“I don’t see why you don’t just hire a mover.” Asher had been out of the hospital for two weeks now and was spending more and more time at my place. So I ordered him to help move Cortney’s stuff.
“This shit’s heavy.” He grumbled, lifting a box onto the truck.
“That’s because most of it’s books.” I chuckled when he stopped to glare at me.
“Why the fuck does she have so many books?” He snapped, “Hasn’t she heard of a Kindle?”
“I didn’t know you had.” I was full out laughing now.
“What about a fucking paperback?” He jumped down from the truck and sat on a box, pulling out his smokes.
I sat down next to him, to pull out mine. Now was a better time for a break than any.
“How are you doing, man?” I asked, “Seriously?”
“Been better.” He shrugged and lit his smoke, giving a deep sigh like he had desperately needed it.
“But, you’ve been worse.” I pointed out.
“Jason, I can’t get into any sappy shit right now.” He sighed again.
“Can I just say one thing?” I asked.
“Shoot.” He didn’t look at me. He just stared at his feet, looking defeated.
“When I thought you were dead, it killed me, man.” I told him, “You’re my brother. We’ve been together so long that I couldn’t picture this shit without you.”
“You’d find another lead.” He spoke in monotone. He was shutting down again. I knew if I brought this up, he’d go to that place again, but I had to tell him. He had to know.
“That’s not it, Declan.” I used his real name and his ice blue eyes darted up to examine me, “I love you and, without you, none of this shit makes any sense. This was your dream and I came along for the ride, man. I’d rather have the screaming, brooding Asher, than the guy I saw nearly dead that day. When I saw you there, our whole childhood was playing in my mind, man. It killed me.”
“Jaso-” He gave a sniffle.
“No, I’m serious, Dek. I can’t lose another person I care about, just like I know you couldn’t lose another one of us.”
“Damn...” He ran a hand down his face, “That’s deep, bro.”
“I’m sorry,” I took a deep breath, “I just had to get it out there. You had to know. You ain’t my meal ticket, your my brother.”
“Cort told you to tell me that, didn’t she?” He smiled sadly.
“Yeah,” I smiled, thinking of my girl, “She said I needed to get it off my chest and you needed to hear it.”
“I like her.” He gave a tight nod, “She has a good heart.”
“I know, that’s why I love her.”
“Just... Hold onto her, man.” He flicked his smoke and stood to load another box, “And watch out for brother-in-law. He’s a real fucking prick.”
“How do you know about her brother-in-law?” I asked, picking up another box myself.
“She told me.” He shrugged.
“What did she tell you about him?” I glared at him.
“Nothing much, he just sounds like a prick.” Ash shrugged, “I just don’t think she needs to be around him... or her sister.”
There was more. He was trying to be so nonchalant about it, but I could tell there was something he wasn’t telling me.
“What aren’t you telling me?” I crossed my arms.
“Nothing, she just can’t stand them, that’s all.” He didn’t even glance at me, he just went back to pushing boxes.
“No, that’s not it.” I snapped, “You know something.”
“Cort and I have an agreement here, Jace. I can’t.” He scratched the back on his head looking at me now, “I need her, I can’t scare her off.”
“Ash, your my brother, if there’s something I need to know...” I gaped at him.
He didn’t respond, he just kept moving boxes, with more verve than he’d originally had.
“Asher!” I gaped.
“Fine!” He huffed, “But you can’t tell her you know. Please, Jason.” He begged, “I’m still coming back from... My shit, and I need her around.”
“I love her.”
“I didn’t mean it like that.” He glared at me, “Cortney’s cool, but she ain’t my type. She’s just... Someone to talk to. She helps me see different sides of shit and I don’t feel judged when I talk to her.”
“Like a shrink.” I smiled. We hadn’t told anyone that she was going back to school. She wanted to wait until Asher was in a better place.
He thought about it for a second then shrugged, “I guess.”
“So, you gonna tell me?”
“She ever tell you about college?”
“Yeah.” I shrugged.
“About her boyfriend.”
“She mentioned him once. He cheated on her, or with her.”
“It was with her.” Asher eyed me, to make sure I got the gist, “Her sister was the fiancé.”
I could feel my eyes bugging out of my head.
That’s why that fucker had his nose in our business, that’s why he was following her and watching her. He still wanted her. My fiancé.
“He’s gonna back the fuck up.” I snapped.
I made it to Jason’s house after work. I hadn’t told my parents about the move yet, or the engagement, but I would... With time.
I loved Jason and I wasn’t about to throw my family in to ruin my happiness.
I used my brand new, shiny key to unlock the door, but the second I entered, I was being propelled away from the door, hearing it slam behind me.
Jason pushed me up against the wall with a little extra verve as his lips devoured mine.
I could feel his urgency and need, as he ground into me and I released a moan.
“What’s this about?” I asked when he moved to my neck.
“Moved all your stuff today.” He smiled wickedly, watching my eyes.
“All of it?” I gaped.
He gave a nod and went after my neck again.
“Okay,” I whined in defeat, “Clothes off!”
At my order he smiled and began removing clothing, and I ripped at my own.
When we came back together it was a flurry of limbs and appendages as we had sex right against the wall in the entryway.
It wasn’t until he came that I realized he wasn’t wearing a condom.
He’d felt too good. I thought to myself. Why hadn’t I reminded him to pull out?
As he finished, he pushed himself as deep as my body would allow and let out a growl as he poured into me.
He'd needed this intimacy with me, right here and now, and I gladly gave it to him. I stared into those beautiful brown eyes as he came deeply, but I couldn't help but wonder why. What had happened today to trigger this need?
“I love you.” He looked deep into my eyes as we both gasped.
I knew I couldn’t be angry or upset with him. I did love him, and were planning our wedding, so a pregnancy wouldn't be horrible, just not part of our initial plan.