I was sitting on my bed reading a book because I couldn’t sleep when the door opened and locked, I heard footsteps but I didn’t react already knowing who it was.
“You aren’t sleeping.” He said quietly
“I couldn’t sleep, you should go back to your own chamber and sleep on your bed.” I curtly said.
He joined me in bed ignoring what I just said.
His arm came around my waist as he put his head on my lap, “Are you still angry?”
“I’m not angry, I never was. I was just.. hurt” I replied monotonously.
Jacob’s closed his eyes as if what I said was too painful to hear.
“Please forgive me.” he whispered as he opened his eyes glossy, and my heart constricted.
I put my book aside, and moved my hand through his hair, he slightly smiled until I said, “Maybe I should go back and we should cancel the wedding…” I said distractedly.
His entire demeanour changed, his eyes darker than ever and his whole body tensed.
“What did you just say” he said pulling at my legs making me lay down on the bed and climbing on top of me.
My breath hitched.
“I said maybe we should cancel-
“Don’t you dare Ria, don’t you dare repeat that shit” he gritted.
“Why not?” I said angrily my hands on his chest trying to push him away.
His eyes darkened, he held my wrist above my head, tight not enough to hurt but enough to make me immobile.
He brought his face closer to me, “We had a damn fight Ria, I am apologising, but you are not going to leave me.”
My eyes filled, “You don’t trust me, Jake! I can’t be with someone who doesn’t trust me.”
“Of course I trust you, why would you say that.” he frowned.
“You thought I was testing your love Jake. You don’t know me, otherwise you would never say that” I screeched.
His eyes filled with regret. “I was angry Ria, I’m not proud of what I said in my anger because none of it was true. When you said you wanted to leave I felt as if my heart got ripped out of my chest. And then I was damn ecstatic that you weren’t leaving and we were getting married but then I don’t know when you said it was an ultimatum, I just… I got so hurt and I didn’t realise what I was saying until it was too late. You know I would never want you to leave, I’d rather die than be without you.”
I sobbed, “you ..you said that I ..that I never think of you that I’m selfish”
“I never called you selfish-
“What you said meant the same thing, I love your laugh but our worst two fights and both times you disgustingly snorted at me, as if I didn’t matter.” I sobbed.
“Oh sweetheart I didn’t think! I wasn’t thinking Ria, I was angry I shouldn’t have said those things or laughed in any derogatory way, forgive me love. You matter, you have to know that you are the very air I breathe love.”
He released my hands and wiped away my tears, while he moved at his side taking me with him.
He put me on his lap, holding me tightly.
“I love you Jake, never fight with me again.” I said after a moment holding him tightly.
He smiled and kissed my forehead, “I promise I’ll control my anger from now on, but I can’t promise we won’t fight.”
My brows furrowed.
“People in love fight Ria, but I promise to always come to you and sort out our differences, I promise to never go to sleep angry with you” he moved his lips to my cheeks kissing away my tears.
I smiled and nodded, “That’s much better”
“But I won’t let you sleep either, remember that.” He winked
I laughed, “I can deal with that”
He smiled and kissed my nose.