Listening to Quinn tell Agnes stories of her childhood and stories of things she went through while she was on the run made me realise how much I barely knew her.
She had only been a child when she ran away from home to protect her parents.
She’d slaved away in kitchens and poor paying jobs just so she could eat. She’d escaped numerous situations where men had tried to take advantage of her and offer her money for sex. Men lying to her, abusing her...abusing a child. No wonder she had trust issues.
Then there was me. The moment Quinn had let her guard down with me, I had attacked her. I’d become just another one of the men on her journey that hurt her. It was almost more than I could bare.
I left the room, leaving Quinn with Agnes. I needed to clear my head. I’d been annoyed with Quinn this morning. I’d been annoyed that she’d accused me of jumping into bed with her for the wrong reasons. I wanted to yell at her and to make her feel bad. I had wanted to tell her that all I was trying to do was ease her nightmare, to help her feel safe. If she had even known the restraint it had taken to not run my hands over her skin, to not peel back her top, to not lose myself in her body.
Maybe I was a monster. To lie there next to her and not have my way with her had caused me physical pain, I had been too scared to close my eyes incase my wolf had taken over, too scared to go to sleep.
“You look like shit, Son” my father said as I approached him.
He had been putting our things in the car and making sure everything was ready to go. Alec said his goodbyes early this morning and left to attend a neighbouring town for pack business. He’d given us a crate of Eastern Ridge whiskey to take home.
Alec had been fortunate enough to inherit a distillery when he took over as Alpha. Eastern Ridge was known for its amazing whiskey and it had become a fairly profitable business for the pack, everyone chipped in and everyone reaped the benefits.
“I’ll be fine” I answered and closed the tailgate, making sure everything was secure.
“We should head off. There’s a storm rolling in and I don’t really fancy being on the road when it decides to piss down”
I agreed and headed back to the pack house but saw that Quinn was already leaving. I watched as she embraced Agnes and wiped away her tears.
“Ready to go?” I asked as Quinn approached the car.
Quinn nodded without making eye contact and walked straight past me, throwing her bag into the tray. I clenched my jaw and took a deep breath. My wolf was feeling on edge enough as it was without her giving me the cold shoulder.
Dominic glanced at me and I shrugged. If she wanted to give me the silent treatment then I wasn’t going to fight her on it.
“Ok you two. Time to head home”
Quinn hadn’t spoken a word to me on the ride back to Fern Creek. You could have cut the tension with a knife. Even my father’s small talk couldn’t budge her out of the mood she was in. We’d arrived home shortly after 9am and Quinn had gone straight to her room. Dominic reminded me of my own mood swings in the days leading up to my twentieth birthday. He was right, I had been a right arsehole to everyone around me. I needed to cut Quinn some slack.
It was now after dinner and I still hadn’t heard from Quinn. I’d given her space, I went to see Cameron to fill him in on the information we’d received in Eastern Ridge. I half expected to return home to find her on the couch, watching television, making the place her own. But she was still in her room.
I growled and my wolf huffed in annoyance. I had given her a place to stay and this was how she thanked me. Was she that scared to come out of her room and spend time with me? Surely I had proven that I could hold myself back. I stormed up the stairs, taking two at a time and pounded on her door.
“Quinn!” I roared
I heard movement in the room and the door flew open. Quinn stood in front of me, wearing a small silk night dress. It was the colour of her eyes and barely covered her shapely breasts. I watched her chest rise and fall as she breathed heavily, her eyes watching my every move. My body was instantly electrified the second I took her in. My wolf paced impatiently in my subconscious, urging me to force my way into the room…throw her on to the bed.
“It was my mother’s” Quinn whispered, referring to the slip of material that dripped from her shapely curves, “Agnes had some things of her’s saved for me” she said, still watching me intently.
Quinn licked her lips and ran her hand slowly over the material. My breath hissed between my teeth as I noted the way the silk slid over her nipples, causing them to harden and peak. I could almost taste the waves of chemical electricity that pulsated from Quinn’s body; she sung to me, an intoxicating Siren that beckoned me forward, urging me to give into her call.
My hand gripped the door frame and I felt the wood splinter beneath my fingers. Coming up here had been a bad idea, my wolf was ready, he had been patient long enough and now he wanted what was his. The fire within me was lit, it was burning through my body, coursing through my veins.
“I need you” I rasped, the words falling out of my mouth as my gaze moved up Quinn’s neck and locked with her eyes.
Quinn’s sapphire eyes were dark with want. I could hear the rapid beat of her heart, the hot blood pumping through her veins. She took a step towards me and placed her hand on my arm. Her fingers slid up and around my bicep, exploring the feel of my skin and the way my muscles twitched under her touch.
I groaned and dropped my head down, pressing my face to the top of her head and breathed in her scent. She was a drug to me, I was addicted, nothing but a junky that needed his fix.
Quinn took my hands gently in her’s and stepped backwards, leading me into her room. She stopped next to the bed and looked up at me. I tensed, what was she doing?
“Is this what you want?” She whispered.
Quinn slipped the straps of her nightdress over her shoulders and I watched as the material cascaded down her legs, pooling in a sea of ice blue around her feet. My gaze made its way inch by inch up her body. I could feel my cock harden more with every second I took in her beauty. Her perfect legs, her perfect hips, her perfect breasts and the perfect mound between her legs.
“If you had any idea what you do to me, Quinn, you wouldn’t have to ask that” I grunted.
Quinn stepped towards me and grabbed the bottom of my T-shift, tugging it up my body. I lifted my arms and helped her remove the piece of clothing. Quinn’s breathing quickened as she ran her fingernails over my chest. She circled my nipples and dug her nails into my skin.
I growled and grabbed her wrists, it was too much. I shut my eyes tightly and took a deep breath, in and out. My wolf was tearing me up from the inside, desperately trying to get out. It was a battle between my animal side and my human…my wolf was powerful and I knew if I stayed here he would win that battle. My grip tightened on Quinn, my eyes flashing black.
Quinn’s whole body tensed as she looked at my hands around her wrists. I could smell the fear seeping from her pores and could feel her body begin to shake under my hold. I let go quickly and shoved her back on to the bed, trying to create space between us. I didn’t want to hurt her again, that was something I couldn’t live with. I could see the tears already glistening in her eyes as she looked back at me.
“Jayce...” Quinn pled and crawled on the bed towards me, “Please!”
I turned away from her. I had to get out of there. I heard the bed creak and felt Quinn standing behind me. Her hand traced down my back, fingers trembling. I growled low and stepped away from her touch, closing the distance between myself and the door.
“Why don’t you want me?!” Quinn cried.
I spun around to face her. She stood naked and beautiful in front of me, her arms wrapped over breasts as if in an attempt to cover herself up. I hadn’t wanted anything more in my life.
“You think that I don’t want you?” I moaned, pinching the bridge of my nose as I closed my eyes, “Quinn, I need you!”
“Then take me!”
I let out a bark of laughter and shook my head.
“You have no idea what you’re saying girl” I spat and strode over to her.
I grabbed Quinn by the hips and lifted her up, my fingers gripping into her soft skin. I heard Quinn yelp and I kept walking until her back was pressed up against the wall. My wolf was at the surface, forcing my humanity into submission.
“Is this what you want?” I hissed, pressing my erection between her legs, rubbing the rough material of my jeans over her centre.
I buried my face into her neck and bit down on her skin until she cried out in pain, but not enough to break the flesh.
“Is that what you want?” I hissed again.
A tear escaped Quinn’s eye and slid down her cheek. She wiped it away quickly, hoping I hadn’t seen. She lifted her hand and tried to gently cup my face. Her tenderness even after my abrupt behaviour broke me, she deserved better.
“Why are you being like this?” She sobbed and bowed her head down.
I dropped her to the ground and adjusted my pants.
“If you want this” I said, pointing to myself and picking up my shirt, “Then this is what you get. Don’t think I’m going to gently caress you and whisper sweet nothings in you ear. I’m an animal! If you had any idea the pain you’ve caused me since walking into Fern Creek then you would just shut up and act like the good little mate you were meant to be!”
“Get the fuck out!” Quinn snarled as she stood up and glared at me.
She was mad, this is what I needed. I needed her to want space between us, at least until I figured my shit out.
“I said get the fuck out!” She screamed louder, “I’ll never bend to your wolf. I’ll never be a good little mate. You have no idea what you’re messing with Jayce! In a couple of days I’ll be more powerful than you could ever imagine...your wolf will be bending to me!”
A smile spread across my face but not quite reaching my eyes.
“What did Agnes tell you while I was out of the room?” I asked.
I knew from the way Quinn had been acting that there had to be more to it. Something happened at Eastern Ridge, something that Quinn wasn’t telling me.
Quinn pulled her nightdress up over her body, my wolf snarling at her attempt to hide herself from us.
“So that’s your play? Piss me off until I spill the beans? I thought we were above that, above playing games” she said, emotion devoid from her voice.
I smoothed my hair back and shrugged my shoulders. I hated the way I was acting but I couldn’t help it. Quinn had fucked me up something chronic. She had me acting like a child, not the Alpha I was meant to be.
“Quinn. In a couple of days time you will shift, you will become an animal and maybe then you will understand what you are doing to me. I have no intention of making love to you, so don’t try to seduce me like that again. When I take you it will be hard and it will be rough and I’ll make no apologies” I answered matter of factly.
Quinn’s cheeks reddened and she crossed hers arms over her chest.
“If that’s the way you want to be, then fine. I have been treated roughly by men my whole life, I don’t know why I thought you would have been any different”
Her statement made me wince. She was right, but I was damned if I was going to admit that to her right now.
I walked out of the room, closing the door behind me, wishing I had never gone up those stairs in the first place.