Why didn't I just hear him out before opening my stupid mouth?!
I kept biting my lips, waiting impatiently for the elevator to reach our floor. I had a lot of questions circling through my mind and I just messed up everything with my stupid assumptions.
"God, could you stop doing that?" he muttered through gritted teeth and I turned to my side to look at him.
"Nothing." He snapped before running a hand through his hair and walked outside swiftly as soon as the elevator doors opened.
I let out a loud sigh and followed him inside our apartment.
"Ray, I know I got angry and said a few things back at the pub.." I started as I closed the door behind me and I was startled to find him, standing inches away from my face when I turned around, his eyes piercing through me and I went completely still.
He placed both of his hands on the wall beside me, caging me between them and I tried to push back the inappropriate sexual thoughts that filled my mind.
"Ummm... I'm really sorry, Ray." I whispered, raising my hand to touch his face. He closed his eyes and zeroed the distance between us, our lips almost touching.
"You make me go crazy. You know that?" that was all he said before smashing his lips against mine and all was forgotten at that moment as I hungrily grabbed a fist of his hair, deepening the kiss like a horny chick. I wasn't that drunk but I could still feel the buzz of alcohol which turned me on even more than usual.
We could talk or fight later.
Because I really needed this.
He tasted like mint and beer mixed with his sexy cologne, so desiring and enticing. I just couldn't get enough of him and tried to push myself against his rock-hard body, rubbing against him shamelessly.
He grabbed my thighs and lifted me so that I had my legs wrapped around his waist and he pushed me back against the wall, his cock poking my butt now.
I was completely drenched by now and I definitely did not expect this to happen once we reached home.
Not that I was complaining!
"I thought you were mad at me." I gasped when he pulled back and started kissing my chin, down my neck.
"I need to calm down and I need this. I need you so bad unless you want me to stop." He breathed out against my neck, sucking and nibbling the sensitive spot under my ears.
"Oh my God, please don't stop." I almost yelled out in pleasure, feeling the wetness pooling between my core.
"Your room or mine?" I asked as I started to unbutton his shirt and he carried me all the way to his room, kicking the door shut behind us. He dropped me on the bed, his lips not leaving mine as he removed his shirt and threw it away.
He pulled back and started to unbuckle his belt while I tried to sit up straight to unzip my dress. He kept staring at me with an unfamiliar look in his eyes and all of a sudden he stopped me before I could remove my dress fully.
"No, stop...fuck! I'm so sorry." He lay down beside me with a pained expression on his face while I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion, not understanding why he stopped me. I mean, he was still having a boner.
What the hell?
Did I do something wrong to ruin his mood?
"Ummm...what happened? Did I do something wrong?" I asked, trying to pull back the straps of my dress.
He remained silent and sat up straight on the bed, holding his head between his hands.
"I mean, I am new at this. I can do better if you tell me how.."
"Why the fuck are you so naive, Ridhi? You did nothing wrong. I'm the messed up one." He burst out and looked at me with his eyes filled with tears.
"You are not messed up. Not to me."
"I just treated you like the girls I pick up at these pubs when I specifically told you that you are different from them." He spoke in a low voice, looking away from me.
"I'm so sorry, Ridhi. I never wanted this night to go this way. I didn't know what came over me and I just tried to take out my pain on you. I fucking hate myself for that." He explained and I didn't realize that I was crying until he wiped my tears from my cheeks.
He had nothing to be sorry about and I knew he never treated me that way.
I wanted it as much as him.
I climbed on his lap, straddling him with both my legs, and made him look at me.
"Listen to me, you have nothing to be sorry about. I wanted this too and I still do. I want to share your pain, your happiness and sadness, and everything."
"But, you have the right to know the reason behind my pain before we go any further." He added, looking at me as he gripped my waist tightly, "What if you regret it later because you want nothing to do with a fucked up person like me?" he asked, his eyes searching my face for any kind of doubt.
"I don't care because all I want is you, along with your pain and flaws and everything." I sniffled, taking his face between my hands as I continued, "Nothing can make me regret or change my mind about us because..." I paused as the words were on the tip of my tongue.
Well, fuck it.
"Because I'm in love with you, Ray. I love you so much." I said it finally, my gaze not leaving him and I felt him go still at my response.
"You do?" he asked as if he couldn't believe his ears and I smiled, kissing his nose gently.
"Yeah, I've been in love with you for a while now and it took me so long to admit it myself," I added and he hugged me so tight, making me smile wider.
"Well, if that's the case then I think I'm the one who has made you go crazy." He teased me with a small chuckle while I shook my head with a smile.
"Ummm....do you still wanna?"
"You don't even have to ask, baby." He tsked, pushing me back on the bed in one swift movement. I gasped as he removed my dress, followed by my bra and his eyes went dark with desire.
"Beautiful." He murmured, dipping his head to take one of my nipples between his mouth and I arched my back as the pleasure shot right to my core.
"Oh my God!" I moaned as his tongue rolled all over my erect buds while his fingers slipped inside my underwear easily, finding my dripping wet core.
"So fucking wet for me." He groaned in satisfaction, rubbing my pussy and I couldn't take it anymore.
"Ray, please." I cried out, my nails digging in his back as he slipped two of his fingers inside my aching hole.
"Fuck, you are so tight." He hissed, kissing me as he continued to finger me mercilessly.
"Hold on, baby."
He pulled back from me before rolling over to grab a foil from his drawer and I tried to stay calm.
I keep looking at him as he pulled down his jeans and underwear, making me raise my eyebrows.
That's a monster.
"It is, indeed." He winked, giving me a sexy smirk as he wrapped the condom over his cock.
Yup, I spoke out loud as per usual.
"Just look into my eyes, okay and please tell me to stop anything if it's painful or uncomfortable." He explained with so much concern lacing his tone and all I did was, nod with a small smile.
He was so freaking adorable.
"Are you ready to have the best sex of your life?" he asked, his eyes beaming proudly as he positioned himself between my legs and removed my underwear.
"Just shut up and do it already," I rolled my eyes with a smile, making him chuckle and I gripped his arms tightly as I felt the tip of his cock brushing against my pussy. I felt my whole body go stiff with fear and nervousness.
"I've got you, baby." He whispered, looking straight into my eyes and I found myself drowning in those deep blue orbs, all my fears vanishing away in an instant as he pushed myself inside me. I loved this guy and I trusted him with all my heart.
I could feel the pain as he tried to push past the barrier and I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to bear the pain as tears slipped through my eyelids. He kissed away the tears from the corner of my eyes and I opened my eyes to look at him.
"Want me to stop?" he asked with a worried look in his eyes and I realized that he had stopping pushing.
"No, it's fine. I think the pain has gone now." I assured him, kissing square on his lips and he rested his forehead against mine, breathing heavily.
He slowly started to move his hips in circles and once I was comfortable with his length, he started to thrust inside me, increasing his pace consistently.
"Christ, you feel like heaven. Literally." He groaned in pleasure as he continued to ride my pussy and I started to enjoy it as well once the pain was completely gone.
"Wow, it does feel good." I moaned, wrapping my legs around his waist as he continued to pump inside me and I felt my pussy clenching around his cock.
"I know, baby." He smiled, showcasing his adorable dimples, making my heart melt. I could feel the pressure building up inside me and felt my entire body shaking as I had an earth-shattering orgasm.
"Holy Fuck!" I gasped, trying to catch my breath while he grunted, finding his own release shortly after, and fell back on the bed beside me.
"That was the best sex of my life. I'm not even kidding," he chuckled, kissing my forehead and I blushed, still feeling giddy after experiencing that orgasm.
"I could say the same but then this is my first time so.." I let out a small laugh and he raised his eyebrows.
"And I'll make sure this is your last first time. You are stuck with me forever, sweetheart." He added in a serious tone, making me roll my eyes.
"Well, I don't mind it, Mr.Architect." I smiled, kissing him softly.
"It will get better the next time for you, baby. There won't be any pain." He whispered in a comforting manner and stood up from the bed in all his naked glory.
Did I just fuck this hot guy who is now my boyfriend?!
Way to go, Ridhi.
"Come on, let's get you cleaned up." He offered his hand for me to get up and I realized that I was feeling a bit sore down there.
"I'll manage it. It's fi-- Ray, what the hell?!" I shrieked out as he lifted me from the bed and walked towards the bathroom, paying me no mind.
"Let's have a bubble bath," he winked, placing me down on my feet as he filled the bathtub with water and some bath salts.
"How often do you take bubble baths?" I asked, trying so hard not to smile.
There was so much more to this guy and I was greedy to explore and know more and more about him.
"Pfft...Never." He replied almost immediately, making me raise my eyebrows and he shook his head.
"Okay, maybe once a week." He mumbled shyly as he took my hand and we got inside the tub.
"You are so adorable." I laughed as I sat in front of him and he wrapped his arms around my body. The water was so warm and inviting and I could feel my body relax and melt against him.
"This is nice." I sighed dreamily, closing my eyes as I felt him kiss the back of my neck.
I had no idea how long we stayed in the bathtub but I loved every second of it and I've never felt so much closer to him than at that moment.
I just bared my heart and soul and my body to this guy and even though it scared the hell out of me, I felt equally happy and safe in his arms.
"My mom is dead because of me." He spoke, breaking my chain of thoughts and I froze completely.
Well, that was definitely not the most romantic thing to say after making love.