Two weeks, i don't hear him, i don't see his blue eyes and he doesn't see his kids growing up for two weeks already, doctors say that the swell on his brain is going down and in one more week their will take off his breathing tube and see his reaction. Two weeks I've been this strong person for my children and i don't know for how long i will be able to continue.
I want to spend the nights with him, but i can't, i have kids. Does it makes me a bad mother if i spend one, just one night with him?
All my emotions are weighting on me, but i have to move forward. At least we got out of that hotel, we are in our new home, but it doesn't feel like home, not without him. I can't sleep in our bed alone so every night i sleep in the nursery with the triplets. I know that it's not good for me but what am I supposed to do?
We still have Gianna and Iosif to deal with, but I'm thinking of just let them die from hunger and dehydration, i don't think I have the strength to torture them. They disserve it but i don't know, can't i just close them in some hole and throw away the key?
Luca has been taking care of all the business and he's doing a nice job, we've been trying to keep Dante condition in private to avoid our enemies to attack us, because right now our mafia is a little vulnerable. Everyone is sad that their Don is in the hospital, we are like a big family.
I woke up at 4am today, i took my ten minute shower and got dressed, i went downstairs and made breakfast to everyone. Right now there's almost ten people living here, i also tried to keep our new house private but i bet that the word his out to every member. I kissed my kids and was going to my car when i see someone i really didn't want to, Leonardo. Why don't i like him? Well do you know that feeling you get when you meet someone and just by the look on their eyes you know they are not good people? He got that look, something evil in his eyes, and i don't know his intentions.
"What are you doing in my house at 6 in the morning?"
"Came to see how everyone has been doing. And Luca has the office here so it's normal i come by sometimes."
"You want to talk to Luca you call him, you can't show unannounced. Now turn around and leave."
"What is your problem with me Isabella."
"To you is Donna. I have things to do, leave."
"Is it Donna? For how long?" This motherfucker is getting on my nerves.
"What do you mean by that? I'll only say this one more time, leave. If i have to repeat myself you'll leave in a body bag."
"Alright, don't need to be so aggressive, I'll go. See you soon Isabella." And with that he left. I really feel like he's planning something.
I went to my car and drove to the hospital. I know is really early and visiting hours are much later but well i have a gun that helps also i gave the hospital a big donation, so i know they won't stop me.
When i got to his room everything was the same as always, he is in the same way, i can see that he lost some weight already and has a 5 o'clock shadow. I like the beard but not when he looks dead. I went to the bathroom took some shaving foam and a razor and went to his side, carefully i shaved him meanwhile telling how everyone is doing.
I just hope he can hear me, he's missing so much, specially with the triplets they grow up in a blink of an eye. I told him about hour new home and what i would like to change, i asked him what he thought about doing a pool to the kids just like he had made in the other house for Lorenzo. My only answer was silence.
I kissed in his forehead and started talking about one of our dates, i talked about hour happy moments.
"Bella you take to much time getting ready, you're beautiful the way you are, you can dress a trash bag and you still would be the most beautiful women i ever seen." He said to me with love and adoration in his eyes.
"Don't be silly Dante i won't go out in a trash bag, but you know i like to get all dress up when we're going out, now come on I'm ready."
"Oh mio Dio, perché le donne devono essere così complicate?"[Oh my God, why do women have to be so complicated?] He muttered under is breath.
"L'ho sentito."[i heard that] i shouted from downstairs.
We went to his car and he drove us to the beach, there were fairy lights everywhere and a table in the middle with candles wine and food. It looks like something from a fairly tail. It was magic.
"You know, we are already married you don't need to try to impress me so hard." I said playing with him. I love everything he does for me.
"I'm not trying to impress you, i just want the best and nothing but the best for my wife. And maybe some wild sex after."
"I'll think about it." I said and kissed him passionately.
Like the gentleman he his he pulled the chair for me and i sat, the wine was delicious, he always knew how to choose wine and never desapointed. And the food was my favorite, lasagna.
We ate and talk about everything and anything and then we went to sit next to the water, there he couldn't keep his hands to himself, so we kissed while his hands roamed my body.
"I think we should go home now." I said into his ear.
He got up with my legs and arms wrapped around him and he led us to the car, i saw that we were the only one in there so i thought came to my mind, we got inside the car but before he could put the key on the ignition i said.
"You wanted wild sex?"
"Yes, when we get home i will fuck you so hard-" he started to say but i cut him off.
"Why wait until we get home?" I said and went to his lap, he pulled his seat down and i started to grind on him hard on. Our kisses were passionate and rough, his hands went underneath my dress and that's when he notice.
He didn't waist any minute pulling his pants down freeing his hard, thick dick, he grabbed it and started rubbing it in my wet slit, just this little action was driving me crazy. I craved him, i wanted him, feel him inside of me, hitting all the right spots.
"I want you inside of me." I said and he obeyed, slowly enter me making us both moan from pleasure.
Once he was all the way in i started riding him, we fucked until my legs were numb. He gave me pleasure and i gave him back, was one of the best dates we ever had.
"I think that's how the triplets were made." I said with a small chuckle and a tear running down my face.