"Don't break my heart, I won't be able to handle it, Wolf. I am seriously not strong enough to handle a heartbreak." I told him, pleading. I don't know where did I get the fate that if you confess to a person who says they love you that this would destroy you, you can take their word for it that they won't.
"I would never do this to you. Do you really think I am this type of guy who would do such a thing to you?" He asked me offended.
"No, of course not. It's just... people always let me down and I am really weak, Wolf. I just can't. If you left me, I won't be able to handle it. I know for a fact that if something happen that brought us apart, I will try to kill myself again and I will go down that spiral road again, just promise me that you won't make me fall and then break on the ground, promise that you will always be there to catch me." I said insisting that he gives me his word.
"What if I died?" He asked me.
"Then I will die with you." I shrugged because it is the obvious.
"No, Kitten, you can't do that. You have to promise me that if I died then you will keep living." He said getting upset with me.
"I don't want to live if I don't have you with me." I stated to him. "And stop talking about death, I don't like this."
"No, I don't accept that. Promise me now that you won't try to kill yourself if I died first!" He insisted and I sighed knowing I don't want to upset him. If I died from grief, it would be the same anyway so I guess I will take my chances.
"Fine, I promise if God forbids you die, I won't try to kill myself." I said sighing. "Now promise me that you will never break me or leave me." I said.
"I promise you that I will never ever break or leave you. I told you before, the only way I would leave is if you gave up on our love." He promised me and I rolled my eyes.
"Dude, I will never stop loving you... ever. You don't have to worry about that." I assured him. "I know we met for icecream and all, but I am getting greedy. I want to see you again." I told him shyly.
"I want to see you as well, but I don't want your dad to get upset with us for breaking the rules we had set too much." He reminded me.
"But imagine, if we go to the theme park together? This would be absolutely awesome. Riding those awesome rollercoasters together. I would really love that.'' I told him excitedly thinking about it.
"I don't know, Kitten. Would your dad be okay with it?" He asked me worried.
"Okay, here is the plan. My younger sister wanted to go to the theme park and she had been begging and complaining for a while, so maybe we can claim that we want to take her and you can bring your sister as well so it wouldn't make it seem as if we are alone and messing around." I told him setting up the plan.
"I don't know, I don't think they would agree." He said being his usual pessimistic self.
"If I am getting the chance to meet you then I will take it. Imagine if this can happen, it is going to be so awesome." I said dreaming of what is going to happen. I wanted to take Wolf to every single place possible so I would share it with him. I wanted him to be part of every single detail in my life and anywhere I would ever go.
"You can try, but I don't think it would work." He told me still not thinking it would happen.
I walked to my sister's room first to discuss the plan with her so she would back me up. Of course knowing we will go to the theme park she always wanted to go to, she didn't mind at all talking to dad with me.
"Hey dad!" I said and sat down with him on the bed where mum was there as well. He glanced at me before looking back at the T.V. "So you know how she always wanted to go to the theme park?" I said and he glanced at my baby sister and sighed.
"Kitten, you know I am extremely busy with work and I don't have time to take you. If you want to go, you can go together and I will give you the money for it.'' He told us and I gave her a look before I turned back to him.
"But here is the thing, Wolf can take us!" I said excitedly and he raised his brow.
"Hell no, you had been pushing it too much lately with your little meetings. What happened to the whole only one meeting till he settles everything down? I knew you would do that." He told me.
"But dad, please, you met him and you saw how he is a really good guy. We are only two girls and we can't just go on our own." I stated. Total lie, I totally can go on my own, but I would play damsel in distress to meet Wolf.
"You can't do that until it is official between you two, but the whole messing around that you are doing, I don't like it." He told me shaking his head. "What do you think of that?" He asked my sister.
"I don't mind going with our brother." She said and I snapped towards her. That bitch abandoned the ship too fast.
"But I would be too embarrassed to ask our brother. He has his own life and wife, I don't want to have to ask him." I claimed and crossed my arms. "Please dad, I swear this would be the last time. I am begging you!" I almost cried.
"You never asked for anything in your life and now you are begging for this guy?" He asked me raising his brow. "It had been a long day at work and I have an awful headache. Fine, you can go, but only if both of your sisters come along." My dad said shaking his head and I was over the moon.
I ran out of the room and grabbed the phone to call Wolf. "He said yes, he fucking said yes. I had to corner him so he wouldn't have time to think, but what matters is that he said yes." I said as I was dancing around.
"Wow, he did?" He asked me surprised.
"Yes, I am pretty convincing." I nodded, or just good at begging. "He said you can only go if your sisters can come along so I was like absolutely because we are not messing around." I told him still dancing around the room.
"Oh... then this can't happen." He said and I stopped.
"Why?" I asked him confused.
"My sister went to sleep already, I can't wake her and ask her to come with us. I am sorry.." He said sadly and I felt like my heart fell.
"Dude, we seriously got the permission to do this and you are telling me we can't?" I asked him surprised. "Why did you let me go ask him then and go through all that?" I asked getting really upset. Now I have to go back to dad and tell him that Wolf said no? Is he aware how embarrassing this is?!
"We can do it another time where we would plan it beforehand and not out of sudden like that." He told me and I wanted to scream.
"No, you don't get it. I can't go and tell him you said no and he didn't just agree on the concept, he agreed this one time because I cornered him, but now that the idea is out there and I give him time, he won't agree." I pointed out to him and felt tears coming to my eyes.
"I don't know what do you want me to do, Kitten. My sister went to sleep already and I don't know why do you always put impulsive plans. You just come up with the idea and decide to do it. I like planning." He said and by now tears were falling once again.
"Why didn't you tell me that there would be a possibility that you can't go? Your main issue was dad saying no, not you saying no. This is why I asked him and tried to convince him. If you wanted to make sure it is working for you then you could have told me and I would have waited." I pointed out to him.
"It's too late, I didn't know you would want to set up an outing now." He told me and I just felt extremely upset. I always have to beg and plan to meet him, and he doesn't even know how difficult it is. It wasn't easy to do this. It's like, he wasn't even trying.... I am the one always going out of my way to meet him.
"Alright... forget about the theme park then. We cannot go another time." I told him disappointed before we ended the call.
"Won't you prepare your outfit for tomorrow?" My mother asked. "I honestly still don't know how did you manage to convince your dad." She shook her head in disbelief.
"I am not going."