hear it, I opened my eyes and there was Alli. She looked horrible, her gut wrenching cries broke my heart.

“Alli”, I whispered.

Her head snapped up to look at me and she starting crying even more.

The need to wrap her in my arms was so strong. I wanted to take all her pain away.

“Baby, it’s ok, I’m going to be fine.” I said trying to get up.

My body hurt and I groaned from the pain that moving caused me.

“Quit moving, and lay back down.” She growled.

I smiled up at her and she smiled.

“Come closer Alli, I want to see how my little man is doing?”I begged.

She came and stood by the bed and I laid my hands on her belly.

“How’s my boy today? I said kissing her belly.

She smiled when the baby kicked.

“He’s missed you as much as I have."She said her eyes starting to water.

I met your mate.” She said quietly.

The pain in her eyes was unbearable for me.

“I’m not leaving you Alli. She’s part of my past nothing more.” I said pulling her close to me.

“Do you still love her?” She asked looking away.

“It’s ok if you do, I of all people know what that’s like. “She said looking sad.

What was I supposed to say to that? Yes, a part of me would always love Olivia but she wasn’t who I wanted to be with.

“Yes, a small part of me does.” I said waiting for her reaction,”

ok” she said kissing me.

“Thank you for being honest with me.” She smiled.


When Alli had come to she has been angry that I was holding her. She had moved away from me as fast as she could and I had fought to mask the hurt that I felt. I had just gotten up and walked out. I knew that I had caused her to hate me and there was really no one to blame but myself. My pack had found Andrew’s Pack house and they had found Mandy’s mother locked in one of the rooms. Now that the threat to Alli was over I decided that I was going to let Mandy free. She was free to go live anywhere with her mother as long as she was far from me. I would allow her to see Isabelle as long as one of my pack members was with her.

It had fallen to me to get Nick’s mate some where to stay for the night. No one wanted anything to do with her. She wasn’t the most pleasant person to be around.

“How can you just let your mate be with someone else?” She had asked on the car ride to the hotel.

“He’s my mate.” She said frowning.

They had told me about how she had rejected Nick and a part of me felt sorry for her. I knew what she was feeling.

“We lost our mates because of our actions, there is no one to blame but ourselves.” I said looking her in the eyes.

“They are lost to us; the sooner you accept it the easier your life will be.” I said stopping at the airport to let her out.

"There is a open ticket at the counter for you. I don't care where you go,as long as it's far from here." I said driving away.

The words coming out of my mouth were hurtful and heartbreaking but I knew that every word was true. There was no hope, Alli would never be mine, just as Nick would never be hers.

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