1 week later
It was 8: 27 pm when I walked into the house from the diner
In the dark kitchen , my mama sat in the chair with her hand on the phone .
She looked at me like she was waiting for me
Mama - your here she said in a low hoarse voice
Me - wassup mama ? I asked as I took of my apron and walked into the kitchen .
I heated up the soup I made for her earlier and handed her a bowl that she denied
Me - mama you gotta eat if you wanna get better I stressed
Mama - I needa talk to you she said
Me - yes ma’am ? I asked
Mama - take a seat
I sat down in from of her and she grabbed my hands
Mama - Aaliyah baby … She trailed off
Me - yes ? I asked as my heart rate sped up to her tone .
It scared me
Mama - I’m not sick with the flu like I told you
Me - then what’s wrong ? I asked as I scratched my eyebrows .
Mama - …. I have cancer she said
Tears ran down my face
I forgot all about that letter I had opened almost 2 months ago
Me - Whatchu mean ?
Mama - I’m dying baby when she said that the whole kitchen fell into silence
Mama - I have only a month to live
Me - mama don’t say that I said crying as my throat burned
Me - treatment-
Mama - treatments won’t help . It’s too bad , I been going for treatment and in and out of the hospital for years .
Me - mama everything’s gonna be fine , your not gonna die
Mama - stop crying she said wiping my tears I’m here now .
Me - but what’s gonna happen to me and Layla ?
Mama - everything’s gonna be fine baby she said and leaned over her chair , her weak body pulling me into a hug .
Mama - I need you to be a big girl for mama , can you do that ? I nodded and rested my head on her shoulder
After a while I pulled away from her embrace
Me - come on , let’s get you in bed I said clearing my voice
She nodded and I helped her up and to her room .
I helped her take off her clothes and in bed besides Layla .
When I went to walk off she grabbed my hand
Mama - sleep with me , I wanna hold you Aaliyah
I nodded and climbed in bed in front of her .
She wrapped her arms around me and pulled my body to hers tightly
Mama - I love you she told me before we both fell asleep
I opened my eyes about 20 minutes later , I couldn’t sleep . My head was gone .
I just stayed up all night as her words replayed in my head
I already knew she had cancer but I didn’t want to believe it .
I thought the letter wasn’t real even tho all the signs were clear .
I guess hearing it out her mouth let me know it was real .
I couldn’t even cry anymore
What’s crying gonna do ?
Nothing but make my mama feel bad and wake up .