|she's not a dog|
“Rix, where the fuck are you?” Celeste hissed.
I held the phone away from my ear as she ranted on the other end. I was mindlessly walking home; I’ve been walking for about two hours... I can’t get Lila out of my head, but I want to keep her there. Engraved into my mind like a tattoo.
I chuckled at Celeste before resting it against my ear again. “Have you finished?” I giggled.
“Oh, for fuck sake... You spoke to her, didn’t you?” She complained.
“I tried my hardest not to, but she spoke first. She lured me in without even realising.” I groaned. “Cel, she’s amazing. Wolves aren’t as father described at all.” I sighed.
I heard her take a deep breath and let it out exasperatedly. “I didn’t think they would be. Alarix, you know they’ll never allow it.” She murmured.
“Which is why I need your help,” I stated.
I don’t know what I was thinking... There’s no way I was ever going to stay away from her. Even if I never heard her voice, I would have gone back. I’m utterly smitten with her.
“Tell me what you need, Rix.” She sighed.
I love that she is prepared to go against our parents for me. It’s not an easy thing to do in our clan. My father is the head of the clan. He won’t hesitate to punish any of his children if we disrespect him or go against his wishes.
“I’m coming home, but I’m not staying. I need you to pack some of my clothes for me and pack the dust that masks our scent.” I remarked.
She drew in a sharp breath. “You’re leaving, aren’t you?” She whispered.
“I’m going back to Lila,” I whispered back. I’m not sure why I whispered; it’s not like anyone is here and can hear me.
Saying her name awakened feelings I’ve never had. I wanted to spin around and run back to her, but I couldn’t not until I have the dust that will mask my scent, so my parents can’t track me.
If they do find me, I’ll be miles away from them, living happily with my beloved.
“She’s got a beautiful name, Rix.” Celeste cooed. “I’ll pack you some basics. Alarix, be careful.” She sniffled.
“Cel, she’s stunning. She wasn’t what I was expecting at all.” I swooned. “Listen, I’m nearly home. I’ll come to your room... Make sure you’re alone.” I deadpanned.
She chuckled and hummed before ending the call. I walked so fast down our street; I was nearly running.
I was keen to get to her. I needed to hear her voice again, to see her face light up when she realises I’m coming with her. I needed to let her know I want her. I ache to hear her say my name... That I should have given her.
I craved to kiss her perfect lips. The desire to feed on her was almost too much... I’ve been told there’s no sensation in the world that would match feeding on your beloved.
I wanted everything... I wanted her to be mine, fully.
Because, fuck, I’m already hers.
I approached my door and sharpened my hearing. There was no movement whatsoever, so I was safe. I took a deep breath before opening the front door.
I stepped into the darkness and quietly shut the door. I breathed out in relief and leaned my forehead on the door.
“Alarix, where have you been?” Mother scolded, making me flinch.
“Oh, you’re still awake... I thought you’d be in bed after your feed.” I mentioned, pushing off the door. I couldn’t see her, but I knew she was waiting for her perfect movement to turn the light on.
“I’ve delayed my feed because my son decided to stay out late.” She grumbled. The light switched on, temporarily blinding me. I blinked a few times, adjusting to the brightness.
She stood up, scrunching her nose. “Why do you smell like a dog?” She groused.
“She’s not a dog.” I shot.
Fuck sake, why did I say that? Now she’s going to know. I was too consumed with her that I forgot I smell of her. Shit... Fuck, I didn’t think this through clearly.
“Lawrence!!” She screamed, shouting for my father.
My father bolted into the living room, his eyes darting between us both. His eyes narrowed in on me, and he wiggled his nose slightly.
“He’s met it.” She scrunched her nose up repulsively.
Oh, here we go.
“Who is she?” My father ordered.
I shrugged, trying to keep my expression neutral. “I saw her as her wolf. I don’t know her name or what she looks like,” I replied.
“Did you reject her, Alarix?” Mother raised her brow.
The thought of rejecting her nearly brought me to my knees. I won’t be doing that... I wouldn’t survive it.
I shook my head and rolled my eyes. “I left her in the forest. I don’t know her name, so I can’t reject her.” I answered.
“To reject her, you need to use her full title... Lila Morris, Warrior of The Dark Wolf Pack.” Father mentioned.
My eyes went wide, and I gasped. “You knew this whole time?” I exclaimed.
I can’t believe they knew this whole time and didn’t tell me! What kind of parents put their own selfish needs and stupid rules before their child’s happiness. They know I won’t be complete without my destined beloved, but they don’t have a problem making me miserable by auctioning me off like some fucking antique object. The price for their son is a damn deal.
Of course, she’s a warrior. I can see the fight in her... I am so lucky to have her as my beloved. None of this changes anything, though... I’m leaving with her.
“Well, it won’t matter anyway. I’m taking Lenora as my beloved.” I shrugged through gritted teeth.
I could taste the blood from biting on my tongue. I know her scent over my body and clothes would be the only scent they would be focused on so they won’t question why I’m bleeding.
“What was the prophecy? Why was I destined for a wolf?” I asked, plastering an offended expression on my face.
I want to know if they’ll tell me. I obviously don’t know everything... Lila mentioned a warlock. I didn’t know about that. I hate that everyone seems to know what’s going on but me.
“Why do you want to know?” Mother questioned, furrowing her brows at me.
“I was curious, that’s all. I honestly can’t believe that a wolf is supposed to be my beloved.” I groaned.
I had a bitter taste in my mouth as I was speaking about it. It’s not how I feel at all.
Mother nodded. “The prophecy was that... You were destined for a wolf from The Dark Wolf Pack.” She commented.
Bullshit, but I can’t argue about it... They’ll know something is up.
“Go get some sleep, son. Your beloved will be arriving tomorrow.” My father smiled at me.
I nodded and forced a smile on my face. “Rix, burn them clothes. Her scent is revolting.” My mother giggled.
I suppressed a hiss and nodded. I made my way upstairs, dragging in angry, low breaths. I'm confused, angry, anxious. I miss Lila too, and that itself is a foreign feeling. I've never missed anything in my life.
I made my way straight to Celeste's room and knocked on her door. She opened it and ushered me inside. "Oh, Alarix, I heard everything." She whispered as she wrapped her arms around me.
I took a deep breath and nodded. "Did you manage to get my things?" I whispered.
She nodded and pulled a bag from under her bed. "Everything you will need is in here, Rix." She mentioned as she handed me the bag.
"I'm going to miss you, Alarix." She muttered.
I nodded and wrapped my arms around her. "Thank you for doing this for me, Cel. I'll never forget it." I murmured.
"Who knows, maybe in the future... I can meet her." She smiled.
I nodded and tightened my arms around her before pulling away. "I need to go before they get suspicious and check on me." I sighed.
"Alarix, be happy." She breathed.
I nodded and pecked her cheek before walking out of her room. I made my way to my bedroom. I'm going to jump out of the window, then at least I won't get questioned as to where I am going.
I opened my window and threw my bag out. I jumped out after and took a deep breath. I started running towards the forest, keeping my pace normal so I didn't confuse humans as I passed.
I reached the forest and took out the dusk from the bag. I sprinkled some of it over me and held it in my palm as I bolted through the forest, emptying the dust behind me. I breathed out in relief as I saw her window in the distance.
I'm coming, Lila. I wish I could talk to her, let her know I was.
As I moved forward, a large hand gripped my shoulder, yanking me back.
"I fucking knew it... Dad is going to go berserk." Athan chuckled darkly.