I don’t understand Xavier.One second he is so sweet and warm and the next second he becomes an erupting volcano all angry and throwing tantrums.He seriously needs to control his anger.The boys who whistled at me were only kids.I didn’t mind them because I knew it was of no use but Xavier, he bolted towards them in anger.
I have seen him fighting before and might I say he is a fierce fighter.The way he fought with John sent shivers down my spine.John didn’t have any chance before him.I thought he was going to kill him that day though he was really killed by the cops; I was relieved that Xavier was not the one to kill him.
Xavier pushed me inside the washroom and began to kiss me.I don’t understand what’s with him in kissing me.I never expected affection from his side but the way he has started to treat me is really heart touching.
I have never been kissed before let alone hugged by a male who is not from my family or friends so, this is the reason why I became stiff whenever Xavier tends to hug me.I know that he is my husband but I never expected any bold statements for me from his mouth.He even declared that I am going to need those lingeries one day in the near future.That means intimacy!
Xavier and me hav…
I blushed deep red and looked at Xavier who was talking with someone in his phone.We are currently sitting in the cafe, still in the mall.After so much of shopping we were hungry and we decided to eat in this cafe.
Xavier looked at me still talking with someone in his phone and raised an eyebrow because of my sudden blush.I think, he understood why I was blushing so hard because the next moment he began to grin.I averted my gaze to the other side and leaned back on my chair.
He soon stops his conversation and shoves his phone back into his pant pocket.Then he leaned from his chair towards me and whispered “what’s with your red cheeks Angel? Were you thinking something dirty about me that made you blush so hard?” he whispered seductively which made me blush more and I shielded my face with my hands away from his sight.
“Aww you are so cute, you know that?” He cooed and tried to pinch my cheeks but I slapped it away making him to laugh out loud.
Please! God call me to you.
The waiter who was a young boy came and smiled at me.I smiled back and he asked our orders.I ordered a chocolate frappe and a sandwich.He wrote it down on his notepad and looked towards Xavier only to find him clenching his fists on the table and his jaws were locked.He was glaring at the waiter with a murderous look.
Again! What happened to him?
“What’s with you smiling towards my wife?” he asked through gritted teeth.
“Xavier!,” I whispered.
“Same as she ordered for me” he gritted out to the waiter.The waiter nodded and dashed away.
“Xavier he was just doing his work.It’s his duty to maintain a good relation with the customer,” I said frustrated with Xavier’s behavior and crossed my arms around my chest huffing.
“You don’t have any Idea what types of look he was giving to you and I don’t like it.Why did you even smile back at him? You rarely smile to me but you smiled at a stranger? Why?” Xavier asked arrogantly.
Is he being Serious?
I gave him a look not believing what he just said to me and shook my head.It is useless to explain him.Does he seriously want me to show arrogance to a waiter?
“Answer me Damn it,” Xavier said banging his hand on the table.
Everyone’s eyes were now on us and I began to feel nauseous.I don’t like attention.I began to panic and I began to look here and there.
I think Xavier saw my condition because soon I heard screeching sounds of chair dragging and it was placed beside me.Xavier sat on it and took my hands and made me to look at him.
“Look! I’m sorry.I don’t want to be harsh on you.After that John’s incident I cannot trust anybody around you.Please try to understand.I’m really sorry” he said seriously and I saw sincerity in his eyes which made me to give him a small smile and nod my head at him assuring him that I understand.
He smiled and squeezed my hands “You don’t have any Idea what you are capable of doing to me” he whispered to himself but I heard it.
What capable of?
Our orders were placed before us and the waiter dashed away as soon as he kept out plates.I guess he has a really bad encounter with Xavier.
We began to eat our food and occasionally we would talk about random things.When we were done Xavier payed and held the shopping bags and smiled at me “I guess we have done quite a shopping didn’t we?” he asked and I raised an eyebrow whispering “we?”
He gave me a sheepish smile and said “Okay fine me, I did it.”
I nodded and shook my head and took some of his bags and we began to exit the mall when he stopped walking.I frowned and was going to ask what was wrong but I stopped myself when I saw his facial expression.His face showed anger, betrayal and hurt.I looked towards the direction where he was looking and saw a woman.Might I say very beautiful woman who was shorter from me by 4 or 6 inches possibly and was smiling at a kid.She was holding a small girl’s hand whom I guessed to be only 3 years old.They were buying balloons and were laughing.
I guess she was her mother.But I don’t understand Xavier’s expression towards them.The woman turned her head towards us and her eyes widened as soon as she saw us or more like when she saw Xavier.She tried to call Xavier but Xavier took hold of my hand and dragged me towards the parking lot.
I could sense his Anger which was radiating from him.But why was he so angry all of a sudden? Is it because of that woman?
“Xavier?,” I tried to call him but he turned around and looked at me angrily “Shut up! just get inside the car” he snapped at me making me flinch.
I did as he said and kept quiet.He came and sat on his side and began to drive.
“Xavie-,” I again tried to ask what was wrong but he cut me off speaking deadly “Angela please don’t ask me anything now.Just keep quiet,” he said and concentrated on the road.
I don’t understand his sudden change in his demeanor.
I kept my mouth shut and looked out of the window.Though he was harsh towards me but I knew he was in pain.I saw it in his eyes.His pain made him to speak harshly to me.I don’t blame him though.Seeing his anger issues and sometimes pain in his eyes, I have come to the point that may be something big or painful has occurred in his past which has made him like this.
I looked out of the window and sat silently.I won’t ask him anything, if he wants to share he can.But I won’t ask him.
When we reached home I saw the clouds forming a deep color indicating that it was soon going to rain.Xavier directly bolted towards the house and he didn’t even help me in carrying the shopping bags.I smiled to myself and looked at Xavier’s retreating back.
I helped myself and with utmost difficulties got hold of each bags and went inside the house.Lucy came running to me and helped me in carrying the shopping bags.
“Oh, dear what’s wrong with Sir? He seemed very angry” Lucy asked me worriedly.
“I don’t know may be work problem,,” I shrugged.I didn’t want her to know what happened.If Xavier wants he can tell her himself.
“Can you bring juice to my room Lucy? I’m really tired,” I said as I kept the bags on the sofa in the living room.
“Of course sweetie you go rest.I’ll bring your juice and some snacks to your room,” she said and went towards the kitchen.
I went towards my room and plopped on the bed looking towards the ceiling.I got up and sat near the window on the sofa seeing the dark clouds and rustling of leaves.
I can’t believe it.
I saw her today.
She was so happy.
I saw that she has a daughter now.They both were so happy.She is still the same.
How dare she utter my name from her mouth?
How dare she?
She ruined my life but she looked so happy.
I can’t take it. I cannot bear it.
I threw my files from the table in anger.I’m currently in my study room.I have locked myself in here from two hours.
The things she did to me flashed in my mind and my anger became to grow more and more.
How dare she showing me her face after so many years with a happy face and a kid in her hands.
It’s been four years till I last saw her.
She was my best friend.I used to love her.She was not rich as I was but still, we were best friends.On our graduation day I proposed her and she rejected me saying she loved someone else.
I cried the whole night and mom has to sooth me all night.The next day I respected her decisions and asked her to remain my friend as it was before.But she surprised me, telling that she too loves me back.I was so happy that I thought I found the whole happiness of the world.She was my fiancé and we began to share an apartment living together.
One day, when I was tired coming back from my training, I found her naked and with none other but my other best friend Daniel.I came to know that she has been cheating on me with him from the day we got engaged.She claimed that she loved him and she didn’t want to marry me.
I was so furious that I slapped her hard on her face when she had the audacity to kiss me and I yelled furious”How dare you? Who gave you the permission to play with my heart? Is this the reason why you never allowed me to pleasure you sexually? Because you loved him?,” I threw them both out of my apartment and from then only, I never heard anything from them.
But soon I found that a heavy amount of cash was transferred to someone’s account from my account.It was her.
I realized that she was only with me because of my money.Soon my mom passed away leaving me heartbroken.I was all alone.When I needed my two best friends the most they were away fucking each other probably laughing at my condition.
From then only I had this anger issue and trust problem.I fucked every girl thinking them as Gold diggers and they were really worse than her.She is the one whom I hate the most.I even despise her name.
She is Claudia Thatcher.
I hate her.She is the reason of all my pain and sufferings.She is the dark side of my life.Until She came.
My light.My Lost Love.My Healer.My Angel.
She is the reason why I began to smile and laugh again.She saved me from getting drown into darkness.She is my power.She is my weakness.
I sighed and rubbed my face with my hands.
“Shit!,” I whispered.
“Shit ! Shit! Shit!,” I groaned in annoyance when I recalled the way I behaved with her when I saw Claudia.She had no Idea why I was so angry all of a sudden and she tried to ask me but I, I snapped at her.
What is her mistake in this?
She didn’t know anything that happened with me still she never questioned me about my sudden harshness.
She is so innocent.She is naive and I know she is far from what Claudia is.She is different from her in every ways and I know that she would never betray me.
Now when I think of this, I think that I never loved Claudia.I think I only liked her.She was a crush of mine.But Angela, she is my life.She is my true love and I will be damned if I let her go out my life.
I have to apologize to her.I have made uncountable mistakes before her.But she always tends to forgive me.I know there is a limit and I don’t want to cross it.
I sighed and went towards the window.I saw that it has already started to rain.It’s only 4 pm and it has started to grow darker outside.
Folding my arms on my back and smiled when I thought about Angel.I am like a teenager who found his first love whenever I was around her.I tend to smile, laugh, tease, and flirt when I’m around her.She is my hope.She is my gift for the prayers I did to god.She is my peace to my sufferings.
I looked out of the window and someone grabbed my attention.Immediately a smile appeared on my lips and my heart beat began to skyrocket when I saw the person twirling happily in rain.
I ran out of the room and towards the drawing room and opened the slider glass door.
I smiled and shouted “Hey! You are still weak.Come back here or you will catch a cold. ”
She turned around and stared at me.She has changed into a white short dress which reached her thighs and she was all soaked because of the rain.She was the perfect picture of an Angel.
In fact, she was an Angel.My Angel.
“No! You come here,” she shouted back.
“What?! No! You come here,” I shouted back.
She began to laugh and she ran towards me “Hey watch out! You are bare foot.You will hurt yourself!,” I yelled seeing her bare foot.
She shook her head and smiled “Nothing will happen to me.Now come,” she gestured me to join her in the rain.
“No,” I shook my head and crossed my hands.
She came to me and took my hand and dragged me to the rain.
“Wet! You are making me wet!,” I yelled trying to shield myself from the rain putting my hands on my head.
She laughed at my statement and came towards me “I hate rain,” I whispered to her.
“I love rain,,” she whispered back.
“My mom used to tell me that rain can wash away all your pain and sufferings.So, why don’t you let the rain to do that for you?,” she asked looking at me.
The rain water dripping down her face.
“How do you know that I was in pain?,” I asked mesmerized with her beauty.
She looked at me and shrugged her shoulders smiling at me.Though she didn’t answer me, I knew she had started to feel my pain.
“Come here,” I said opening my arms.She looked at me and wiped the water out of her face. Then she slowly came towards me and into my arms.I hugged her tight feeling her body against mine.I was so happy.Finally, I found my happiness.
“Angel?,” I called her and she looked at me through her beautiful glassy blue orbs “I’m sorry,” I whispered rubbing her cheeks with my palm. She smiled and I only noticed her lips.They were tempting me.They were calling me and I obliged to them.
I kissed her again holding her tight.We were still in the rain and I didn’t care about it anymore. Tingles began to run down my skin and I held her tight to myself.My love was Intense towards her and my soul craved for her. Only her.
She wrapped her arms around my neck to steady herself and kissed me back.
You said the rain would wash away my pain and sufferings?
You are the one who took away all my pain and sufferings.
I love you.