Clarity

Hopeless ...

Humanity is just a piece of a feather , who thought that happiness had to come with sad endings

My history with tragedy is always too keen for just another person to play the role of a victim.

Sad, loneliness, depressing and hell of a drama what can I say my heart drives with the title

Iron rose

I've been working on a song since last December , a song I promised to make my own mother proud for .

Again I don't have a word to start with. I want it to be a happy song not something depressing like me on the other hand.

I've been clueless once but not here or like this . A notification appears up on my laptop screen alerting my sister's request a video call from Skype starts in three seconds clicking that info as Amanda's face show

Gorgeous and less alive over the time difference from another continent

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Young blood how's your studying?

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So no greeting old hag I'm hurt .

The look on her face changed from a smile to an aggressive glare feeling a little twitch on my lips avoiding to smile

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Ha ha very funny young blood I asked you a question

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I'm doing great .... chilling that's all

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Still thinking of mom ?

Clenching my jaw knowing that she can read me like a open book when a broken boy looses him most precious hope lost their life.

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Pretty much ... can't stop .... but hey! What's the big deal ?

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Your not ok-

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I know I know that's okay , I just think it's best

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Best for what? Avoiding your aunts , uncles and cousins ... wait plus dad

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I know I need-

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Being alone doesn't help Jodie you know that better than me .

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Then who should I stay with ?

Regret that word that I still fear after a mistake I commit a mistake I can't face again. Those words stole everything that I was trying to run from

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Come here ... come home.