Do you want me to drop you home?” Tyler asked and I nodded my head, grateful I didn’t have to stay here. Just then I noticed Dimitri and Jennifer walk out and I felt my heart clench tight at the sight of him. He looked so good and it hurt.
Just then I noticed him look at me and I instantly grabbed Tyler and pressed my lips against his. I don’t know why that was my first instinct but it was.
Tyler was shocked for a few moments but eventually he relaxed and kissed me back. He pulled me closer, wrapping his arms around me. I kissed him hard, throwing all my pain into it.
I knew I shouldn’t be doing this but I needed to show Dimitri I didn’t need him. I also needed this for myself and I know it wasn’t fair to Tyler but I was hurting too much to care.
We then pulled away and Tyler looked down at me with wide eyes. “I’m sorry.” I whispered as more tears slid down. “I’m so sorry Tyler.” But instead he pulled me closer and kissed me again.
He was nowhere as good as Dimitri but he was still good at kissing. Kissing him helped with the pain a little because I could pretend everything was fine with Dimitri and that it was actually Dimitri kissing me.
But when we pulled away it hurt even more being thrown back into reality again.
Tyler picked me up into his arms and carried me to his car, setting me down inside. I then looked out to find Dimitri talking to Jennifer and he was smiling and laughing with her. I clenched my eyes shut tight against the pain.
Soon Nina got into the back and Tyler started driving away. The entire ride home I kept wondering what I did wrong. What did I do to make Dimitri want to cheat on me? But then I remembered that he probably just wanted to use me to save himself.
I should have known. How could someone like him ever like me? He was everything while I was nothing. I knew I wasn’t good enough. But God all the sweet things he said to me, he was so good with words, he fooled me hard.
I started crying again and I felt Tyler look at me with a frown. “Isabella, he doesn’t deserve being cried over. You deserve so much better than him!” Tyler said as I wiped my tears, but more kept falling.
“Tyler’s right Isa, you are so much better than Dimitri. He never deserved you! And he’s going to pay for hurting you, trust me on that. Life works like that, it’ll get back at him for hurting you.” Nina said as she reached forward and grabbed my hand. I gave it a squeeze back, grateful I had my best friend with me.
A few days had gone by and my heartbreak was just as strong. In fact, it was even worse now as everything settled in. Everything really truly hit me and I just couldn’t believe it.
I thought back to everything. The way he used to show up in my dreams, and then when I met him and he tried killing me but then he didn’t. Then all the back and forth banter we had until somehow, someway we fell in love. Or, I should say, I fell in love.
All our sweet kisses, our passionate kisses, our happy kisses, sad kisses, scandalous kisses, everything.
I gave myself to him. I wanted to save myself for after marriage but I thought my love with Dimitri was so true that I wanted to give my virginity to him. And I did.
I reached up and felt the necklace around my neck. Was the story he told me fake? Was this even a real gemstone? I ripped the necklace off and threw it across my room at the wall, in anger.
I then started crying as I wrapped the blanket tight around myself. My mom soon came in and she frowned as she saw my tears.
My parents had come home and I told them everything. I expected my Dad to say I told you so, but he didn’t. He just gave me the biggest hug ever.
“Mom.” I said as I started sobbing. She pulled me into a hug as she sat beside me.
“Isa sweetie, please don’t cry. I know it hurts a lot right now, but I promise, it’ll get better with time. You can heal from a heartbreak, no matter how long it takes. Give yourself some time and watch you won’t even care about Dimitri anymore. He won’t ever matter to you anymore, especially when you meet someone so much better. And you will Isa. You’ll meet someone who’s going to make you forget about all the heartache you’ve ever felt.” My mom said and I really hoped she was right. I just wanted this pain to go away, because it hurt more than anything.
“Why does it hurt so much?” I asked my Mom, wanting an answer.
“It hurts because you loved him too much. It’s not something we can control Isa. I wish I could take your pain away, but I can’t.” She said as she hugged me tight. “But I promise it’ll get better.”
~ One year later~ (Isabella’s 19 years old)
“Shut up Tyler!” I exclaimed laughing as he grinned back at me.
“But we both know it’s true. I am pretty attractive, the most attractive person here.” Tyler said and I shook my head at him, pretending to look around at other guys.
“I think he’s pretty attractive, don’t you think? More attractive than you?” I asked pointing at some random guy causing Tyler to pout. I laughed as I leaned in and kissed his pout.
“I’m just kidding Ty.” I said as I grinned. “You’re so much better!”
Tyler and I were together, he had asked me out about ten months after the Dimitri situation. I still hadn’t gotten over Dimitri, I was still very much in love with him and there were times where I’d break down crying thinking about him.
But I also really liked Tyler and I was hoping he’d be able to make me forget Dimitri forever. He knew I wasn’t over Dimitri yet but he was willing to let that go and be with me, hoping I’d be completely over him soon.
Tyler was really kind and sweet, and he was attractive too so I knew eventually I could fall for him. But a part of me knew, I’d never actually get over Dimitri. I might start feeling less pain over time, but I’d never fully get over him. What we had together was so strong, you couldn’t just get over that.
“Good, or else we’d have some problems.” He said as he wrapped his arm around me before kissing my cheek.
We were at a party and soon they started playing slow songs. “Let’s go dance!” I exclaimed tugging at Tyler’s hand and he smiled up at me. He then got up and I took him to the dance floor. Tyler then pulled me close and I wrapped my arms around his neck, smiling up at him.
It had been so long since I felt truly happy but today I really did feel it. Maybe my Mom was right, one day I wouldn’t care about Dimitri at all because I’d be with someone else I’ll love even more.
I didn’t love Tyler but I could get there eventually.
“I’m kind of getting jealous Isabella. So many guys are staring at you.” Tyler whispered in my ear and I really loved how he told me everything. He was so different than Dimitri. If Dimitri was jealous he’d keep it in and it would build up over time and then he’d be so angry, letting it out all at once.
“I’m with you aren’t I?” I asked and Tyler nodded his head. “So does it matter?” He shook his head as he leaned down and kissed me. Our kisses were soft and sweet, not like the hard, passionate kisses Dimitri and I shared. The kisses I shared with Dimitri ignited so much fire inside me while the ones with Tyler made me feel calm and content.
I shook the thought of Dimitri out of my mind. Every time I was with Tyler I couldn’t help but compare him to Dimitri. There were times I really loved Tyler’s calm nature but I greatly missed Dimitri’s fire and passion.
“Isabella, I love you.” Tyler suddenly spoke as he pressed his forehead against mine. I was so surprised not expecting that and I think Tyler noticed the look of panic on my face. “It’s okay, you don’t have to say it back. I just wanted to tell you how I felt. I really do love you though. I can see why so many people want you and I feel pretty lucky that I’m the one who got to have you.”
“I’m lucky too Tyler to have you. You’ve helped me so much the past year. I never would have survived without you. You took my pain and you helped me deal with it. You tried healing me as best as you could and I’m grateful, very grateful. Thank you, for being so patient with me.” I said as I hugged him tight.
He leaned in and kissed my cheek, down my jaw and to my neck, leaving small sweet kisses everywhere. “I’m sorry that you had to feel so much pain, but I promise I won’t let anyone or anything hurt you anymore. I promise to take good care of you.”
There were many news and magazine articles that I was sorting through and they were all about Dimitri. I knew I shouldn’t be going through these but I needed to know how he was doing.
I looked at his pictures and he looked so good it hurt again. It really hurt but I kept going through them. Many of the articles stated him as arrogant, cocky and ruthless. The articles were talking about how he changed a lot over the past year and is slowly going back to the ruthless King he used to be, minus all the killings.
There was this one picture of him and he looked powerful, tough and so devilishly handsome my heart clenched. I felt anger too because I had loved him so much but he had just used my love. All I felt for him now was hate, at least that’s what I liked to believe.
The articles mentioned me from time to time, wondering what happened to us. I’ve had so many reporters show up at my house the past year, but my Dad got rid of them all. They still wondered what happened between us. The articles think I hurt him which is why Dimitri’s gone back to his heartless self. But little do they know, he was always heartless, just really good at fooling everyone and that he was using me all this time for his own benefits.
The amount of dirty looks I’ve gotten is ridiculous and endless. Of course it’s always the girl that gets attacked. Poor Dimitri, I hurt him so much, didn’t I? Note the sarcasm.
“Hey baby! I brought us ice cream and then we can watch a movie!” I heard Tyler say as he entered my house. I had given him a copy of our house key so he could come and go as he pleased.
“Ice cream!” I exclaimed as I shoved all the articles underneath the sofa and got up to find him. Tyler was holding out four different boxes of ice cream. “I want cookie dough!” I exclaimed as Tyler wrinkled his nose.
“You can have the whole box. I hate cookie dough. I got it for you cause I know you like it a lot.” He said as I stared at him in shock.
“You are crazy if you hate cookie dough! Cookie dough is love! Cookie dough is life!” I exclaimed as I opened the box and scooped some out. Tyler was going for the plain vanilla ice cream and I shook my head at him. “You boring plain Jane!” I teased and he just chuckled.
“I like my ice cream simple and plain. No cookie dough or chocolate.” He said and I rolled my eyes.
“You’re missing out.” I said as I sat down on the couch, throwing netflix on. I thought back to Dimitri and I and how we both were crazy over cookie dough and chocolate and all the good kinds of ice cream.
I quickly shook him out of my mind and focused on my ice cream. There was more ice cream for me since Tyler didn’t like cookie dough.
After our ice cream and Netflix session, we had made it to my bedroom, almost fully naked. I had never had sex with Tyler and I wasn’t sure if I wanted it.
Tyler was kissing down my chest to my stomach as I ran my fingers through his hair. He just didn’t get me going the way Dimitri did and I really didn’t know if I wanted to give this part of myself to him yet.
He was perfect but it sometimes felt like we had no chemistry and that we just didn’t click. I felt like I was keeping him from someone else who he’d be so much better with, but I was selfish and kept him with me because he temporarily helped me forget Dimitri.
Tyler was sucking my neck before he reached down and unclasped my bra and removed my underwear. He then pulled away and looked down at my completely naked body before looking up to meet my eyes. “You are so beautiful and sexy.” He said with a grin as he leaned down and kissed me. We made out for a while longer before I pulled away, knowing I really couldn’t do this.
“What’s wrong?” Tyler asked and I shook my head.
“I can’t do this right now Tyler. I don’t think I’m ready to give someone else so much of myself to.” I spoke quietly, hoping he’d understand. He sighed and simply nodded his head. “I’m sorry.” I whispered.
“No, don’t be!” Tyler said as he looked down at me. “If you’re not ready then I can wait. I’ll wait as long as I have to.” He said and I smiled up at him before reaching up to kiss him.