I watched the only person I had ever loved in my life fall to his knees in front of me. “No Jensen,” I screamed out as I quickly ran to his side and held him. I could see the panic in his eyes like he was wanting me to run, but I wasn’t going to leave him. I could feel the tears stinging my eyes as he reached up and touched my cheek. He didn’t say anything, but I knew what he wanted to say. I loved this man and nothing was going to change that. Just then someone grabbed me by the hair and ripped me away from him. “No. Let me go!” I yelled as I kicked and tried to punch whoever it was.
“Shut the fuck up you whore. Your coming with me.” I knew it was Joseph and I was not going with him.
“You might as well kill me Joseph because I will never be yours. I will run away every chance I get and so help me if Jensen lives he will find me and you know it.”
He stopped and turned me to him and pointed the gun at me. “Fine, have it your way. I’m done playing with you anyway.” I closed my eyes as I heard the gun cock back.
“I love you Jensen,” I said out loud. I heard a gunshot but didn’t feel any pain. I felt someone grab my shoulders and shake me.
“Lynn, look at me. Are you hurt?” I opened my eyes and Dillion was standing in front of me. I shook my head at him.
“No, I am okay.” Then it hit me and I quickly turned back to see Trevor, Mike, and Jacob around Jensen. “Jensen. Dillion let me go I have to get to him.” I pulled away from him and ran over to them. I didn’t know what had just happened to Joseph, but I didn’t care. All I could think about was Jensen. “Mike is he alive,” I said as I ran up to them. Mike turned and held me back.
“Lynn, go get in the car. He is alive, but if we don’t move he won’t be for long.” No, please. I nodded at him and quickly got in one of the waiting cars as the three of them carefully lifted Jensen and placed him in the back of the same car. Mike jumped in the front seat covered in blood and Trevor and Jacob stayed in the back with Jensen. “Clean up and meet us at the hospital,” Mike yelled out the window at Felix as we peeled out towards the hospital.
I kept looking back at Jensen and he wasn’t moving and there was so much blood. “Jensen, baby please talk to me. Open your eyes please.” I begged with him, but he didn’t move or open his eyes. I couldn’t even tell if he was breathing. I turned back to the front and looked at Mike. He was trying not to show emotion, but I could see the pain and worry in his eyes.
“Mike, you better hurry up man we are losing him.” Mike stepped on the gas.
“Shit, damn it Jensen don’t you dare fucking die on us.” I heard Trevor say. “Jacob, he’s not breathing. Move him straight so I can start CPR.” I turned back, but Jacob was now blocking my view. We pulled into the hospital ER loading and unloading area. Mike jumped out and ran in as I flew open my door and then opened the back door. I saw Jensen’s lifeless body as Trevor was pumping on his chest. No, no, no I thought and tried to keep it together.
“Excuse us, mama.” I was ushered out of the way as two male nurses pulled Jensen out of the car and onto a stretcher. We all tried to stay close as they rushed him into the ER, but we were stopped at the doors as they went into a trauma room with him.
“You will have to wait here.” One of the nurses said as the door closed in front of us and the curtains were drawn.
The four of us stood at the doors for a minute before we finally walked over to the chairs in the waiting room for families. I looked over at the three men with me and all of them were covered in blood, bruises and god knows what else. I placed my head in my hands and finally let the tears fall. I can’t lose him yet, we just started this and now there was nothing keeping us from being together. I must have been losing it because Mike was at my side in no time trying to comfort me. “He is a fighter, Lynn. He will be okay.” I just buried my head in his chest and cried as he held me. What if he doesn’t make it? What will I do then?
The hours seemed to go by slowly with no word on how Jensen was. Felix and Dillion joined us first then Nicole and Rebecca came with clean clothes for all of us. Even though everyone was around me I felt alone, all I wanted was Jensen. Nicole came over and sat next to me holding a cup of coffee and a snack. “Lynn, you need to eat something. I am sure you haven’t eaten all day.” She was right I hadn’t eaten but I wasn’t hungry. I didn’t want to upset her though so I took the coffee and snack.
“Thank you Nicole,” I said trying to fake a smile, but I couldn’t fight the tears back. Nicole hugged me and just hummed and told me it was going to be okay.
After what seemed like a million hours the doctor finally came into the waiting room. “Jensen Daniels’s family.” All our heads turned and looked at him. I stood up and walked over to him along with Mike. I wanted to ask him what was going on, but the words wouldn’t come out.
“I’m his brother and this is his girlfriend. How is he?” Mike asked when he saw that I couldn’t speak. The doctor stared at the file in his hands for a second.
“He is in recovery right now. We were able to remove the bullet, but we won’t know the full extent of his injury until he wakes up. However, he lost a lot of blood so we are going to keep him in a coma for a day so his body can rest. I want you to be prepared for the fact that he may never walk again.” The words hit me hard. He may never walk again because he loved me enough to take a bullet for me. I looked at the doctor.
“Can I see him now?” He nodded.
“Yes, but I will ask that you only go in a few people at a time. He is in room 325.” Mike and I nodded and thanked the doctor.
Mike turned to me. “You go first, Lynn. I want to speak with Felix and the guys for a few minutes.” I nodded at him.
“Thank you, Mike.” He went over to Felix and the guys as I made my way down the hall to Jensen’s room. I stood at the door trying to urge myself to go in. Finally, I opened the door and walked in. My heart sank as soon as I saw him. He had tubes everywhere and machines were beeping and giving him blood. The swelling on his face had gone down a little bit, but now he had bruises everywhere. I walked to his side and took his hand in mine. He was so still that he didn’t seem like the man I knew. There was no life in his face. I bent down and kissed his cheek then whispered in his ear. “Jensen, you have to come back to me. We are finally free and I need you. You made me a promise mister and you better keep it.”
I must have fallen asleep in the chair next to Jensen because I awoke to the nurse. “I’m sorry Ma’am, but visiting hours are over.” I started to panic.
“Please I don’t want to leave him. I won’t be in the way.” The nurse looked at me and shook her head.
“It’s hospital policy, I can lose my job.” I took Jensen’s hand in mine. I didn’t want to leave and I wasn’t going to.
“I want to speak to the doctor now. I am not leaving his side until he wakes up.” The nurse looked dumbfounded but immediately left to get the doctor. I squeezed Jensen’s hand. “Don’t worry babe, I’m not leaving you. They will have to drag me out kicking and screaming.” I heard a voice behind me and it made me jump.
“That won’t be necessary.” I turned and the doctor was standing there with Felix and Mike.
“Do you mean I can stay?” I asked them. Mike nodded.
“If that’s what you want we have made arrangements. All the men are going to take turns standing guard.”
I looked at him confused. “Doctor, can you give us a minute please?” I asked. He nodded then left the room. “Alright, spill it. Why do you want guards here? Is there still a danger for him or me?” Mike looked at Felix then back at me.
“Joseph is dead, but there has been some talk of someone else trying to regroup what is left of the Suicide Kings. I already have Trevor and Jacob working on it, but until we know for sure there is no more threat there will be someone here at all times.” Great just what I wanted to hear right now.
“You handle it. I just want to stay here with Jensen and not worry about anything else but him.” I said to them then laid my head next to Jensen’s hand.
The next few days went by in a blur. The hospital had brought in a cot for me to sleep on, but I spent most of the time next to him. Mike and the guys had been in and out and so had the doctors. No one seemed to know anything. They just kept telling us that it was up to him now. They had started the process of waking him from the coma this morning and now we just had to wait. The doctor said that it could take a few hours or longer if Jensen was going to pull through this at all. They all seemed sure that he might not wake up at all, but I knew that he would. He just had to. By nightfall, he still hadn’t woke up yet and I was wondering if they may be right. “Jensen I love you so much and I need you to open your eyes now,” I whispered into his ear. He didn’t move and I started to lose it a little.
I pounded my fist on the bed as the tears fell down my cheek. “Damn it, Jensen, you promised me you would always come back to me. Please, please baby I need you. We need you.” I sat back down in the chair and put my head in my hands and really started to cry. I hadn’t even noticed that Dillion had come into the room until he was by my side. I felt a hand on my head and I just thought it was Dillion until I heard a beautiful sound.
“Hey, beautiful. Why are you crying?” I jerked my head up and saw those big beautiful eyes that I had been longing to see. I quickly stood next to him and bent down to kiss him. He flinched in pain so I stopped immediately. The tears were still flowing down my cheeks, but they were tears of joy now. Jensen took my hand. “It’s okay babe. I am here with you. I promised I would make it home to you.” I smiled down at him and then gently bent down again to him. This time he wrapped his arm around me and just held me until the doctor came in.