After It All by Ivana at Inkitt

Chapter 1- OUT

Good luck out there. Don't come back."

Vera gave a tight smile. "Yeah. That's the plan."

The guard lingered a second. "You still got the kid?"

"She's not a dog. She's my daughter."

The plastic bag they handed her crinkled in her grip—one pair of jeans, a hoodie two sizes too small, and a folded court paper with her name on it. Her sneakers slapped the pavement as she stepped into the light. She squinted. The sun felt like a lie after eighteen months behind walls.

A rusted Dodge pulled up, coughing smoke. Her aunt leaned across the seat, sunglasses crooked.

"Get in. Your cousin's got school in twenty."

She slid into the backseat beside a teenage girl in a puffy jacket. The girl shifted away instantly, pulling her hoodie over her nose.

"You smell like... bleach and cigarettes."

"Prison's a real five-star spa."

Her aunt snorted. "Say thank you to your aunt for letting you sleep on her couch. Your mama didn't even want your name mentioned."

"Thanks," Vera whispered, eyes fixed on the windshield, like maybe she could fast-forward through this part.

The drive was quiet, except for the bassy rattle of the broken stereo. South Shore blurred past in shades of gray and grit—cracked sidewalks, busted payphones, a guy nodding off on the steps of an old church. Everything looked the same. That was the problem.

They passed La Reina's Bakery—boarded up now. Vera blinked.

That used to be her Saturday spot with Irene. Back when she still had custody. She'd get a churro and watch Irene smash hers with sticky hands, face smeared in sugar. Now it looked like something out of a war zone.

Everything looked smaller. More ruined. Or maybe she was just looking with sober eyes.

At a stoplight, Lisa lit a cigarette without asking. Smoke filled the car.

"You still drinkin'?" she asked, exhaling out the cracked window.

"No," Vera said.

"You better not be. I don't want Irene waking up scared of her own damn mother."

"I know," Vera muttered.

Lisa scoffed. "Don't say you know. Just show me."

They pulled up outside a beat-up three-flat. The bricks were stained, the screen door hung crooked. Mya hopped out without a word. Vera followed, her legs stiff like her body hadn't quite caught up to her freedom.

Inside, Paint peeling, the rail loose in her grip.third floor 3B.

Then—voices. Yelling. A thud. A baby's scream.

Lisa cursed under her breath and rushed the last few steps. She shoved the key into the lock and pushed open the door.

Chaos.

Irene was red-faced on the floor, wailing. A pot of something was burning on the stove, smoke curling up toward the stained ceiling tiles. School books were scattered across the rug. And standing in the middle of it all, holding a mop like a weapon, was Mr. Carlos from 3A.

"She was at the window, Lisa!" he snapped. "Leaning over the damn fire escape! Where were you?!"

"I was...I was in the shower, Carlos! You think I left her there on purpose?"

"You leave her alone too damn much, that's what I think!"

Lisa scooped Irene up, still screaming, and waved Carlos toward the door. "I got it. Go yell at somebody else."

He threw his hands up and stormed out, muttering in Spanish all the way down the hall.

Vera just stood there, her plastic bag still in her hand, like she was waiting for someone to tell her where to stand. Vera walked into the living room then

Her phone lit up—Piper(parole officer)

"First day of freedom. Don't fuck it up."

She tossed it onto the couch and stared at the ceiling.

Lisa didn't look at her. "Couch is yours. Don't touch the thermostat."

She Dropped her bag by a busted armrest. The couch had an indent where someone used to sleep. Probably Lisa's boyfriend. Or Mya's. Or whoever came and went while she was locked up.

The only photo on the wall was from a quinceañera. Mya beaming in a pink dress. Vera wasn't in it.

She looked down at her plastic bag. Prison clothes. A court letter. No toothbrush. No place in the picture.

Irene was quiet now. Staring at her from Lisa's arms.

No smile. No spark of recognition.

Just blank eyes.

Like Vera was a stranger.

Because right now, she was.

In the bathroom, she ran the tap and stared at her reflection.

Dark circles. Crooked nose from the fight in gen pop. Scab on her lip.

She laughed once, short and bitter.

"Welcome home, bitch."

Piper tossed a manila folder on the metal desk. "It's a diner in South Shore. Greasy, half-shut down, mostly staff with records."

Vera didn't even reach for it.

"So... a prison reunion with pancakes."

"You want clean jobs? Try having no record, no kid, and a dad who gives a damn.. This is what's left."

Silence.

Piper leaned forward.

"He's a good man. Blanco. Lost more than you. Helps people like us."

"People like me," Vera corrected.

"You still sleep at night."

Piper raised a brow. "Right"

They stared at each other. Vera's jaw tightened, but she said nothing. The ticking of the wall clock filled the space like it was counting down to her next failure.

Piper sat back in her chair, folded her arms. "You think you're the only one trying to claw their way out? You're not. But the world doesn't give second chances. You either take the scraps or you starve."

Vera finally reached for the folder. She opened it. Inside was a blurry photo of a red-and-white building with a flickering sign that read "Lindy's Diner." Someone had crossed out "Lindy" with a black marker and written "HELL" under it.

Under that:

Owner: Blanco Reyes.

Previous Conviction: Homicide, 2nd degree.

Location: 71st & Coles.

She rubbed her eyes. "So what? I go there, they clock me in and pretend I didn't almost kill my kid?"

"No one there's innocent," Piper said. "That's what makes it work."

Vera looked up. "And if I say no?"

"Then I write it up as refusal of employment." Piper shrugged. "You miss two offers, you're in violation. And that means back inside."

The word violation hit like cold metal. Vera thought of Irene—how she smelled like baby shampoo and sleep, how she cried when Vera held her too tight, like she still didn't recognize her.

"Fine," she muttered.

Piper nodded, sliding over a bus pass and an address on a Post-it.

"Wear black. Don't be late. Don't let the past talk louder than your mouth."

As Vera stood to leave, Piper added, quieter now, "He's not gonna save you, Vera. But he'll give you space to save yourself."

Vera paused at the door.

"And what if I don't think I'm worth saving?"

Piper didn't answer. Just lit a cigarette and looked out the barred window.

The air outside smelled like hot metal and fried despair.

South Shore hadn't changed in the eighteen months she'd been locked away—if anything, it looked more tired. The sidewalk cracked under her beat-up sneakers. Trash spilled from overstuffed bins. Sirens in the distance weren't urgent anymore—they were just background noise.

Vera adjusted the hoodie over her head and kept walking. A man argued with a parking meter. A teenager in pajama pants biked past her, blasting Chief Keef. She passed a liquor store with bulletproof glass, a check cashing place with a flickering neon sign, and a boarded-up daycare that still had cartoon murals painted on its door—Peppa Pig with a busted eye.

Two kids barely older than Irene were playing with a torn-up football in the middle of the road.

A guy across the street whistled.

"Smile, girl. Ain't nobody gonna save that pretty face if you keep scowlin' like that."

She didn't even flinch.

Her aunt's building leaned slightly, like it had given up standing straight. The hallway smelled like burnt popcorn. Someone had drawn a dick on the elevator button with a Sharpie. Vera took the stairs.

Third floor. Apartment 3B.

She could hear the disaster before she opened the door.

Screaming. Glass clinking. Her cousin's voice yelling something about "not my fuckinging charger again."

Vera braced herself, pushed the door open.

Inside was heat and chaos. The TV was blasting a rerun of Maury. Her aunt Delilah with my other aunt Lisa stood barefoot in the kitchen, waving a wooden spoon like a weapon, her hair wrapped in a "redecilla".

On the couch, Vera's fifteen-year-old cousin, Mya, was mid-argument with some boy with golds in his teeth and an attitude bigger than his frame.

"You always actin' like I take your sh—Mya, I don't need your damn charger!" he snapped.

Irene was sitting cross-legged on the floor in front of the couch, eating dry cereal straight from the box and watching the screaming like it was just another cartoon.

Vera dropped her bag.

Her aunt turned and pointed the spoon at her.

"No hello?."

Vera blinked. "Hi, Aunt Dee. Hi Tia Lisa"

Mya glanced over and grinned. "Hey, felon Barbie."

"Hey, drama queen," Vera shot back.

Irene looked up. She blinked, slow. Vera took a step forward.

"Hey, baby. You remember me?"

Irene stuffed another handful of cereal in her mouth and went back to watching the fight.

Vera's heart dropped. She stepped past whatever boy Mya was fighting with and sank down next to her daughter on the stained carpet.

Delilah walked over and placed a hand on her shoulder.

"She needs time," she said gently.