Chapter 6 ~~Finding out about Tia~~
Kia and Ethan carried all of her new things up to his room and he said “You can hang things up in the closet. There should be enough hangers but if not, just let me know and I’ll get you some more, and here, you can put your underthings in here.” He said as he quickly moved some of his things out of one of the dresser drawers. “I’ll have to get you a dresser of your own.” He said as he turned around and saw her standing next to the bed with a strange look on her face.
“What’s wrong, Kia?” He asked with concern as he walked towards her.
“Um. I thought that when your mom asked me to stay here that I would have my own room? I mean I don’t mind sharing with another girl but it’s not appropriate that I share not only your room but your bed, Ethan. I don’t know what you expected but I’m not a bed bunny. I’ve never even.......um.....slept with anyone before the other night and I’ve never had........uh.....um.......you know.” Kia said, feeling very unsure of herself.
“Kia, please sit down and let’s talk. There’s some things I need to explain to you.” Ethan said as he took her hand and pulled her down to sit next to him on the side of the bed.
Kia sat down with an uneasy feeling in the pit of her stomach. She waited for him to start talking and watched him out of the side of her eye.
Ethan took a deep breath and let it out in a long sigh.
“I’m not sure how to start this but here goes. Have you ever felt like you have a voice in your head that was like a friend? Someone who has feelings, thoughts, who is always with you?” Ethan asked.
“My subconscious. Sure. I think everyone does.” Kia said, not sure where he was going with this.
“It’s not just your subconscious exactly. Her feelings can affect you. Make your feelings much more intense. Like when she’s happy or sad or angry. You feel those feelings for yourself but you also feel hers.”
“Do you have that happen to you too? I thought it was just me.” Kia said with wide eyes when he nodded in agreement.
“That’s your wolf.” Ethan said and then held his breath, waiting for her to reply. "And I can feel her too.
“What?” Kia asked, not sure she had heard him right.
“I sensed her at the bus stop when you woke up and looked at me. Or rather my wolf, Errol, did. He also told me you are not aware that she exists inside of you but she’s there.” Ethan told her, still waiting for her to react.
Kia looked at him for a full minute without saying a word and then suddenly busted out laughing!
“You really had me going there for a minute! That’s funny.” Kia laughed till her sides began to hurt but Ethan wasn’t laughing. Hell, he wasn’t even smiling. Kia finally stopped laughing and said “Are you serious? I mean, Tia has always been with me but she’s just in my head. She is just a part of my feelings, like feeling happy or sad. It’s not like she could exist outside of my body. And what does this have to do with me having my own bed to sleep in?” Kia said and was confused when she realized the Tia was miffed at her. Tia was upset that Kia was denying her existence.
“She’s real and after you turn 18, she will be making an appearance. The first time is always very painful and I want to be here for you. I was hoping to prepare you mentally for the change because believe me when I tell you that fighting it will only make the pain worse and could be dangerous.
Usually a wolf cub’s parents prepare them for the shift by letting them know what is going to happen, to tell you not to fight it to just let your body do what it must but since your parents were killed when you were so young, you haven’t had anyone to teach you about it yet. That’s what I’m trying to prepare you for so that when it does happen, you’ll understand what is happening and not fight it.
Tomorrow night is a full moon which also means that you will go into heat. Most female wolves do once they are of age and are still unmated. You will more than likely wake up with a bad headache and it’s only going to get worse as the day goes on. You will run a high fever and will feel nauseous and have cramps like you’ve never had before. That’s the heat and then when you reach the hour you were born, the shift will begin.
Now I can help you with the heat part but only if you truly want me too. I won’t force it on you but I need to tell you now what is going to happen and what it will mean. If you don’t want me too, then I can’t be here for you. Your heat will drive all reason out of my head and I can’t be anywhere near you when it happens. None of the unmated men can be near you or they will take what they want whether you want them to or not.”
“What do you mean you can help me through it? What do I have to do?” Kia asked, still not really believing what he was saying. Unfortunately Tia seemed to be listening intently.
Ethan knew he was making a total mess out of trying to explain this and he was going to come off like he was just some horny pervert like her foster father, that he just wanted to have sex with her but he hoped he was going to be able to make her understand that that is just not the case for him.
“Know this without an ounce of doubt because I’ve known it since I first laid eyes on you at the bus stop. You are my mate! We are meant to be together. I just have to know that you accept me before I go any further.” Ethan said and then took a deep breath. “I also want to tell you that I love you, Kia. I will protect you for the rest of our lives and we will be together till the day we die.”
“Are you proposing to me? Ethan, we’ve only known each other for less than 24 hours!” Kia said in disbelief but Tia was getting upset with her and that left her confused. At first Kia thought she was growling at Ethan and then realized that she was growling at her!
“Well, I guess, in a way, I am but mating with someone is more than just exchanging words and making promises the way humans do. First of all, mates are made by the Moon Goddess. She creates one mate for everyone. The one person we are meant to be with for all time and believe me, we live a really long time. If you talk to Tia, she will tell you that Errol is her mate. Errol knew it before I did.” Ethan said.
Kia could feel Tia going crazy in her mind in agreement with what he was saying.
“Tell me something. When you come near me, what do you smell?” Ethan said.
“Autumn woods after a cleansing rain. I love that smell.” Kia said without hesitation but realizing what she had said caused her to blush and she got a guilty smile on her face.
“To me you smell like vanilla and cinnamon with just a hint of orange. Makes me wonder how you will taste.” Ethan said as he felt his mouth fill with saliva and had to lick his lips to keep from drooling. Kia blushed bright red which wasn’t helping Ethan at all and he knew he was making a mess of explaining this to her but he felt so out of his element with this.
“Ok, so how is all of this supposed to help me?” Kia asked.
“Well, it won’t help much with the shifting because that is going to happen no matter what you decide and you will have to learn to do that but it will be less painful every time afterwards until it’s not painful at all and will eventually become easy. The part I can help with is the heat part but if I do it, it means we are mated for life. We will be able to hear each other’s thoughts and can talk to each other without anyone else hearing. You will also be able to link with other members of the pack.” Ethan hedged.
He somehow knew that telling her that he would have to bite her and she him and that they would then have to have sex to seal the bond would probably be objectionable to her. Even to him it sounded so unromantic and actually rather ruthless. He wished he had time to court her, to allow her time to fall in love with him the way he loved her.
“So what do we have to do to help me with the heat part? By the way, what do you mean by heat? You mean like when animals come into heat?” Kia asked and knew her face must be bright red.
“Um, yeah. Exactly like that. The heat is the worst if the female has not mated before it happens. If a female remains innocent, she goes into heat every full moon and from what I understand, it’s no fun and quite painful. I personally have never witnessed it first hand. Unmated males are banned from the pack house when the unmated females go into heat so I’ve just heard rumors. Maybe one of the women could tell you more?” Ethan said.
“Oh lord! I would be so embarrassed to ask anyone about it. I mean, I’ve only known your mom and Lily for a few hours and while they’ve been great, I would die of embarrassment trying to ask information about mating, especially from your mom.” Kia said.
“Hey, you don’t have to be embarrassed with either of them. They’ve both been through it I’m pretty sure. And I’m almost certain they might be able to explain this a whole lot better than I’m doing. Can I ask my mom to come up and explain it?” Ethan asked.
“Can I talk to her alone?” Kia asked thinking he might be right. This might be easier to discuss with another woman. Plus she was sure that Angela would tell her whether or not Ethan was playing a joke on her or not.
“Sure.” Ethan said and then got a glazed look in his eyes for a few seconds.
“She’ll be here in a minute. Look, I’m going to go talk to my dad while you two talk but I’ll be back soon.” Ethan said and then slid over closer to her. He carefully put his arms around her and just held her for a minute. “It’s going to be OK, Kia. I’m sorry I’m having to hit you with so much information all at once but we don’t have much time to deal with it and I just want to make it as easy as possible for you.”
Just then a knock sounded at the door and Ethan let her go to answer it.
To Kia’s amazement, it was Angela. She kissed Ethan on the cheek and patted his shoulder before shoving him out the door. “I’ll let you know when you can come back.”
As soon as the door was closed again, Angela turned and smiled at Kia.
“Confused? Scared? Questioning your sanity?” Angela seemed to accurately guess what she was feeling.
“All of the above.” Kia admitted.
“So what has he told you so far?” Angela asked.
“Well, he told me about mates and a moon goddess creating one mate for each person and that part I think I can understand, even though I’m not sure I believe it. I have heard that everyone has a soul mate and that it’s rare to find that one person you are meant to spend your life with so that is not the confusing part. Although I’ve never heard about a moon goddess being the one to create them. I always thought that it just sort of happened, not because there was some mystical being creating them.” Kia told her.
“Well, that’s close, I guess. Did he tell you about your wolf?” Angela asked and watched as Kia’s eyes got really big.
“You mean you have one too?” Kia asked her and almost shook her head when Angela grinned and nodded her head. “My wolf’s name is Ava. She’s a gray wolf. Would you like to see?”
“Sure.” Kia said but didn’t really believe that Angela was going to stand up and change when Angela stepped into the bathroom and a minute later came out wrapped in a towel then one second she was standing in front of Kia and the next there was a very large gray wolf smiling at her. Kia couldn’t help the small yelp of surprise that left her lips. Then the wolf dipped her head and stepped closer to Kia, sniffing her hand until Kia reached out and touched her head. “Oh, you are beautiful and so soft.”
Angela stepped back and shifted back, grabbing the towel she had dropped on the floor to cover herself as she was now naked. She slipped back in the bathroom and quickly got redressed. She re-entered the bedroom to find Kia sitting there with her mouth hanging open and a dazed look on her face.
“If you don’t strip out of your clothes before you shift, they get ripped to pieces. That’s probably why Ethan didn’t show you his wolf because he would have had to be naked in front of you and he didn’t want to embarrass or scare you. So what else did he tell you?” Angela asked.
“Well, he said that because tomorrow night is the full moon that I am supposed to go into heat? He was trying to explain what being in heat means but I think he must be confused. I’ve been having my menstrual cycle since I was 13 and while I usually get slight headaches and really bad cramps the first few days, he made it sound like it was going to be deadly simply because it’s going to be the full moon tomorrow night. That’s just because he’s a guy and doesn’t know what it’s like to have a period, right?” Kia was almost afraid to ask.
“No, I’m sorry to say it’s not exactly the same. Sure, we bleed while we are in heat but this will be your 18th birthday so being in heat is going to be ten times worse, if you are still a virgin, which I can sense you are. You will get a really high fever that can be very dangerous because the brain starts to boil if it gets over 105 and can leave you with brain damage.
The first time you shift is going to be painful and you will have to shift to get the heat under control. Just because our wolves are naturally hotter than we are as humans, it can still be dangerous if it goes too high. Usually the heat will cause the shift and if you have not mated, every unmated male in the place is going to know it and they are going to come looking for you and the urge to mate can be overpowering. Feelings of the heart will be overruled to satisfy the urges of the loins.
That’s why Marcus orders all of the unmated males away from the house when the moon is full. Only mated males are allowed inside and to stand guard around the house.” Angela explained. “We have several unmated females in the house so it won’t only be you but then they know about their wolves and have already shifted before. We usually lock them up so they don’t do something they will regret later.”
“But I’m not due to start my period just yet and I’ve always been fairly regular. That was something I was worried about for the senior ball. I would normally be due for my period late next week.” Kia said.
“Well, the heat is tied more to your turning of age and becoming a wolf. Your period or rather your heat cycle will follow the full moon from now on.” Angela explained.
“Sounds awful and it’s definitely not something I’m going to look forward to but Ethan said he can help me make it not be so intense but from what you are telling me, that means he and I have to have sex before the heat begins and to be really honest with you, I don’t think I’m ready to commit to anyone just yet. I mean, I like Ethan a lot but to commit to him for life? I’m just not sure. I’ve only known him for one day and don’t really know him at all and he doesn’t know me.” Kia said honestly.
“I understand. Do me a favor?” Angela asked and Kia nodded.
“Close your eyes.” And Kia did as she asked. “Now, without stopping to think about it, how would you and your wolf feel if something bad were to happen to Ethan?” Angela asked and was not disappointed when she saw Kia’s eyes fly open and a look of total horror crossed her face as she shouted “NO!” to be followed by confusion.
“See? You already feel the mate bond. Your human mind and all the things that have happened to you in life have taught you to be cautious of everyone and to second guess everything but in your heart of hearts and your wolf knows that Ethan and his wolf, Errol, are your life mates.
Now Ethan can make the heat process easier for you but he will only do it if you willingly accept him. He’s been brought up to be a gentleman. He would never force himself on you and he would die before he would hurt you or allow anyone else to hurt you. I wish we had more time to allow you to come to terms with all of this but unfortunately, you will have to decide by tomorrow afternoon. Do you know what time you were born?” Angela asked.
“I’m not 100 % sure but I want to say it was just after midnight. My mom used to call me her moonbeam baby.” Kia said.
“Well, then that’s probably when the heat will be in full swing. I’d say you should get a good night’s sleep tonight and make sure you eat tonight because you might not feel much like eating tomorrow.” Angela said.
“So what does it mean when he says he will mark me and that I have to mark him?” Kia asked.
“He will bite you on the neck, just above your collarbone to leave a mark for the world to see that he has marked you as his mate. It only hurts for a second and then he’ll lick the bite mark to seal it then you will get what looks like a small tattoo on your neck. To seal the bond, you have to have sex. That makes the bond permanent. You biting him in return will have to happen after you have shifted because it’s not your human side that bites, it’s your wolf. Once you have shifted, you will be able to bring your fangs out at will.” Angela said.
Angela pulled on the collar of her shirt and bent her head to the side so that Kia could see the mark that Marcus had made on her neck when he had marked her as his mate. “Once he marks you, you will feel lost without him when you have to be away from each other. If he’s hurt, you will feel his pain and he will feel yours. I think that is one of the reasons we only had one child, Marcus couldn’t handle childbirth more than once.” Angela giggled with her.
“Wow, this is a lot to take in.” Kia said as she sat down on the bed feeling light headed. “Why is this happening to me? Why me? I just want to finish high school and maybe go to college to get my degree so that I can get a good job that will earn me enough to support myself, hopefully comfortably.
Now I find out that on my 18th birthday I’m going to become a werewolf and the one constant that has always been in my life is going to come to me but in the form of a wolf. Will she hurt people? Do I need to be locked away at the full moon to keep from killing anyone?” Kia said without realizing that she was speaking out loud.
“Oh, no, hon. We don’t hunt people or hurt them if we can help it. The moon goddess created us to be protectors from other evils. It’s all very complicated and I promise you that you can research it from the books in our library. You will learn the history and all the differences of things you’ve never been taught in the human schools. Humans think we are myths or fantasy creatures.
Hollywood has not been kind to us and has made us out to be evil murderers and monsters but we are far from that. For the most part, we live the same as humans do. We have wants and needs and dreams for the future. We eat the same foods, we just like our meat a bit more rare than some humans do. Our natural instinct is to protect those who are not able to protect themselves, be they human or other supernatural creatures.” Angela grinned at her.
“OK. I think I understand.” Kia said but Angela could sense that she was feeling totally overwhelmed. “Can I ask a favor?” Kia asked.
“Sure.” Angela said.
“Is there a guest room where I could sleep tonight? I need time to think and I don’t think I can do that and sleep with Ethan until I have things clear in my head.” Kia said.
“Sure. I’ll tell Edith to put clean sheets on the bed in the spare room but for now, come on down and have some dinner.” Angela said.
Together they left the bedroom and went down to the dining room. Angela saw Kia seated at the table and then went out to the hall to stop Ethan from entering the dining room until she had a chance to talk to him. She explained that Kia needed to have the night to get things clear in her head.
“Give her this one night, son. She’s had to hear a lot of strange new information and has to get it right in her own head but don’t worry, she’s going to accept you.” Angela tried to assure him and smiled when he and his wolf whimpered pitifully.
“Come on and get some dinner. Tomorrow is going to be a long hard day and you will need to be strong for her. Just be patient. Everything is going to work out the way it’s supposed to.” Angela said as she led the way back into the dining room.
They all enjoyed a wonderful meal and Lily was especially talkative, telling everyone about all of the darling baby things she had found that day.
Josh, who it turned out was the clown of the group, kept everyone laughing all through dinner and Kia was feeling much more at ease by the time they finished.
“I’m stuffed. How about a walk in the garden?” Ethan whispered near her ear, causing her to have to swallow the moan that nearly escaped and Tia to practically dance in her head, as everyone started to head off to either the media room or their rooms.
“Sure. Some fresh air would be nice and I need to walk off some of this delicious food.” Kia agreed.
Ethan put his hand on the small of her back, causing a tingling sensation to run up her spine, as they walked out to the garden. The last of the sun was lighting up the evening sky in bright reds and orange and yellows and Kia sighed at the beauty of it. The flowers in the raised beds that edged the walkways were starting to bloom and the quiet evening air was heavy with their scents.
They walked all the way around the gardens until they came to a small fountain. There was a statue of a beautiful woman in a long flowing gown holding a large full moon above her head. At the bottom of the basin were two wolves, their necks crossed as if they were hugging each other.
“It’s beautiful.” Kia said as she admired the statue.
“It is the moon goddess and the first two wolves she ever created to be mates. Did my mom explain everything?” Ethan asked quietly.
“Yes. She told me what will happen and why but I need some time to get things straight in my head, Ethan. I’ve asked if there is a room where I can stay tonight so that I can think clearly. When I’m close to you, I feel too confused and Tia keeps pushing me to do things I’m not so sure I’m ready for. Do you understand?” Kia told him.
She was beginning to wish she hadn’t eaten so much at dinner and that she would have skipped the chocolate cake and ice cream with chocolate syrup as the butterflies in her stomach felt more like bats or birds now and were making her feel nauseous.
“I understand and I’m sorry that it’s so overwhelming but can you imagine what it would have been like if I hadn’t found you and brought you here where there are people who can help you through it?
I don’t think anyone in any of the foster homes would have known what to do to help you and you might have ended up in an institution or worse. If you managed to complete the shift on your own, you probably would have been killed. If you managed to escape, you might have hurt or even killed someone trying to get away.” Ethan said, bringing up points that Kia had not even considered yet. She knew he was right.
This wasn’t something that was going to happen because she had met him but because of who she already was. Tia had let her know that Angela was telling her the truth and while she wasn’t looking forward to it, she knew that this was something she wouldn’t be able to avoid or delay and even though she was terrified, she was glad that Ethan and his wonderful family had not only offered to help her but had welcomed her as a part of their family.
“Thank you for being here for me, Ethan. I’m so glad that I won’t have to go through this alone. I still have a million questions I want answered mostly about the future but for now, I think I have all I can handle for the moment.” Kia said as she stepped closer to him.
She wanted so much for him to hold her again. She had felt so safe when he had hugged her today and that was before she had found out about her wolf and all that was going to happen in the next few days. She still wasn’t certain that what they said was really going to happen and that more than anything she hoped that they were mistaken but somehow she knew they weren’t wrong.
Ethan could feel her uncertainty and he stepped forward and wrapped his arms around her, trying to comfort her as best he could. He rested his head on top of hers as he whispered words of comfort to her.
“Don’t worry, my love. I will be here for you all the way. You are my mate and I already love you more than life itself, Kia. No one is ever going to hurt you again and everything will be alright. We’ll get through this together.”
Kia looked up at him and saw the truth and his love in his eyes and she felt better. She closed her eyes and went up on her toes as she reached one hand up behind his neck. Ethan lowered his head and finally kissed her. Softly and oh so gentle at first.
Kia felt the wall she had built around her heart begin to crumble around her and she shifted her head so that they could deepen their kiss as she hugged him tighter. Kia felt a warmth low in her belly that radiated down to her loins and she became so aroused, wanting for the first time in her life for this man to touch her in a way that she had never been touched before.
A guard walking patrol cleared his throat when he spotted them to let them know he was there and Ethan mind linked Josh to tell him that he would rip him a new one later if he didn’t leave immediately. They both heard him snickering as he walked away.
“Maybe we should head back inside.” Kia said into his chest, where she had hidden her face when Josh had coughed. “I don’t want to hurt your feelings or anything but I’m still going to stay in my own room tonight. Please understand that I need time to think and to come to terms with all of this.”
“I do understand, Kia. My bed is going to seem awfully big and lonely without you tonight but I do understand.” Ethan said, taking her hand in his.
He led her back into the house and showed her the room she would be staying in. He kissed her goodnight at the door and said “If you need anything, my room is right next door. Edith has brought some of the things you will need tonight over to this room but if you need anything else just let me know.”
“Thank you, Ethan. See you in the morning.” Kia said.
“Good night my love. See you in the morning.” Ethan said and Kia almost giggled at the pitiful look on his face.
He didn’t tell her that he could smell her arousal and that it was making him hard as a rock for her. He had never felt like this for anyone before and it was going to take a lot for him to stay in his own bed alone tonight.