How did I end up in a situation like this?
I chose the latter and rushed out of my door, ignoring the call from Simon. He was about to go inside his room and shut the door when I called out his name.
He stopped dead on his tracks and turned around to face me with no emotion on his face.
"What just happened back there? You can't pull something like that for one moment and then wish me good luck on my date like none of this ever happened," I almost yelled in frustration and he just rolled his eyes in response.
"Come on. The way you were so eager to attend his call said enough," he snapped back angrily and I shook my head, feeling pissed at his unreasonable reaction.
"That's not fair. I am standing right in front of you now. Aren't I?"
"Only after I chose to walk away," he added almost immediately and I licked my lips, trying to come up with a response but I didn't know what to say.
"Is your date still on?" he asked slowly and carefully after a long pause, looking straight into my eyes.
I could easily cancel this date but how can I ever be sure that he will ask me on a date?
"Would you ever ask me on a date in the future?" I blurted out the second that thought popped into my head and I held my breath.
I kept waiting for his response but all I got was complete silence from him. He looked away from me and ran his fingers through his hair.
A gesture he does only when he is annoyed or frustrated. I noticed that he had a pained expression on his face and I felt so gutted. I just wanted to run away and hide myself in embarrassment.
Way to be desperate,Ridhi!
'Glad that I don't have a girlfriend like you who is always so frigid and uptight.' his voice kept ringing in my head and I was almost of the verge of breaking down.
"That's what I thought," I scoffed and walked back to my room with tears threatening to fall down my cheeks.
Why am I such a fool?
I grabbed my phone from my bed angrily and called back Simon. He picked up the call within the first ring.
"Hey, I'm waiting outside your building. Are you ready?" he asked in an excited tone, making me feel so bad instantly. I cleared my throat before speaking.
"Yeah, I'll be down in a minute." I spoke in a monotonous tone and cut the call before grabbing my stuff and walking out of the apartment, not caring a bit that he was shooting daggers at me with his burning gaze.
Once I came outside my building, I found Simon, leaning against his car waiting for me with a huge smile on his face. He was wearing a crisp light blue shirt and a pair of dark wash jeans. He looked effortlessly handsome and I tried my best to look excited after the disaster that happened few moments back with Ray.
"Hey, Sorry for keeping you waiting." I apologized as soon as I came closer and stood in front of him.
"Totally worth it. You look absolutely gorgeous but what happened to your eyes?" He let out a small frown and I quickly blinked my eyes in confusion.
"What about my eyes?"
"They look red like you have been crying or something,"
"Uhh..I--umm...I didn't get much sleep last night as I was working on a paper for my class." I lied through my teeth and he nodded in understanding.
"No worries. You still look beautiful as always. Shall we go?" he asked with a small smile and opened the car door for me. I blushed a little before, entering the car which looked so posh and comfortable. He started to drive and soon we were on the road.
First we went to the movies and I remained silent the whole time. I kept nodding every time he tried to have some conversation with me and I honestly couldn't focus on anything as my mind was continuously replaying the events that happened before I left the apartment.
He must regret asking me out on a date.
"Are you alright?" he finally asked when we were walking towards his car.
"Was it the movie? You seem so silent. Did you not like it or are you not feeling well?" he seemed so concerned and I cursed myself internally.
"Oh no, I'm totally fine. Just thinking about my exams next week. It's been so stressful." I lied again and he let out a soft sigh.
"Thank God, I thought you were bored of me already." He replied, letting out a small chuckle.
"Not at all. I'm having fun." I gave him a warm smile and decided to put some effort into this date.
"That's more like it," he grinned widely and stepped closer causing me to back up against the hood of his car. He brushed his fingers lightly against my cheek.
A simple touch which immediately made me think of Ray.
I pushed that moron out of my mind forcefully and tried to focus on the grey orbs that were staring down at me right now.
Okay, he was going to kiss me and I was well prepared for this moment until a certain asshole ruined everything for me.
Simon started inching closer towards me and instead of feeling excited, I started to panic. I wanted to stop him as I was not feeling it at all. I did find him attractive but I didn't feel that urge or desperate need to kiss him and give my all to him.
In other words, it didn't feel the way it felt with Ray.
I didn't get that vibe or the spark I felt everytime Ray touch me.
"Uhhh... I--I'm hungry?" I stumbled upon my words which came out more as a question before he could plant his lips on mine and he started to laugh.
"I suppose it is for food," he added with a small smirk and stepped back, distancing himself from me.
"Yeah, I didn't have my lunch and I'm starving."
What the hell?
Could I tell anymore lies this evening?
"Say no more. Get in the car. I have an amazing place in mind for dinner," He winked and walked towards the driver's seat while I let out a huge breath and pushed my hair away from my face.
That was a close one.
I almost had my first kiss.
'I want to be your first kiss.' I heard Ray's voice in the back of my head and the way he pushed himself against me and made me feel his heartbeat. Just at the thought of it made blood rush to my loins.
That's what I was talking about and he has managed to give me that feeling even in his absence.
Ugh! Screw that fucker!
I mentally groaned in frustration and got inside the car already knowing for sure that I was going to screw up this date.