Chapter 15 – She Remembers You
Late in the afternoon, Yellow Feather walked into his teepee and Ayira awakened. She looked around nervously and sat up.
He smirked and stared at her. “You’re still looking at me.”
He smiled and said, “I am sorry – I cannot help myself. I am happy you are here with me.” She looked down bashfully and he continued, “I want to show you something.”
She looked up, curious, and asked, “What?”
He held his hand out to her and said, “Come and I will show you. Will you come with me?”
Ayira stared at him worriedly, and then she hesitantly nodded yes and grabbed his hand. They walked far through the woods and arrived at an open field. The ground was blanketed with an array of flowers. Yellow Feather watched Ayira, who seemed to be stunned as she walked out toward the edge of the flowers and then stopped.
“I have never seen anything like this...”
“Do you like it?”
Ayira had tears in her eyes as she said, “It is beautiful...”
“One day I was hunting and came upon this place. It is beautiful and peaceful.”
Saddened, Ayira looked down and said, “My sister loved flowers – we would try to find flowers in the desert...”
“Now you know where to come...”
She nodded yes and he grabbed her hand and pulled her through the carpet of flowers. Trying not to step on them, she tiptoed. Then she stopped.
Yellow Feather laughed. He suddenly picked her up in his arms. Ayira laughed in surprise. Then they both smiled and stared into each other’s eyes.
“I love to see you smile – you are so beautiful.”
She said, “You think you do not make me happy, but you do... I have never been so happy until I met you. I love you... I will never stop loving you...”
Tears fell down her face as he carried her out of the flowers and onto the grass. He put her down and stared into her eyes again.
He cupped her face in both hands, and then rested his forehead on hers. He softly kissed her lips. “Stay with me.”
Ayira nodded yes and he continued, “I want you to stay with me always. Be my wife?”
She was stunned speechless. He continued, “I cannot be away from you.” He kissed her and said, “Ayira, I love you – be my wife.”
A tear fell from her eye as he kissed her again and said, “Be my wife...”
She kissed him back, and then nervously said, “Yes.”
He smiled and hugged her tightly. As he hugged her, tears streamed down her face and she appeared scared.
Later that day, two Indian men visited the village and gathered in Chief Coyote’s teepee.
“They attacked our village again. They killed almost half of our men. Chief Black Bear sent us to get you. We need your help,” said the older man.
“We will leave in the morning,” said Chief Coyote.
The two men nodded. White Hawk stared at Yellow Feather and said, “They are attacking again... I wonder how we could win? Where will they be as they are waiting to attack us?”
Great Eagle asked Yellow Feather, “I think she knows more then we think – she can help us. Maybe she will tell you...”
One of the visiting men asked, “Do you speak of the slave woman who can see spirits?”
Everyone stared at him, surprised, and he continued, “So it is true? She can see and speak to the dead?”
“Who told you this?” asked White Hawk.
“Our whole village knows about her and her gifts.”
“Zuberi – it was Zuberi,” said Yellow Feather sounding angry.
Chief Coyote looked at the man and said, “Please do not speak of this to anyone. If people knew of her powers, it would be very dangerous for her and for our village.”
“They don’t believe a slave woman would have powers because she would not be a slave woman – but I will not tell.”
Yellow Feather thought to himself and quickly got up. White Hawk watched him as he left.
Yellow Feather entered his teepee and found Ayira was sitting in front of the fire. She held a long branch in her hand to play with the fire. She looked at him without emotion.
“We must leave in the morning. Our sister tribe was attacked again.”
Ayira slowly nodded. He sat next to her and hugged her tightly. She closed her eyes as he kissed her softly on her lips, and they made love all night.
In the middle of the night, she rested her head on his chest as he stroked her hair. “I love you,” said Ayira.
“I love you too.”
He moved down and they lay facing each other. He appeared worried as he said, “My love... They want me to ask you, what is to happen with this battle?”
She looked surprised and quickly sat up.
“Please, I only ask because I want to see everyone survive. If there is a chance to keep everyone from dying, I will take that chance.”
Upset, Ayira turned away from him and said, “So you do not believe you can win?”
“Yes – I do. But we can all win if you help us.”
“Why do you ask this of me? I cannot speak of what is to come – I cannot. You ask too much of me. I
told them I cannot change what is to come.”
“My love – please do not get angry. I just want to help everyone get back alive.”
“Do you not think I want the same? You want to help everyone. Help me... Do you think I do not want to help everyone? Do you?”
He looked down and hesitantly said, “I don’t know.” Ayira was shocked by his comment and she started to cry.
Yellow Feather continued, “My love. If you know what is to come, then say it – please.” She looked deeply hurt, but she slowly nodded her head yes.
He anxiously asked, “Tell me. Where are they waiting to attack us?”
“I will say nothing unless you take me with you.”
Yellow Feather was shocked and yelled, “No – no!”
“Then I will say nothing.”
He quickly got up and stomped back and forth angrily. He asked, “Why do you do this, Ayira? Why?”
“Because you think I do not want to help anyone. When all I do is try to help everyone... Every day – every day, I think of ways to change what is to come – every day...”
She started sobbing and tears streamed down her face as she continued, “And every day I see nothing that can help me or anyone else.”
He ran his hand through his hair as he thought to himself, and then said, “You will not come with us – you will not.”
She sat and stared at him, speechless. Her eyes were watery and she looked very sad. “I will tell them you cannot help them. You cannot see and you do not know.”
She sat staring at him with sad eyes and then started to cry again. Yellow Feather walked up to her and fell to his knees, hugging her.
“I am sorry – I am sorry to have asked this of you.”
She wiped her tears and cleared her throat, then slowly said, “They will not hide... All will be out to see. They want to make themselves seen and heard. This is about honor and loyalty. They fight with no one behind them. They come on their own.”
He smiled and grabbed her head with both of his hands and repeatedly kissed her on her forehead and softly on her lips.
“I love you – you do not know how much I love you.”
She tried to hold back from crying as she said, “Yes I do – I love you too.” They kissed again and hugged tightly.
The next day, just as the sun was just about to rise, inside of Yellow Feather’s teepee it was dark and quiet. Ayira suddenly awakened in pain, sweating profusely. She looked over at Yellow Feather, who was still asleep, and suddenly heard whispers outside all around the teepee.
The voices of both men and women were whispering her name. Already scared, she suddenly heard a woman scream. She quickly got up and walked to the entrance to peek outside.
She looked over the dim stillness of the village and then lay back down on her side next to Yellow Feather. As tears fell from her eyes, she stared at him and stroked his hair as he slept.
At dawn, Yellow Feather was awakened by the sounds of people talking and yelling. Ayira opened her eyes and watched him leave the teepee.
“We have no time. We all must leave now. I will have two men stay here to help Great Eagle,” said Chief Coyote.
“Why do they need to stay here? We need all of our men to go,” said White Hawk. “Yellow Feather, get ready. We must leave soon,” said Chief Coyote.
Yellow Feather nodded and quickly hurried back to his teepee. Little Sparrow ran up to him and said, “Uncle – I want to go with you to the battle.”
He stared at Little Sparrow and said, “They need you here to protect the village.”
“Uncle, please. I want to fight.”
Yellow Feather grabbed the boy’s shoulders and sternly said, “You are not ready; you are not. When I come back, we will speak with Chief Coyote and see if you are ready to go on your journey.”
Little Sparrow looked disappointed, as Yellow Feather quickly entered his teepee. Ayira was sitting down, waiting for him.
“I have to leave.”
He hurriedly gathered his things, but Ayira looked very sad. “Please don’t look that way, my love, I will come back.”
She quickly smiled and said, “I am sorry – I will just miss you so.”
He walked over to her and knelt down in front of her to look at her face-to-face. He said, “When I come back – we will have our family.”
He smiled. She held back her emotions and they passionately kissed. Then he quickly stood up, picked up his things, and left.
She stood outside of the teepee and sadly watched Yellow Feather leave with the rest of the men. She then went back into his teepee, almost stumbling, and deeply saddened. Falling to her hands and knees, she put her head on the ground and cried hysterically.
She lifted up her head with tears in her eyes. Shocked, she said, “You...”
A tall Indian man stood in front of her. He said, “Hello, Ayira...”
“I remember you – but you look so much like him – I thought it was he that I saw, but it was you...”
Sparrow smiled and nodded. He resembled Yellow Feather, except that Sparrow looked older and was taller and broader than his brother.
She looked down, thinking to herself, as he continued, “It is because of me you are here. I guided you here so you can help them... You are the only one that can help them – help all of them.”
She struggled to get up and then walked closer to him to look at him face-to-face. She said, “You look so much like Yellow Feather...”
She stared at him in awe, and then continued, “You led me here to help them – but I cannot help them.
I am useless. I don’t know how or when they will die...”
“You can – and you will...”
“Tell me what I can do to save them – tell me please.”
“Only you know what to do to save them.”
She started sobbing and said, “I don’t know how...”
“I did not choose you for no reason – I heard about you and I have seen you and your powers. You can do so much, but you are blinded by yourself.”
Ayira shook her head sadly.
“You already know who is to blame...”
Ayira looked at him angrily and asked, “So I am right?”
Sparrow nodded yes. Ayira turned away and started pacing back and forth as she thought to herself, and then asked, “It was you that my father was running away from?”
He nodded yes and said, “He is a pest... He torments you and you let him hurt you. Why?”
Ayira sadly said, “He is my father and I still love him – no matter what he has done, I still love him.
He is all I have left... That is why I keep him around – but he is harmless...”
“He has spoken to Great Eagle and has made it very difficult for you to save them.”
Disappointed, she looked down and said, “I know... But would it be wise to save them – what if they die a death much worse? You do know what is going to happen to your people?”
Sparrow looked down sadly, and then looked up and said, “It is not time for them to die – it is not... Not yet... I came to you because I will not rest until I know they are safe.”
Ayira trembled and took a deep breath, and then stared at Sparrow seriously and said, “I know...”
Sparrow desperately stared into Ayira’s eyes and said, “Save them...”
A man opened the entrance door. He peeked in and said, “Great Eagle wishes to speak with you.” She looked around and Sparrow was gone.