What a way to spend my Saturday, I woke up thinking that today was going to be like any other Saturday were me and Xavier would be still cuddling up in bed, planning on how we will be spending our entire afternoon.
But guess what, I woke up with Xavier's traveling bags and most of his belongings by the door.
'did we plan to travel somewhere?', that was the first thing on my mind but the response that came is not something I would have predicted, not by a long shot
'issabelle', that's how he started as soon as he caught my questioning stare.
He flipping used my full name to start this conversation, I mean that right there had caused a painful clench on my stomach, as if I had eaten something that caused a bad reaction.
NO 'my bella' as he would often call me, no sweetheart, no endearment, no nothing, just Isabelle.
'Isabelle remember when you told me that I shouldn't cheat on you, that I should tell you when I no longer want to be in this relationship together?, i think it's better we break up because I've found someone else'
Those were the words to grace me from a blissful sleep.
I don't know whether to cry, or to just laugh.
I mean I know I told him never to cheat on me but I thought that everything was going great, we have had arguments like any normal couple so I'm lost for words.
I stared at him with tears in my eyes, I don't know what to say, I'm definitely speechless right now.
'say something please, I know things have been great between us but I feel we lack a certain spark, it's really not you I can promise you that this is entirely me. Maybe I rushed us with this whole marriage thing but you know Mia my assistant and I have been working so closely together for the past few months now and I've established a bond with her. I think I've fallen for her and I've already told her about my feelings, she feels the same but we've never proceeded with anything because I still have you. She's a nice woman, she also didn't want to start anything until I had broken things up with you.
I think I want a divorce, you can keep everything, everything you want I won't fight.'
Im still staring at him right now the difference is I have tears in my eyes, I mean I'm glad his coming clean but I'm angry
'Xavier I truly don't know what to say' the first tear dropped
'I thought we were fine, can we not work on this please, we can go to therapy please I-I...' my voice clogged up,i took a deep breather and continued
'I can't lose you, I love you so much.
What am I going to do now' I whispered the last sentence.
As soon as those words came out Xavier came over to the bed and set next to me, he took my hands in his grasp and started to rub my wrist.
'oh Belle please donot cry because of me I know this hurts so bad but I promise you I won't start anything with her so quickly, I'll wait atleast a month for you because right now I feel like a total scum.'
he stared at me for a long time and sighed
' I have to leave now belle I don't want to torture you any further but just know that I'll always and forever love you, I don't want us to end on a bad note, I want us to continue being friends, maybe we were always just meant to be friends love.'
He got up from the bed, kissed me on my forehead and proceeded to start moving his things outside our room and finally outside our house.
What just happened right now?
I'm still so confused, I feel as if this is all just one bad bad bad nightmare I pinched myself just to make sure. I was numb, very numb.
I then decided to atleast take a nap and deal with this situation after I wake up because right now my head cannot function at all.