Everything Has Changed
"Alaric. Where are you?" I use a sing-song voice. I turn in my room, and I hear giggling from the other side of my bed.
"I got you!" I jump and scare my almost 3year son.
He squeals loudly and starts running.
"Ohh, Allyn, where are you?" I call out to his twin sister.
I now can hear both of them giggling from the living room instead of walking to the living room and make my way to the kitchen. I know they will follow me.
"Boo!" They both jump and scare me. They start giggling like crazy.
I grab a snack for them and look up when I hear someone coming through the front door.
I wave when I see that's it's my nanny Hannah. She was my personal assistant when I was pregnant, and now she is the twins' nanny. They adore her, and she loves them like they are her own. She is a few years older than me, but she never says anything about it.
She arches her brow at me, and I know that's code for 'I have something to tell you but not in front of the kids.' I nod my head slightly and finish getting their snack ready while she puts them at their play table.
After the twins sit down, she joins me in the kitchen. We have music playing for them so they can't hear us.
She puts her iPad on the counter, and I see an article pulled up. I don't bother reading it because I know what it's about.
She hesitates. "He's here, Ryn."
My eyes widen slightly. "Why?"
"He's performing too."
I groan out loud. "Why? Damien said that he declined when they asked him too."
"I guess he changed his mind. Are you still gonna go?"
I pinch the bridge of my nose. "I don't really have a choice. I already said yes, and it's tonight. It's too late to back out now."
She nods her head and grabs my hand. "It's going to be fine. Just go, perform, get your award and leave."
I roll my eyes. "If I get an award. And I doubt he will talk to me anyway."
She sighs. "You're going to win. I know it."
I shrug my shoulders. "I have to leave in an hour. I was going to have you and the twins wait backstage for me, but I'm not sure that's a good idea anymore."
"Probably not. It's ok, though. We can bake some cookies and watch some movies while we wait for you, and we can watch it here." She smiles at me.
I can hear that the twins are getting up, so they must be done with their snacks. They bring me their plates, and I put them in the dishwasher. I open the back door to watch them play for a bit before I have to leave.
As I sit here watching my twins play, I start to think of Alaric. I use to think about him all the time, but now, it's not that often. After I left his hotel that tragic night, I went back to his place and cried my eyes out. I couldn't believe that he cheated on me. The next morning, I packed everything I could and checked into a hotel. I called Damien and let him know what was going on. He was shocked. I tried to quit because there was no way I would be able to see him and not break down. Damien rushed over to my hotel to speak with me directly. He told me that he refused to let me quit. I laughed at him, but he was serious. I told him that I was pregnant, but I wasn't going to tell Alaric yet. We talked for hours. He convinced me to be brave and to release my own music.
In the beginning, I started small. I only wanted radio play. I didn't perform anywhere due to my growing stomach. I wore anything to hide my pregnancy. I only released a few songs to make some money. I still produced for some artists, and I became a writer for Lanie. I didn't work in the building anymore so I wouldn't run into him.
Alaric never came back for me. He never tried to call or text me. He never asked Damien about me. He just met me go. That's how I knew that he didn't really love me. I called him once to ask for my piano, and he said he would talk to Damien to arrange for me to get it and never call him again. I was heartbroken all over again.
Right before I gave birth to the twins, I decided to tell him about them. As I was driving to his apartment, I heard fucking Rebecca on the radio talking about their relationship, and they were back together. I immediately turned my car around. I ended up having the twins that night.
After I heard her interview on the radio, their relationship was everywhere. Everyone was talking about it. I got asked multiple times what I thought about it, but I didn't comment. So, 6months after I had the twins, I decided to move to us New York. Damien has another building for his label here, so that it wouldn't affect my contract.
I slowly started to release more music and started to perform every so often. The less I performed, the more popular I became. I slowly started to knock all of Alaric's singles from the top spots. He was often asked about how he felt about me becoming more popular than him, and he refused to answer the question. He was still signed to Damien's label, but he worked with other producers because Damien refused to work with him.
When the twins turned one, Hannah told me that Rebecca announced their engagement. I wanted to throw up. It always hurts so much when their relationship gets thrown in my face.
Hannah gently grabs my shoulder to break me from my deep thoughts. I look at my watch and realize that it's time for me to go. I stand up and walk over to my twins and kiss them.
As I'm leaving, Hannah gives me a reassuring hug.