I don’t know how, or when, I fell asleep, but I did. I was hoping that when I woke up that all this would be a dream. It wasn’t. I woke up to an empty bed. Eliot must have left after I fell asleep. I’m not sure how I feel about that right now to be honest. I wish he was here when I woke up. I need him right now. I need him more than I’ve ever needed anyone in my life. I’ve lost my daughter and a baby all in a couple of months. I don’t know how much more I can take of this. I don’t know how much longer I can act strong when I’m not. I’m completely falling apart. I’m brought out of my thoughts when a knock sounds from the door. It’s not Eliot because he would have just walked in. Do I want to see anyone? Not really, but I probably should. It could be important. “Come in.” My voice is hoarse form all the sobbing I’ve been doing.
I look up at the door when it opens to see a distraught Gavin standing in the doorway. I hold my arms out and he rushes forward. “Shh. It’s okay sweet boy. We’ll get her back.” I look over his shoulder to see Blaster standing there. I continue shushing Gavin and rocking him back and forth. “You can come in if you’d like.” I tell him. He walks in and sits in the chair by the desk.
“I wanted to see how you were holding up. I know it’s a stupid question but doesn’t hurt to ask.” He says.
“I’m doing about as well as I can.” I tell him honestly. “My daughter has been taken and there’s nothing I can do about it right now. I just have to have faith that the boys will bring her and my grandchild home.”
“We’ll get her. I’m going to stay here. I’ve sent my VP back to Florida to take care of things there. I know you don’t know me from Adam, but I’ve decided to claim you as my family. You remind me of someone very special to me. You remind me of home. I felt an instant familial connection to you as soon as I met you.” Blaster says.
“Blaster.” I start.
“Cane. Call me Cane.” He tells me.
“Cane. You don’t know me. Am I flattered? Yes. Can I ask who I remind you of?” I ask. I look from Cane to the boy in my arms and see that Gavin has stopped crying long enough to fall asleep. I don’t think he’s going to be asleep long though. He’s a tough boy, but his baby and woman are out there somewhere. I don’t think he knows what to do right now. I know I don’t.
“My sister. She was your age when she passed away.” He says.
“I’m so sorry Cane. That’s terrible.” I sympathize.
“It’s been five years, and still doesn’t get any easier, but you remind me of her. She had been fighting cancer since she was five. The fight finally left her five years ago. She was a fighter, but when you fight cancer four times over twenty-five years, it takes a lot out of your body. She was always putting others before herself. Always saw the best in others, no matter where they came from. She was a spitfire when she needed to be. She sure whipped my guys into shape when they needed their asses handed to them. I’m not looking for you to replace her, I’m just making it known that you’re my family now. That girl out there is my family. From what I’ve gathered, this young man in your arms is her baby’s father and is very important to your daughter. I’m going to fight tooth and nail along with your husband to get them both back safe and sound. It may not happen today or tomorrow, but it will happen.”
“I appreciate it man.” Eliot answers Cane before I can even form words. “We need all the help we can get. We’ve got feelers out seeing if we can find the car. If we’re lucky, they haven’t gotten far, but if we’re not…” He doesn’t need to elaborate. I know what he means. I don’t want to think about it right now.
“I need to go home and make dinner for Morgan.” I say as I shake Gavin. “Come on sweetheart. Let’s get you over to the house and fed. It’s getting late. You need rest.”
“Baby girl. Let someone else take care of dinner. Morgan’s over at Axyl and Ali’s place.” Eliot starts. I shake my head in denial.
“No. I need to be busy. If I’m not busy I’ll think and overthink. I can’t do that. I need to keep busy. If cooking and taking care of my family is going to keep me busy, you can bet your fucking ass that’s what I’ll be doing.” I snarl.
“Okay little minx. Whatever you want. Just don’t curse anymore. It sounds weird coming from your mouth.” He says as I let out a snort. This is true. I never curse. Not on purpose, but I’m stressed. I need to calm down. This isn’t good for the baby. I wait for Gavin to get off of me before I have Eliot help me up.
“Cane, we have an extra room if you’d like to stay at our house.” I tell him.
“I’ll think about it. Go get some rest.” He says. Gavin and I make our way out of the clubhouse and over to Ali’s to get Morgan. Once we all make it to the house, I’m freezing and starving. Eliot told Morgan what was going on, at least that his sister was missing, so that takes that stress away from me. I don’t know if I could tell him without breaking down again. I’m barely holding on as it is. I make my way to the kitchen and pull out the chicken breast I had marinating in the fridge when we get back home. I’m making shredded chicken tacos.
By the time I get everything ready for dinner, Eliot and Cane are walking through the door. There’s another man with them that I haven’t had the pleasure to meet yet. I also didn’t realize how much time had gone by since I started cooking. I was lost in my thoughts about Posey. This house is so empty without her in it. I just hope she’s okay wherever she is, and I hope that the guys can find her soon. “Anything?” I ask Eliot when he makes is way towards me.
“Nothing yet babe. Snoopy is doing everything he can to find her. He’s even called in the Mason’s family hacker. She’s one of the best with Snoopy being the best there is.” He tells me.
“Well, if he’s the best then shouldn’t he have found her already? If he’s as good as you say he is, she should be home right now! Not out there without me!” I exclaim. Anger. That’s better than breaking completely apart. “My daughter is out there pregnant, alone, and scared! If he’s the fucking best then why did he have to call in reinforcements? If he can’t find my daughter, then I will.”
“Mom?” Morgan’s voice breaks through my anger and I break.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. It’s just a lot. Come here baby. I know you miss her too.” Morgan rushes into my arms and hugs me tight. I think I need this more than he does. To be loved by one of my children while the other is somewhere out there. “Let’s eat.”
“We’ll get her Alanis. I can promise you that. As soon as we get a lead, I’ll be going after her myself. I’m going to get our daughter back. If there’s something that you can trust, you can trust my word. You know that.” Eliot says. I know he’s right, but this is my baby we’re talking about. I can’t not do anything. I just can’t sit here and twiddle my thumbs while she’s out there being exposed to God only knows what. What if they do things to her. What if they abuse her, or worse…rape her? What if they cause her to lose the baby? “Stop it babe. We’ll get her.”
“I know. It’s just hard. Let’s sit down and have a nice meal. We all need to keep our strength up if we’re going to do anything.” I say. I turn my face towards the man standing next to Case. “I’m terribly sorry about my outburst.”
“Don’t worry darlin’. It’s understandable during a time like this.” The man says.
“This here is Motor. He’s my brother-in-law. He’s also my Enforcer.” Case says as we all sit down at the table.
“Well, it’s very nice to meet you Motor. I hope chicken tacos are good for everyone.” They all nod and I look around to see that Gavin hasn’t joined us. “Excuse me.” I get up from the table and make my way through the house toward Posey’s room. I hear his cries before I get to her room. Opening the door, I see him hugging her pillow tight along with the stuffed dog they got for the baby. “Oh, honey. It’s going to be okay. They’ll come back safe and sound.”
“I miss her so much mama.” When he and Posey got engaged, he started calling me mama and I absolutely love it. It warms my heart every time. “What if something happens to the baby? What if something happens to her and the baby? I tried to save her. I wasn’t fast enough. If I would have just gone into the building…I should have been able to save her.”
“Nothing’s going to happen to her son. She’s going to come home safe and sound. Both her and the baby are going to come back. Now, get your ass up and at that table.” I give Eliot a hard look. “Don’t look at me that way. Crying over it isn’t going to help anything.” He turns towards Gavin who is sitting up in the bed now. “You can either get up and help find her, or you can sit in this room and wallow.” With that, he turns around and leaves the room. It was harsh of him to say, but he has a point. I can’t sit here and wallow in self-pity, even though his words weren’t directed at me. I need to be strong for my daughter.
“Come on honey. Let’s get some food and relax the best we can with the situation we were dealt. We’ll reconvene tomorrow morning.” We make our way towards the dining room. While we’re in the middle of eating, my phone vibrates in my pocket. I pull it out and my blood runs cold.
Unknown Number: If you want her back alive, you’ll come to this address. Alone.
I quickly turn the screen of my phone off and look at the men around the table. “Who was that?” Eliot asks. I can’t tell him. They said to come alone. I’ll have to find a way to get away from the men staying in my house.
“Facebook notification.” I say before going back to my food. He doesn’t look like he believes me, but it’s the best that he’s going to get right now. I need to plan. I need to get to this address in hopes of saving my daughter. Eliot lets it go, but I can tell he won’t for long.
Dinner goes by in a blur and before I know it, Morgan and Gavin are going to bed. I show Motor and Case a room and head towards Eliot and my room. I’ll make my way out of the house when he’s asleep. It’s a crappy plan, but it’s the only one I’ve got at this moment. I just hope it works.