Once we were both settled, I looked towards Shauna expectantly. I didn’t get why I was listening to someone as rude as her, but that I was. I’d like to think it was because I was being nice, but it felt more like a distraction from my own issues with Dimitri.
“Well?” I said, raising an eyebrow at her.
“I don’t know what you want to know.” She said, as more tears fell down her face. I wanted to feel no sympathy for her because she didn’t deserve it at all for how horrible she is. But I did feel sympathetic.
“Well it’d be nice to know why you’re such a bitch.” I started off, feeling bad suddenly for saying that, especially when she was crying and upset. “And maybe more on why you’re crying. And why you don’t have a home.”
“Well I do have a home, if you can count a whorehouse as one.” She spoke bitterly in anger, but not towards me. It seemed her anger was directed to something else completely. But a whorehouse? I mean, I’m not really that surprised.
“I’m assuming you really don’t like it.” I said and she looked up at me.
“Well of course I don’t! My mom was kidnapped and forced to work there. And the people there are absolutely horrible. My mom eventually got pregnant with me after getting sexually assaulted many times and then, I was born. They separated me from my mom when I was around eight years old and I hate them all so much for that. Life was horrible there. I lost my virginity when I was only 6 years old. I didn’t know what they were doing to me at the time, but I do now and it was horrible. And ever since then, all I’ve ever known is how to seduce and have sex. Why would I ever want to go back? The atmosphere is so horrible, you get picked on for every little thing you do. They pick at your imperfections, making you feel horrible about every little thing about you. I’ve been put down for every single thing I’ve done there. They call me a slut, a whore and every possible thing that comes to their mind, but they have no right to call me that when they were the ones who made me like that. And you know what Isabella, you want to know why I’m such a bitch to you and all the other girls? It’s because it feels good. It feels good not being the victim for once. But in reality, it just makes me feel worse afterwards. Because you all hate me. Everyone’s always hated me that I wish someone for once, could actually like me. But I’m stupid, and dumb. Obviously everyone would hate me for the way I treat them. And I know the way I act is not normal most of the times, especially the fact that I’m always ready to fuck anyone that wants me to fuck them and that I’m really dumb. But that’s because, I’ve never been taught anything other than having sex. It’s been drilled so deep into my mind, that I can’t change it anymore. It’ll always be there.” Shauna explained through buckets and buckets of tears.
I was shocked to say the least. Never did I ever expect this from her. I grabbed a box of tissues and handed it to her. I didn’t even know what to say. “And the reason I’m upset is because of Kenneth and you and Dimitri. I heard you two talking and how he’s planning on sending you back to Earth. And if you’re being sent down, then all of us are being sent down too. And I don’t want to go back to that horrible place Isabella! I’ll kill myself if I have to. Because now I know how it feels to not be living in a place like that, and life surprisingly isn’t that bad when you get to choose what to do. As for Kenneth...” She trailed off not continuing.
“What about Kenneth?” I asked softly.
“He used to come there, to the whorehouse every time he visited Earth. I’ve known him for a very long time now. He was the nicest person that had ever came in. The first time I met him, we talked for hours. It was the first time I had actually talked to someone instead of sleeping with them. I told him how I hated sleeping with all the people I was forced to sleep with. So he promised me, he’d make appointments with me everyday so that I’d never have to sleep with anyone I didn’t want to. And he did, which made my boss really happy since a lot of money was coming in from Kenneth. But then, I fell in love with him. And let’s just say shit went down from there. I don’t want to talk about it. And I guess you could say that Kenneth was the other reason I continued acting like a bitch to you.” She said and I was shocked once again. Kenneth and Shauna knew each other? How was this possible though? They both acted as if they didn’t know each other at all.
“But it seems like you guys met the first time here in Rovana!” I exclaimed.
“That’s because he doesn’t remember me. We were never allowed to show our faces, we wore masks and he never knew my real name either. And I’d like to keep it that way Isabella.” She stated firmly causing me to nod my head.
“What the hell!” We both heard a voice exclaim, causing us both to turn and see Kenneth standing by the door staring at Shauna in surprise and anger. Shauna froze up and stared back at him in surprise and fear.
“You’re Destiny?” He asked with a look of disbelief on his face. The disbelief soon turned to anger as he stalked up to her and roughly grabbed her by her arms pulling her up. “Of course you are, you fucking whore!” He yelled at her as more tears slid down her face.
“Kenneth stop it!” I yelled at him causing him to let go of her arm.
“Oh wow Isabella, defending this whore here I see. This bitch deserves every possible horrible thing to happen to her. She doesn’t deserve to live!” He growled out in so much anger causing me to really wonder what went down between them.
“Kenneth please, I can explain everything. Just please give me a chance to.” She begged, looking more vulnerable than I had ever seen her.
“Explain what.” He chuckled bitterly. “I went through so much shit for you. But you didn’t give two shits about me. I should have known to never trust a bitch like you. I was so stupid.”
“Kenneth, you have to listen to me. Please!” She exclaimed before I decided to step in.
“Look I don’t know anything about what happened between you two, but I really think you two need to sort things out. Kenneth, please listen to what Shauna has to say. After that, you can make your decision on whether you still despise her or not.” I said hoping he’d listen because Shauna honestly looked so desperate for Kenneth to listen. I could easily see that she was still in love with him. You could see it in the way she was looking up at him. I couldn’t believe I had never noticed before.
Kenneth simply stared back with rage in his eyes. But if you looked closely enough, you could see that he did care for her, however little it was, he still cared. “Come on Kenneth, just give her one chance.” I said, hoping he’d listen.
“Why are you helping her?” He asked turning to me. “All she’s ever been is a complete bitch to you!”
“Because she’s human. Yes she might have been horrible to me, but worse things have happened to her. She’s lived a horrible life and she’s never had anyone teach her what’s right and what’s wrong. She’s never gotten the chance to build good social skills. And she’s been brought down so many times, that it makes her feel good not feeling weak for once. If I can give her a second chance, then so can you Kenneth. It’s not that hard.” I stated sternly.
“Fine! I’ll talk things out with her.” He finally agreed, grabbing onto Shauna’s arm. “I’m only doing this because you asked me to Isabella. Not because of this whore. I don’t give two shits about her anymore.” He said before he pulled her out of the room.
“Be nice Kenneth.” I called after him as he left. He still cared for her, it was so obvious. And I honestly believed they could work things out.
“That was really nice of you.” I heard a voice speak up. It was Devon.
“No Devon, don’t give me credit for being nice. I only listened to her because I wanted to forget about the problems between Dimitri and I.” I whispered quietly.
Devon silently sat down beside me as a tear decided to slip out of my eye. Devon sighed once he noticed the tear. “Dimitri’s being really dumb, I know. But what can we do.” He said as more tears slipped down my face.
“He’s being so annoying. We can find a cure if only he’d believe we can. But he’s not even willing to try.” I whimpered out. Devon wrapped an arm around my shoulders and pulled me in for a side hug.
“We’ll figure something out. I know we will.” He said firmly.
Dimitri was ignoring me and it was making me feel worse and worse. I’d try talking to him but he’d wave me off and at times completely ignore me. I know he was trying to get me used to the idea of not being with him but I hated it. I hated it a lot.
“Sleep with him. He’ll never want to leave you after that.” Shauna suggested causing me to look up at her.
“Don’t listen to that bitch.” Pam said. “She doesn’t know what she’s talking about.”
“Isabella, did you hear that? I think the trash can is talking to us. This place is definitely haunted.” Shauna retorted causing Pam to scoff.
“That’s the dumbest thing I’ve ever heard.” Pam exclaimed causing me to yell at them both to shut up.
“Guys please! You’re not helping.” I said causing Pam to glare at Shauna.
“I don’t get how you forgave her Isabella.” Pam mumbled out causing Shauna to glare back.
“But yeah as I was saying, before I got inturrupted by Ms. I’mbetterthaneveryone. Sleep with him. Make love. Whatever you call it. And he’ll never want to leave. He’ll actually be willing to try to look for a solution then.” Shauna suggested, causing Pam to protest.
“That’s dumb! And besides he’s been ignoring Isabella, I doubt he’s going to sleep with her. So stop being a dumb little bitch, and shut the hell up.” Pam retorted back.
“Stark really needs to get his shit together and fuck you already. Maybe then you’ll loosen up a bit.” Shauna exclaimed causing Pam to go beet red.
“Guys stop! And Shauna, he doesn’t want to do anything with me. He’s trying to get me used to the idea of living without him.” I explained in annoyance.
“Okay, then seduce him. Believe me, he won’t be able to ignore you for long. And then once you have his attention, talk to him. Convince him to give you more time. Guys agree to practically anything when they’re aroused. And then to seal the deal, fuck him. It’s bound to work. You don’t have to fuck him if you don’t want to though. But it’d make him more willing to try. That’s what I think at least. Because he’ll have a taste of how it feels to be with you, someone he loves and how amazing it is. I mean sex is good by itself, but when you do it with someone you love, it’s otherworldly. It’s like nothing you’ve ever experienced before. Believe me, I know. But if you don’t want to, seducing him should be enough, I think.” Shauna explained to me.
“No, I want to.” I blurt out, surprising myself. I couldn’t believe I said that. But it was the truth. “I want to sleep with him.”
“I thought you wanted to lose your virginity after marriage.” Pam spoke up after remaining silent for quite a time.
“I originally did. But what’s the point in waiting for something that’ll never happen, considering the way Dimitri is acting. If I don’t sleep with him now, and he does end up completely giving up and dying. Then I would never get the chance to sleep with the one person I truly love. Because let’s be real, I’ll never be able love anyone else after Dimitri. No matter how hard I try. And I want to give my virginity to someone special, someone I love, someone I trust. And that person is Dimitri. I don’t want to give it to anyone else.” I said, causing Shauna to smile.
“I can give you pointers and teach you how to seduce.” Shauna said causing me to smile and nod my head at her.