Chapter 1
Summer was well and truly here! Well at least for a few daysâŠThe sun came and went just like it usually did in jolly old England.
I couldnât believe how quick the time was going by, Iâd already gotten my drivers licence, with the help of Dominic who lent me the extra money so I could just plough straight ahead with it and do a weekâs intensive course. Though the others all made sure to have me do extra hours driving around with them. I managed to pass with flying colours on both my theory and practical so I was finally driving! It made my life so much easier as I could come and go when I needed to.
I was paying Dominic back slowly, though he didnât like it, he said it was a gift, that he wanted to do something nice for me to make up for all the shit he had put me through. I believed him, he was fun again and he wasnât parading girls around all the time anymore, though I knew he had a few girls he went and had a little fun with. We were back to our normal fun selves with each other, much to Kimâs displeasure. Her jealousy was unbelievable, I understood it with Dominic, but if I was with Steph or James alone she hated it, though it was ok for her to walk around in dresses showing off everything to the whole world⊠But if I was hanging out with my friends it was a problem.
Even Hailey was getting annoyed with her best friend and apologised for her countless times. I wasnât sure just how long this relationship was going to last if it carried on like this, every time we saw each other it was like we couldnât keep our hands off each other, but then it went quiet every time she went back, no romance, no lovemaking, it was all raw sexual passion and I donât want that, I want love, sure sex is great but it only does so much.
Kim had come over last night and as usual, it was a night of pure sex, but I didnât cum once, I just wasnât feeling it at all.
âRESULTS DAY! Wake up!â Steph pounds on my door as Iâm sat doodling in my sketchbook, Kimâs arm wrapped around me tightly, possessively.
âIf you donât tell her to fuck off, I will. Why donât you just tell them that Iâm taking you and they can go, leaving us alone,â Kim groans beside me.
âWe planned to go together weeks ago Kim, they are my friends, Iâm going with them,â I roll my eyes.
âBut I wanted to take you, we donât do much together anymore,â she sighs.
âYou are welcome to come with us babe, but itâs not my fault we donât do anything anymore,â I snap, closing my sketchbook with a thud and putting it on the side.
âOh, and itâs mine? Iâm sorry I have a job, Cassie,â she growls back as I fling the cover of my bed off of me, getting up.
âYou realise all we ever do is have sex or get drunk, right?â I say.
âWhich is why I wanted to take you to get your results!â she exclaims.
âNo, you want to take me because you donât want me alone with the others, jealousy is not a great look on you Kim,â I say getting dressed, tying my hair up into a bun as I couldnât be bothered to straighten it right now.
It was silent on the other side of the door and I was guessing Steph had heard us starting to argue and left us to it, I was praying she wasnât listening in, but knowing her she was listening in.
âItâs not my fault youâve had sex with half your friends, so sue me for getting a little possessive!â she shouts at me.
âHalf my friendsâŠwow, make me sound like a whore why donât you. Iâm going to go and spend time with my family and friends, if you decide to stop being a bitch, come join us,â I snap before opening the door, seeing Steph standing on the other side of the corridor before slamming the door and storming past her as she follows me silently.
âHey Cass,â Hailey says timidly in the kitchen as I burst in.
âHi.â
âYou ok?â she bites her lip nervously.
âJust peachy, Iâm taking you heard that,â I say.
âWe all did,â Dominic says appearing behind me.
âGreat,â I murmur.
âOh great, heâs here too, of course he is,â I hear Kim scoff coming down the stairs.
âKim, enough,â Hailey says, glaring at her friend.
âWhy donât you all just have a fuckfest?â Kim says.
âAre you serious right now? You know what Kim, perhaps looking in the fucking mirror would help sometimes because let me just show you how you look to me most of the time, you see this? Leg over, breasts pushed up, flirty, flirty, all these pictures make you look like youâre going for other people. Iâve had sex with Steph, Dom and you, thatâs it! Dom and Steph have been in my life for years! They arenât going anywhere, they will always be in my life so take it or fucking leave it!â I say angrily, everyone is here and I know they are all listening but right now I donât care.
âFine, you can go back to your merry little fuckfest now, have fun with her Dominic, she definitely has a supreme little mouth, though I bet you knew that already,â Kim says.
âKim! Enough!â Hailey snaps behind me.
âOf course youâre on her side, youâre fucking her sister,â Kim laughs.
âGet out of my house,â Ivy says getting between Hailey and Kim. Hailey looks ready to go for her at any moment. I knew they had been having troubles with their friendship lately too, Hailey had realised what true friendship was as she got to know us all, becoming one of the group.
âWith fucking pleasure. Weâre done, Cassie,â Kim says before storming out the house, slamming the door behind her.
âGOOD!â I scream out.
âCassâŠâ Dom says but I hold my hand up to him, making him stop, knowing the waterworks will run as soon as someone says anything, heading past Hailey and my sister up the stairs and into my bedroom, I lean against my door and let it go, tears pouring from my eyes as I sob, sliding down the door and onto the floor.
âCassie, itâs me, let me in,â James knocks, shifting from the door, he creeps in and sits next to me, pulling me into his lap letting me cry in his arms.
âI just want to be happy, why canât I just have that?â I sob.
âYou will, youâll find someone worth your time, you will Cassie, but weâre all here, right by your side. Hailey is going nuts right now, sheâs worried about you, she hates her friend did this to you. Sheâs already making sure that you and Kim wonât run into each other as much as possible when you move down to London,â he says as I look up at him.
âNo, thatâs like favouritism, we all have to work with people we donât like at some point,â I sniffle, wiping my eyes, resting my head on his shoulder.
âTry telling her that, youâve become like a sister to her Cass, Kim was out of line,â James wipes tears from my cheeks.
âWhat do I keep doing wrong, James? Iâm almost twenty and the most stable relationship Iâve had is Dom,â I sigh.
âYouâre not doing anything wrong, you put your trust into people and look for the good, sometimes I think maybe you and Dom would have worked out again if you both really tried,â he says.
âDonât even go there, we just got back to normal, I canât even think about that,â I say sternly.
âI know, you two are doing so much better and itâs nice that we can all be in a room without arguing for five minutes. We still have plenty of time to find someone perfect for you. Just focus on other things and it will happen naturally, donât force it, ok?â he cups my face softly.
âThanks, James,â I nod as he kisses my forehead softly.
âOk, now go wash your face and we are going to start this day over, Iâm going to go downstairs and make sure the others donât go on about what happened, we are going to have breakfast, go get our results and celebrate because you are going to pass with flying colours because youâre a smart, beautiful woman and my best friend, so I know everything,â he says.
âOk,â I nod giggling. We get off of the floor as he pushes me towards the bathroom and heads downstairs.
He was right, Kim was just another path in my life that might have come to a dead-end but I could make a new one and keep going, there were plenty of people in the world, Iâm sure there was someone out there for me.
âHeyâŠYeah Eric weâll be there soon, we just gotta have breakfast, itâs been anâŠeventful morningâŠYeah, explain laterâŠGotta go see you soon,â Steph is on the phone as I come down the stairs a look of pity on her face.
âDonât give me that look Steph, I think we all knew it was coming,â I sigh as she wraps an arm around my waist.
âI know. Love you, Cass,â she kisses my cheek as we head into the kitchen.
âEat up, we have to leave soon,â Ivy gives me a sad smile.
âThanks,â I nod.
âSo, how many fails do we think Steph will get?â Dominic says trying to change the mood.
âHEY!â Steph throws an apple at him as he chuckles catching it, taking a huge bite.
âYummy,â he winks making me giggle.
âSteph is going to pass, donât be a dick Dominic,â I shake my head taking a bite of the bacon sandwich Ivy had made for me, groaning in delight.
âMy girl will have smashed it, just like Cassie and James will have,â Calvin says curling his arms around Steph.
âYeah, then we are going to have some fun and celebrate, I hope youâre ready for blue hair Cassie, thereâs a paint gun with your name on it and I will get you,â Dominic smirks.
âNot if I get you first, though Iâve been considering dying my hair anyway,â I reply.
âDonât dye it, Cassie, itâs gorgeous,â Claire shakes her head.
âYeah if you want an adventure get a tattoo instead,â Steph smirks.
âI will if you do,â I laugh as her eyes widen.
âI didnât think you would actually go for it,â she laughs.
âTattoos, really?â Callum shakes his head.
âYou have one,â I say.
âHow the fuck do you know that?â he says in shock.
âWaitâŠCallum has a tattoo?â Ivy looks shocked at her twin.
âWhy donât you show the room, Callum? Where is it?â James asks as I snort, I knew exactly where it was.
âItâs uhâŠâ Callum murmurs.
âItâs on his bum,â I laugh as he goes bright red.
âIt was a dare, ok?!â he groans.
âI think itâs cute,â Claire winks.
âHow did you find out about it?â Callum asks me again.
âSome loudmouth,â I smirk nodding to Dominic.
âDOMINIC!â Callum smacks him around the head.
âWhat?! Itâs only a small tattoo, itâs not my fault you actually got the thing, I didnât think you would do it!â he bellows out a laugh.
âNow Iâm super curious,â Hailey says.
âYou should show them,â Dom smirks.
âIâm not getting my arse out!â Callum exclaims.
âDonât you have that photo, Dom?â I say.
âWhat? Dominic, I swear to god you better not,â Callum groans as Dom grabs his phone sifting through his photos before enlarging it and showing everyone in the room as Callum groans, head in his hands.
âOh my god!â Steph laughs.
âIs that an ant colony carrying a bottle of mustard?â Ivy laughs.
âMost stupid idea ever,â Callum grumbles as everyone laughs at the tattoo.
âWhy his arse though?â Tommy chuckles.
âBecause he chickened out on the first idea, I wanted him to get it on his groin with a mustard splat on his cock, but he wouldnât do it,â Dom sniggers.
âWell Iâm glad he didnât, thatâs an image I donât want in my head,â I grimace.
âBoysâŠyouâre all weird,â Hailey shakes her head.
âGuys, we need to get a move on, Callum and I should have been there ages ago,â Tommy says noticing the time.
âShit, yeah, come on, letâs go get our results,â I nod as we all stand and head off to college to grab our results.
âHey! Oh, thank god youâre here! I got impatient, Iâm sorry, I opened mine already!â Kate says, her eyes bright with a wide smile.
âWhat did you get?â I smile as she hands me her results, all passes, high ones at that.
âCongratulations Kate!â I grin hugging her as the others congratulate her.
Heading into the college we greet the others from our classes before heading over to get our results, my envelope shakes along with my hand while waiting for the others outside as it was unbelievably busy inside. Sitting on the wall I couldnât help but think that this may be the last time I sit here. This was it, my life was about to change.
âI feel sick,â Eric murmurs sitting next to me.
âWhy? You will have smashed it,â I give him a reassuring smile.
âFilm, yes, but the others I donât know Cassie,â he sighs.
âHere come the others,â I nod as they are all heading over.
âAre you ready?â Steph says as we all stand together.
âNot in the slightest,â I shake my head.
âOn the count of three, we lookâŠOneâŠTwoâŠThree,â James says before we open our envelopes.
My eyes scan the page as I find my resultsâŠHoly shitâŠI passedâŠeverything, top marks in most of it tooâŠHOLY SHIT!
âShit, I failed Sociology,â Steph groans.
âThatâs not a fail Steph, thatâs still a pass, just a low one,â Callum looks over her shoulder.
âI told you, baby, Iâm proud of you,â I hear Tommy say to James before kissing him passionately.
âYeah! I passed!â Eric bellows as he and Kate hugs, with her squealing happily.
âUhâŠGuysâŠI think Cassie is in shockâŠCassieâŠWhat is it?â Ivy says before walking towards me and snatching the paper out of my hand.
âShe canât have failed,â Tommy says looking over her shoulder.
âCASSIE! Iâm so fucking proud of you!â Ivy squeals hugging me, lifting and twirling me around.
âLet me seeâŠHoly crap! Cassie, you got top marks! This is crazy you fucking brainiac!â James grins at me.
âI thought I would failâŠâ I murmur.
âProud of you little sis,â Callum hugs me next.
The shock begins to wear off and I canât help but grin, I couldnât believe I got top marks.
âGuys! How did you do?â Michael and Jordan walk over to us.
âAll passes!â Eric smiles.
âNice, we got mainly passes too! Though Jordan almost failed sociology,â Michael sniggers.
âHey, donât worry Iâm in the same boat,â Steph laughs showing hers to them.
âWho needs that shit anyway?â Jordan shrugs it off with a laugh.
âIâm going to go see Bobbyâs mural before we leave, you guys coming?â Eric asks.
âYeah,â we all agree heading to our film classroom.
âCongratulations guys and girls!â Robert says with open arms as we barrel in.
âI think Iâm actually going to miss this place,â Michael says.
âMe too,â Eric and I say in unison.
âMiss you Bobby Boy,â I say looking at the mural.
âBobby, Bobby, Bobby,â I hear the chant behind us as more of our class appeared.
âI love this year group, why do you all have to leave me?â Robert pretends to cry.
âYouâd hate having us permanently Robert,â I laugh.
âTrue, trouble the lot of you, but I will miss you all and hope you all enjoy the next part of your lifeâs journey. Iâll be looking out for all your names in the credits,â he says.
âThanks, Robert, bye Robert,â people say as they leave the room.
âLetâs go celebrate!â Steph grabs me as I turn back one last time at the mural before we all head home for a day of absolute madness.