After being stuck up in that hospital for almost two weeks finally, we were discharged. My forearm is fully healed but I still have some raw scratches and cuts all over my body and Angela’s stitches were gotten rid off and her leg seems much better now but she is still asked not to give pressure on that leg.
We are now at the airport waiting for our flight to go back home. The last two weeks were worst. That hospital food makes me want to puke to death. I wanted to go back home and ask Lucy to prepare me a nice supper. From last few months, her cooking skills have increased and she is making delicious food which I want to eat the most.
We paid a visit to Valerie to find that she was doing great. She was healing up and Angela was more tham excited to hear about it from the doctors. I made sure to hire the best doctors for her treatment and paid up her bills and even decided to transfer her to her home town hospital so that she could be with her family. Everything was finally getting in place.
His family was torn when they received the news. Both Dad and I had great difficulties to console his family and finally dad decided that he would compensate a great amount of money and even offered to look after Vitaly’s younger sister until she gets married. It was a small piece of offering from our side compensating their loss but we knew it was nothing to what they had actually lost.
It was the truth. Vitaly wasn’t ever coming back.
Life is going on, and from all those days I have come to know and witness many things and emotions.
But something more has happened within these two weeks.
I have come to know some things about her. That is she’s strong, she’s beautiful, she talks less, she’s kind and she feels other people’s pain. Still, I don’t get the answer for her to marry me.
When our flight was announced we made our way to our destination.
It’s been two hours since we are on the plane. Angela has taken the window seat whereas I’m sitting beside reading a business magazine. I kept stealing glances at her sometimes.
The plane began to shake a little but I didn’t bother because I knew it was the usual turbulence but when I looked at Angela I found her gripping the armrest tightly with her hands and eyes were closed in fear.
The sight before me clenched my heart. She was scared but still, she didn’t ask for help.
She was yet to feel warm around me.
I hesitantly placed my palms over her hands and murmured “Relax it’s just the turbulence”
I was afraid that she might not like me touching her that again the unexpected happened.
She gripped my hands with both her hands and didn’t leave me till the turbulence was gone.
I liked it, though.
When we reach home we were attacked by Lucy hugging us and screaming and sobbing. I could see that she has grown fond of Angela more than me. She hugged her and kissed her.
It was obvious that everyone in the world knew about our dreadful crash and Lucy wasn’t oblivious to it. I made my way towards the house and I knew Angela and Lucy were following me.
Lucy kept her asking her about her condition and I just rolled my eyes annoyed that Lucy wasn’t leaving me and Angela alone.
I stood in the living room while I saw Lucy ranting with Angela. I was waiting for her to leave. But when Lucy stopped her babbling and went towards the other room I thought I got my chance but my chance was thrown out of the window when Angela went past me towards her room leaving me there cold and alone.
I too went to my room and took a long warming shower relaxing. I laid on my bed and stared blankly at the ceiling.
I never said, “Thank you” to Angela for saving my life.
I grinned and got up the bed thinking that I found a topic to talk to her. I got out of my room and made my way towards her room and took deep breaths before knocking only to find no one answering. I abruptly opened her room to see no one in the room.
“Where did she go?,” I thought to myself.
I heard someone laughing and talking and I followed the sounds to our Living only to find a male sitting really close to Angela much to my dislike and holding her hands.
I felt a bit of jealousy washing over me at the sight but I shrugged it off and made my face stoic and went towards them.
“Why the hell am I feeling jealous?,” I thought to myself.
I cleared my throat making that stupid male to take his dirty paws away from Angela’s hand and they both stood up seeing me.
“What’s going on?,” I asked casually raising an eyebrow.
“Mr. Knights meet Dustin Sterlings my best friend and Dustin he is Mr. Knights” Angela introduced us both smiling at that Dusty boy.
“What the hell? She can call him using his name but not to me? Mr. Knights...Mr. Knights,” I mocked to myself.
That Dusty boy smiled at Angela and forwarded his hand to me for a shake.
“Hey! I’m Dustin Sterlings and I came here to check on you two because I heard about that crash and I was worried,” he said the last part looking at Angela to which she just smiled.
Nevertheless, I took his hand for a shake and said “Hello Dusty” and squeezed his hand pressuring it too much.
He took his hand out of my grip and scowled looking at his now sore hands and said “it’s Dustin not Dusty”
′Ha! take that, he is no match for me’ I smirked at him evilly and replied: “yeah it’s same Dusty Dustin whatever. ”
I knew I was being rude but I wanted to show him his place. Angela looked at us with bewilderment but said nothing as usual.
That Dusty boy huffed and said “Bye Angela I will meet you later, I think your husband is not in the mood to talk”
Later? what does he mean by later? Will they meet again? Oh, he’ll no!
He has the audacity to hug my wife right before my eyes letting me grit my teeth in annoyance. I was sure that I would’ve powdered my teeth if he would have hugged her for more seconds and even whispered something in her ears making her giggle.
“What the fucking hell?”
He left her and looked at me “Goodbye Mr. Knights”
“Bye!,” I hissed out irritated.
When he was gone I saw Angela walking towards her room. I was very angry and I wanted her to confront her but I was stopped by a loud screeching pitch.
Angela stopped walking and looked behind me. I followed her to see Priscilla or was it Claudia whatever her name was running towards me pushing a horrified Lucy out of her way making her spin around and she held her head saying “Oh, dear”
Priscilla came running towards me with her arms wide open having the intention to hug me “Baby are you alright? Are you alive? Did you survive that crash?”
Of course stupid woman I’m alive. Can’t she see I’m alive and standing right before her eyes?
I looked at Angela to see her shaking her heads and she turned to leave for her room.
“What the fucking freaking hell? No reaction?”
This led my annoYeahnce to anger and I knew who was the person on whom I could get my anger on.
“Stop right there” my voice boomed with anger making Angela stop and look towards us with wide eyes.
“Get the fuck out of my house Priscilla and never come the fuck back get out! Get out!”
Her eyes teared up and she said: “Wh-What did I do?”
“Get out!,” I shouted making her flinch at my tone and run away again spinning Lucy who just recovered her state making her say “Oh, dear not again. ”
I looked at Angela to see her giving me a fearful look.
Is she afraid of me??
Before I could say anything to her she dashed up to the stairs and towards her room.
I sighed in annoyance and facepalmed myself.
Great.Just fucking great.
It’s been two days since that stupid incident which took place in my house. Angela didn’t come out her room since two days. She even asked Lucy to bring her food to her room.
I so desperately want to see her face.
Since Last two days my anger level has increased making me to scare every single living being around me and it was why, my employees in my office tried their best to avoid me.
I’m frustrated because I can’t comprehend my feelings.
I hate her because she married me but at same time I hate myself for hating her because it is cleared that I’m attracted to her.
No. I have to keep my feelings in bay. Feelings will definitely ruin me. I looked out of my office window to see a busy street.
“Is it because I’m sexually frustrated?” I asked to myself forming an excuse for feeling such way.
“Of course!” my face lit up as I spoke to myself “I’m just sexually frustrated. When was the last time I had sex with someone? Probably since the time we went to Paris. Yes! That’s it. It is the only reas- Oh what the fuck am I even saying?” I huffed at the lame excuse and leaned against the desk. From then only I knew that I was totally screwed. I could never have sex with any other female for my rest of my life as I realized the problem.
But first I need to find out the answer to the question to why Angela married me and I knew who can give me the answer.
I went to his house which was at the other side of the city and it took me to drive four hours nonstop. I reached his house and went in.
I always had the keys of his house.
As soon as I got in I began to shout “Dad, Dad!”
“Old man! Hey Old man!”
“What got up to your ass and what did I do to get such a lovely visit from my one and only son?” Dad asked sarcastically coming down from the staircase.
I huffed and crossed my arms around my chest.
“I’m here to get my answers Dad,” I said sounding serious.
He raised an eyebrow and went to the bar and poured himself some wine.
“What answers?” Dad asked innocently.
“Don’t try to act smart Dad, you are not,” I said making him choke on his drink.
“I guess you are right Son because I wasn’t smart enough when I had you as my son,” he smirked making me to roll my eyes.
“Dad why did Angela marry me?,” I asked being serious.
His expression changed to a serious one and he kept his glass down on the table “What do you mean by why she married you? Off course she married you because I searched her for you” he averted his gaze away from me.
“That’s the half part of your story and I know you are hiding something so just spill it out,” I scoffed.
“Fine I kinda forced her to marry you” Dad replied in one breath.
“What! Forced her how?,” I asked being stunned.
He rubbed his neck nervously and sighed “You see her family was going through a financial problem with her father being a heart patient and that time it was really urgent for her to arrange money for her father’s heart transplant so, I kinda kept a deal for her that if she would marry you I would help her with money” he shrugged his shoulders like it was not a big deal.
“Dad you are unbelievable,” I shouted making him to cringe his face.
“How can you force someone to marry a stranger?,” I couldn’t believe this.
“Damn,” I cursed and ran my hands on my hair and ran out of his house.
I drove off from his house back to my house.On the way I stopped my car and banged my hand on the steering wheel in frustration.
“Damn DamnDamn,” I wanted to scream.
Shit! I cursed myself for treating Angela so badly.Damn I should have known.
It’s my entire fault.I even chose to hurt her not only mentally but even physically when she was innocent.I wanted to scream.I shouldn’t have assumed things.I thought I was the victim in this marriage when in reality she is the one who went through so much.
I’m not a human.How can I hurt someone so innocent?
My heart hurts recalling what I did to her.That day in that restaurant when Kim and Stephanie were humiliating her I knew it was too much but still I didn’t stop them and when she stood up for herself and left not even glancing my way somehow I felt proud of her.I was the one who sent that driver to get her.He even informed me that he found her sitting alone in the rain.
I wanted to say sorry to her but I couldn’t because I felt she deserved it.
No one deserves such treatment.
I am feeling more hurt because though I insulted, humiliated, tortured her she never confronted me.
She never would reply me back or never would fight with me for torturing her.
“Shit! Shit! Shit” no wonder she isn’t comfortable around me.
I have to sort this out.I have to ask for forgiveness.I have to solve this matter.
I ignited the engine and drove off back to my house.When I reached home I was welcomed with the aroma of delicious food.
May be Lucy is preparing Dinner.
I went towards the kitchen and instead of Lucy I found Angela cooking and humming a song.
The sight before me was heavenly.So calming and homier.She cooked skillfully and hummed a song while I saw Lucy smiling at her and cleaning the kitchen.
I felt so terrible.
I’m sick of myself.
Angela stopped her humming and looked at me with her wide eyes.She got nervous and kept the utensil in which she was cooking aside and began to walk towards her room.But I ran towards her and stopped her by holding her hand.
She gasped and looked at me fearfully.
I moved my hands to her face to push away a strand of hair which was falling on her face but as if she thought I was going to hit her or something she flinched away when she saw my hand.
My heart ached at the thought that she was scared of me.
I would never hit her not intentionally though.
I looked at her feeling really sad and maybe as if she saw my pain in my eyes she did something which was really unexpected.
She took hold of both my hands and looked at me with her warm and beautiful blue orbs and said “Mr.Knights are you alright?”
Am I alright?
She is still thinking about me? What about her pain? Mine is nothing before her pain.
“No,” I replied.
I wanted to end this one and for all.
She just looked at me and her eyes seemed to be trying to look through my soul to know what was going on with me.
I took hold of her hand and pulled her with me towards the front door.
“Mr.Knights where are we going?,” she askedme.
“Outside.I want to talk about something with you,” I whispered not able to trust my voice.
I wanted to cry but that was against my man ego.
I took her towards the lawn and made her stand in the middle.
She looked at me with a confused look.I wanted to say so much to her but my lips were like sealed.
No words formed in my mouth and I began to take deep intakes.
“Mr.Knight?,” she spoke to me in a soft tone.
“Ange-Angela I wa-wanted t-to a um uh,” I stammered not knowing where to start from.
She encouraged me with her eyes to continue.
“I’m Sorry,” I blurted out finally.
She bit down on her lips not understanding anything.
“Angela I’m sorry I truly am.I am sorry because of the terrible things I did with you.I assumed that you married me because of my wealth so I only found the way to let out my anger by torturing you.I thought that I was the victim in this marriage but never knew that you were the one who was the real victim.Angela I am really sorry I am not a human.”By the end I knew that my eyes were glassy so I looked away not wanting to let her see me.
“I wasn’t aware of your family condition and about your father’s health I just knew today from dad and I am feeling really terrible for the things I did with you.I am ashamed of myself.So I guess forgiving me is out of the line.”
“I know you were doing this for your father but you don’t need to do all this,” I said truthfully and looked into her eyes “If you want we,” I stopped to take a deep breathe.I didn’t want to say that.Those words were hurting my lips.I never wanted to say that to her.But maybe hearing it coming out of my mouth would make her free.Maybe she would get her freedom that she deserved.And even Freedom from me.
“We could file a divorce and you know You will get your freedom,” It was somehow killing me inside to speak out those words to her.I was hundred percent sure that she was going to agree on this and would go away from my life like nothing ever happened, forgetting everything.But still a part of me wanted to let her disagree on this.I didn’t want to loose her.And the feeling that I would no longer be a part of her life, her name was killing me inside.
For five minutes she just kept on looking at me as though trying to process everything in her mind and when she recovered she pursed her lips and looked elsewhere hiding her face from my sight.
“Is that what you want?,” she askedin a low voice.
Her voice told me that she didn’t like the idea of getting a divorce and somehow I began to feel a positive feeling build up inside me.
“I was talking about your feelings.What do you want to do? I am going to agree on whatever your decision will be,” I told her but my traitor heart prayed the lords to make her to stay with me.
For minutes she stood there silently and I could feel anxiety filling up inside me because of her silence.
I chose to break the silence.
“I am not good at saying sorry Angela,” I sighed and she looked towards me with questioning eyes.
“I am saying all this because I want you to forgive me even if it costs a divorce I will be more than happy to give you what you want.If this doesn’t satisfy you then maybe…,” I tried to think of something.“Maybe you could hit me or slap to feel better.I always do this.I always tend to hurt someone when I am really angry.I do feel relaxed after that but I do feel bad for the person who suffered my wrath,” I told her philosophy and the look that she gave me made me nervous as if I got a ‘F’ in my examination report card.
“Mr.Knights hurting someone in exchange of getting relief isn’t right and it isn’t fair.It will only lead to more pain and shallowness,” she said and smiled.A genuine smile.It was the first time I saw her smiling at me and it was also the first time that I was able to notice her dimples which formed when she smiled.So cute!
I searched for any falseness or anger in her eyes but found none.She was pure and kind.
“If my words are going to sooth your pain and your feelings then I will say it, Mr.Knights I forgive you,” she said and smiled even more her eyes twinkling.
“I forgive you for everything you did to me,” she said and somehow I felt as though a huge weight was off my shoulders.I closed my eyes and tried to register every word of her which was now healing my pain.
“Why?,” I asked still not opening my eyes.
“Because you realize your mistake and you are here, aren’t you Mr.Knights?,” she asked .
I nodded and she continued “Realizing and apologizing for your mistake is the biggest step to expiation and after knowing about your Remorse if I don’t forgive you then I will be the biggest fool in this century,” she said and giggled.
I opened my eyes and watched her smiling at me.No falseness or regret in her eyes.Finally I smiled back at her and as in instinct I pulled her to my chest to hug her.
She was stiff for some minutes but finally warmed up to me.I smiled because her being in my arms felt so right.I inhaled deeply and felt like it was a dream which I was experiencing right now and I never want this dream to over.
“Thank you,” I whispered to which she just hummed.
After some minutes she began to push away from me and I reluctantly let her go.She pushed her golden locks behind her ears and bite her lip.
A habit of her when she was filled with anxiety or was nervous.
“So, can we start everything from the beginning?,” I asked hoping that she would say yes.
She looked at me nodded her head.
Relief washed over me and I said “So, how about if we start from friendship?”
I held my hands out for her to shake and said “Hi I’m Xavier Knights and um aa uh I am your husband.”
Her eyes widened and she laughed loud holding her stomach.Her laughter filled my ears and I smiled seeing her laugh.
I wanted to be the reason of her every smile and laugh and I vowed to myself that I will do and go to any extent to just see a smile on her beautiful face.
“Hey! What? I am not good at greetings,” I said and she stopped her laughing and looked at me with amusement.
“That I can see.Anyways Hi I’m Angela car- uh Knights and I’m your wife,” she said and shook my hand with hers.
“I see you are quite not acquainted with your surname Mrs.Knights?,” I mocked her.
“I’m working on it Mr.Knights,” she said cheerfully.
I felt so happy and relieved.
“To the new beginning,” I cheered in my mind.
After my confession in that lawn me and Angela went inside the house for Dinner.I also found out that it was Angela who was cooking from these last months not Lucy.
We were eating our Dinner when Angela said “Mr.Knights I still don’t understand.If you look at it then I still did marry you for your money.”
I kept my knife and fork aside and said “I already knew you were going to speak me about that. ”
“Look Angela you only agreed to marry because my father was ready to give you the money in return, you don’t have to feel guilty because you did this all this for money, No! you did this all to save your father’s life and your family and I was the one who alleged you for being a gold digger uh sorry for the inappropriate word haha um so that’s it and off discussion.You don’t need to feel guilty.”
Somehow I too didn’t find my answer reasonable.I was confused with myself.Why did I forgive her? Was it because of sympathy for what she went through for her family or was it mine own selfishness?
“But,” she tried to reason with me butI cut her off “No buts Angela and yeah we are never going to talk about this any more okay?,” I asked her raising an eyebrow.
She didn’t reply but just kept looking at me “Angela Do you understand?,” I asked again.
“Yes-Yes,” she replied with a weak smile and continued eating.
“Angel,” I uttered.
She looked at me almost immediately “Yo-You are an amazing cook,” I coughed out and looked here and there.When I looked at her she smiled and said “Thank you.”
When we were done we want to our own rooms.When we separated at the stair case she called me “Mr.Knights.”I turned back towards her and waited for her to speak.She smiled and said “Mr.Knights Good night.”
Though I didn’t like her calling me “Mr.Knights” still I gave her a smile and said “Good Knight Angel,” I whispered Angel to myself and went inside my room grinning like an Idiot.
I jumped on my bed and folded my hands below my head and whispered “God what is she doing to me?”
The days went by and Knowing Angela or would I say Angel was the best part of my life.The more I knew her the more I grew to like her.She was different.She was very simple and Kindhearted Person though not talkative but somehow I was beginning to know what was going on, with her heart or mind.
I liked being with her.Every day I would wait for the day to get over so that I could finally go back home and see her face.My anger issue somehow began to decrease much to my employee’s relief.
Whenever I see her smile my heart beat starts to raise its speed.Whenever I was in angry mood only seeing her face calmed me.I knew that somewhere deep down in my heart I have grown fond of her romantically but I am not ready to accept it so easily because last time I was betrayed and I don’t want my heart to get hurt again.
So I maintained my distance with her.
Every day I would come back home only to be greeted with her warm smile and the aroma of her delicious food.
What does a man want more in his life?
I would tell her everything like a friend about my day’s schedule and the things I did when I was a kid.She enjoyed listening to me every day after our Dinner.
Today I was really tired.I had to attend two to three meetings continuously.Now I just want to go back home to Angel.
I smiled to myself on the name “Angel.”I have grown used to this name.Somehow I have started calling her “Angel” and she didn’t even have any problem in me calling her that.The suited her well and I liked calling her “Angel” more than “Angela.”
I drove back towards my house when on my way I saw a florist shop.She told me one day that she loved white Orchids.I never gave her anything in return of what she did to me so I thought of buying some
Orchids for her.
She would love that.
I bought some white Orchids for her and made my way towards my house.I was grinning like an Idiot.
What would she do seeing the flowers?
Would she kiss me? Definitely not.
Would she hug me? Not a chance.
Let’s find out.
I made my way towards the main door and opened it using my keys.I went inside the house only to find no one in there.I thought she might be in kitchen but she wasn’t.
I searched her everywhere but a noise got my attention.There was a crash sound and it was coming from a room near to our store room.I slowly walked towards it and what I heard made my heart clench.
Sounds of someone moaning?
There was a female sound and as well as a male sound.I began to think about the impossibilities.
“Angel,” I thought.
Was it Angel? My Angel?
My heart shattered into pieces and the pain which I felt in my heart wasunexplainable.My eyes began to get watery and I could feel rage burning inside me.
Sure, I did say her that she could enjoy her life but that was a long ago and I thought it was all sorted after I asked her to forgive me.
Doesn’t she have any feelings for me? Not even slightly.I looked at the flowers which was in my hand and threw it away in anger.I began to see red and I just wanted to go inside that room and whoever that man was, I just wanted to kill him and punish her.
My breaths were coming out in shorts and I knew it was possible for me to kill someone which was not the option.I controlled my emotions and left their room and began to take long strides to get out of the house as soon as possible.When I reached the main door I opened it with so much force that it opened with a loud bang and somehow who was standing outside stumbled upon me.
My heart beat began to fasten and I knew who it was from the tingles I got while touching the person.
I held her arms to support her from falling and looked at her face with my watery and wide eyes.
What the fucking hell?
“Mr.Knights uh uh I was just,” she uttered her face was red.
If she was here then who was in that room? I thought.
“Angel what were you doing here I thought you were inside,” I gestured with my fingers.I was flabbergasted.Moreover I was shocked and surprised seeing her outside.
Relief washed over me when I knew she wasn’t in that fucking room.
“Angel what were you doing?,” I asked scratching my head.
“Uh I thought to go out for a walk because it was a lovely day and I thought I should give you some space,” she said twisting her fingers nervously.
“Give me space?” What does that mean? I asked puzzled.
“You know I mean uh I didn’t want to disturb you,” she said looking everywhere but my eyes.
I held her chin and made her to look at my eyes. “What disturb me Angel?”
“I heard everything and I thought I should give you some space,” she said her eyes getting watery “So I went out for a walk.”
Realization hit me hard and I understood what she meant.
Oh, god, she thought I was in that room with some other woman?
Doesn’t she know that I have left it all from long days back?
And here I was thinking that she was in that room.
How stupid of me.
She can’t do that.She can never do that to me.
I wanted to dance at the thought that she wasn’t in that room.
“I thought yo- uh you were I mean,” she bite her lips and I just felt like wanting to kiss her senseless at her innocence.She was so naive.God what will I do with her?
“NO” my voice boomed making her eyes widened.
I sighed and rubbed my forehead.God I was beginning to get a headache.
“I wasn’t in that room and how can you even think like that,” I asked rudely but soon regretted when I saw her painfully biting her lips to stop herself from crying.
I sighed and used my fingers to free her lips from her teeth.
“Don’t do that,” I said.
I mentally kicked myself for shouting at her and thinking that she could do such terrible thing to me.
“I’m sorry, I shouldn’t have shouted at you,” I said apologetically using my soft tone.
I knew that I have to handle her with soft words and tone if I wanted her to be with me.She was like a glass, if not handled properly and with care then it might break.
“Angel I’m sorry and next time don’t assume things,” I said the last part more to myself.
I took her hands and pulled her inside closing the door “Now let’s she who is it in our house doing “it,” I doubled quoted in the air making Angel smile.
We went to that room still hearing moaning sounds.
God it was embarrassing.
I looked at Angel to see her face flushed and she looked so cute biting her lips.
“Don’t do that,” I whispered to her making her stop her assault with her lips.
I took a deep breath and knocked at the door.Soon the sound stopped and when someone opened the door our eyes were like ready to fall out of its sockets and we both shouted at the same time.
What the freaking fucking hell?
I sat on the sofa and threw my head on the sofa.I was tired.
We found out that it was Lucy and her husband who came Italy all the way to meet her or to say s***w her.
I sighed and closed my eyes.
After some minutes I felt someone touching my forehead. I opened my eyes to find Angel.
“What are you doing?,” I asked holding her hands.
“Ssh Relax I know you are tired, just close your eyes and let me massage your head,” she said in her soft tone.
“You don’t need to -” my words stopped in mid sentence when she closed my eyes using her hands and began to massage my head with her delicate fingers.
I leaned into her touch feeling relaxed and great. A soft moan came out of my months unknowingly and my eyes began to become heavy.
When I was just about to slip to a deep slumber I heard her whisper in my ears “Thank you for the flowers Mr. Knights.”
I smiled and found myself in heaven.