Death wish

The sun rays seeped into the room kissing me on the lips , filling me with vitamin d .Mom says I should get a tan for my pale skin , urg.. but I hate exposures , okay not really ... I'm just lazy .

This morning would have been perfect if we weren't going to the states permanently.
Today is Dad's anniversary and i'm most definitely trying not to be sad. I glanced at the picture frame on the bedpost , I miss him so much .

Sadly I have to hurry or else mom's gonna freak out if she finds out i'm not getting ready. I waddled into my spacious bathroom and stood in front of the mirror . I always wondered how I had my very , and when I mean very , my very feminine face and body despite mom being a model and all it always didn't suit right since I was a guy .


" Micah , you coming" ... and that's my cue .
"mom in a giffy " I replied to mom.
" You better hurry honey the fact that our flight is private doesn't mean you can laze your ass off " she grumbled , okay now she's in my room .

" Yes ma'am " I shot back.

" Princess you know I hate it when you call me ma'am " of course I knew , giving the number of lectures she gave us when a guy called her that at the annual festival at Madrid. O man she really gave it to him...it was so funny what that guy had to endure with my mom's rant ...but I guess that didn't deter him cos he tried to hit on her after and that resulted to a burst lip from Liam...that was so funny , ugh at least I think so ...

I hurried and brushed my sensitive teeth , maybe I'll use the floss later ...or maybe not . I entered the shower and sprayed my body with the cold water , I always had an affinity with the cold water , never got why cos everyone loves the hot water . As the water snaked across my skin I traced my markings across my neck to my belly .

When they started to appear I freaked out , it was a couple of weeks after dad's death , they started from my right shoulder blade to my side spreading across my lower stomach. The first marking hurt like a bitch , but the funny part was it made me moan from the orgasmic pleasure when I traced my fingers on them after they were made.

I didn't loath them actually , I strangely liked them , they were like thorns wrapped around me ... beautiful .

Okay if I don't stop this poetic bullshit mom's going be pissed .

I wrapped the towel around my chest and stepped into my room . " Micah you know you're a guy right " Kris , my younger brother said laying on my bed reading the latest Vogue magazine ."

Fuck off Kris , who said only girls could wrap towels around their bre.. well chest .I always feel half naked whenever I wrap my towel around my waist leaving my chest engraved with my markings exposed.
I took a seat in front of my vanity and started to get ready .

" Kris I hope you've heard of privacy" I asked applying the lotion to my legs .

" Nope , princess " he rolled his eyes , getting up .

" Well you better search for it and leave me to dress " I shot back .I got a smirk and that evoked a smile out of me . I love my brother a lot even though he acts all grown up on me . I guess he was taller than me at 5'8 whilst am 5'7 , yeah just an inch difference which he makes sure to remind me of every now and then.
I got myself black jeans with a blue turtle neck and vans. I brushed through my shoulder length platinum blonde hair and applied some mascara . I moistened my lips and stood up . I looked at my room for one last time , fuck I'll miss this place a lot .

I have tons of memories here , sleepovers with Candace, Cameron and Lauren, a lot of hugs and other emotional rides , right here .

I'll miss my purple vanity the most and my spacious bathroom , hell it's so spacious . But I guess Thomas our butler can manage till we come for vacations here and other holidays.

" I can't wait to see Liam " I muttered to my self ,smiling as I descended the stairs to the lounge . Mom was on a call and Kris was nowhere to be found .....okayyy .

" Princess , finally !" Mom exclaimed coming over to place a kiss on my forehead . Why do I always have to be the shortest in this family , even mom was quite tall for a woman at 5'9.And Kris is not done growing .

" Madam please we're all set " Thomas announced his presence .I reached over and hugged the life out of him , he's been a father , grandfather and brother figure in our lives.

" Thomas i'm going to miss you so much " I croaked out , my eyes shut to prevent the tears from flowing .

" Aye lad i'm just right here whenever you come to England" he smiled at me and I returned it despite the sea of emotions flowing through me . I nodded and detached myself from him . When I turned to mom Kris had returned . We headed outside and got into the car our chauffeur already in position .

Well I guess this is goodbye I thought looking at my home for like ... all my life . We had other houses in the States , Madrid and Milan...but this was home it always has been .



Q : So what's your zodiac , mine is Sagittarius.