Let Her Go
I stand there stunned. What the hell happened to her? There was no light or emotion in her eyes. Except for her parting words to me where is saw anger. But the rest of the time, I saw no emotion on her face or in her eyes. She was just a shell.
I quickly grab my phone and keys and leave. I need to get away from her. I head back to the apartment in the city. As I'm driving, my phone starts to ring. It's the fuckin number that has ruined my life.
"What!" I bark out when I answer the phone.
"Well, hello to you too, handsome." Her voice is sickly sweet.
"What do you want?" I growl out. Why is she calling me? I don't want to hear her ugly ass voice.
"Is it done?"
"Yes." I grit my teeth. This is all her fuckin fault.
"Great" I know she is smiling.
"Is that all you want?" My voice is harsh.
"Mhhhhhm. I'll keep my word as long as you keep yours. Bye, sexy." She hangs up.
Fuck! I punch my steering wheel. I speed up so I can get to the apartment. I need a damn drink to calm down.
When I get to the apartment, Jason is already waiting for me. "What are you doing here?"
"Hannah took the twins to the movies, and I didn't want to watch a kid movie, so I came here to see what you are doing." He shrugs.
I sigh and go to the fridge and grab a beer. I think about everything that has happened this past week.
"Dude, are you alright?" Jason asks me and snaps out of my daydream. I stare at him for a moment and think if I should tell him. She told me not to tell anyone about what they have done, but I feel like I need to tell him or go crazy.
"No, everything is not ok." my voice cracks at the end.
"I'm here for you, bro. Tell me, what's going on?" He puts his hand on my shoulder. I pinch between my brows, and I take a deep breath.
"I just broke up with Arryn." I breathe out. His jaw drops open.
"Why? I thought you were gonna propose?" He asks. It's true. I was going to propose this weekend.
"You know how she went on a mini-vacation last week?" I ask him. he nods his head. It shocked everyone when they found out she just got up and left for a vacation.
"Well, she didn't go on vacation. The wicked witch and my brother kidnaped her.'' I take another long drink from my beer.
"What the fuck? How are you so calm about her being kidnapped?" he yells at me.
"at first, I didn't even notice she was gone. I was in the studio, working late. I came home, and no one was home. of course, I called her a bunch of times, but she didn't answer.'' I pause and finish my beer. I go to the fridge, grab two more, and hand one to Jason, who instantly takes it.
"After another hour or so of not hearing from her, I start to panic, and I am about to start calling everyone, but an unknown number calls me. It was the wicked witch, and she told me that she had Arryn and was going to keep her until I paid her a million dollars and then broke up with Arryn when she returned. I told her the only way I'd agree to her terms is if she didn't hurt Arryn, the twins, or my unborn kids and if she dropped the child support case and changed her kid's name and left me the hell alone. She is a greedy bitch, so she agreed quickly but told me I couldn't tell anyone what they had done or she would kill Arryn and the twins. It took almost a week for me to get all the money, but I gave it to her two days ago, and Arryn came home today, and then I broke up with her." I explained everything to him. I could feel the tears in my eyes, and my heart was aching. I feel so shitty for leaving Arryn like that, but I needed to do it for her and our kid's safety.
"Damn. So what now?" Jason shakes his head.
I shrug. "I have to keep my word to keep them safe. I told Arryn I'd be in the kids' life no matter what. I told her I would give her child support, but she doesn't want any money from me. I can't really blame her. She does make more money than me." I slightly chuckle. normally, my pride would be hurt by that face, but because it's the woman I love, I don't give a damn.
"This is so fucked up." Jason takes another drink from his beer.
I narrow my eyes at him a little. "You can't tell anyone. Not even Hannah."
He raises his hands in surrender. "I won't. I won't."
I feel my phone vibrate in my pocket, and I pull it out, and it's a message from Arryn. My heart beats a little faster. I feel hopeful, but it quickly dies when I read the message. She is only informing me of a doctor's appointment tomorrow. At least she is letting me know these things still. I tell her I will be there and ask if I can keep the twins this weekend. She quickly replies a yes, and I am slightly shocked. I would have thought she wanted them since she just got back. Deep down, I know that something is terribly wrong with her. my heart breaks even more from thinking back to how she looked and acted.
I give her a silent apology in my head. All I wanted to do was marry her, raise our kids and be happy with her. I would have given up everything for that to happen. If she told me to quit releasing music and get a normal job, I would have. I would have given up my dream for her. She became my new dream. She has my entire heart. I had to let her go because I needed her and my kids to be safe.