Daily Taboo Thoughts

Early at 6 am, my car started slowing down, “Damn it, I thought there was enough gas to take me all the way to the hospital”, I said to myself. I was 6 minutes away & now I have to get an Uber, they are 17 minutes away now I have to wait, “Shit, I have to let Mrs. Yalor know that I’m running late.” I was not about to miss my oppurtunity to get any amount of credits in for my college grades, even if it’s partial. I texted my instructor, Mrs. Yalor, & she responded with ‘It’s alright, don’t rush & be safe.’ I felt a bit of heat rushing through my skin as I was suprisingly calmed by her reassurance & hoped she could cut me some slack for this inconvenience. I tried to stay neutral as my feelings grew slightly weary over how I may have developed a crush on her. I thought back to her pearcing light blue eyes that had hints of green to them, slowly wondering how they would look up at me if she were down below & how she could look down at me as I could be below her too. I snapped out of it for a moment because she has a husband & a daughter, who’s older than me & she also has a child, which is makes her a grandma. As the Uber notified me that the driver is 10 minutes away, my mom called me back to let me know she’ll put gas in my car & that she wanted to stay on the phone with me until I made it to the hospital.

Once I made it safely, I texted Mrs. Yalor ‘I am here & ready to be paired with my mentor for the day.’ She came to the break room that I waited for her in & I told her immediately, “Today is just one of those days.”, she agreed & gave me a hug before leading me to the floor where my RN mentor was. The morning went by quicker than yesterday which made me more queasy, & I walked back to the break room for my first 15-minute break.

I saw Mrs. Yalor & told her, “I feel off today, so far the RN needs her space because every plan is up to her but she has her own responsibilities. I feel like I may be in her way if I ask too may questions.”

She pointed towards the chair & told me “You can sit down for a bit, which break are you taking? Your 15 or 30?”

I told her, “My 15.” She scooted her chair over & said “Do you have a plan for your way back home? If not, I can drive you home.”

“I can let you know in a bit, I would need to let my mom know first.” I was unsure on how to ask my mom because she never met Mrs. Yalor. The rest of the day went by rather quickly & I didn’t get a chance to speak to my mom yet, but Mrs. Yalor sent a text to me to let me know we needed to meet at the break room again; I was preoccupied with a patient and didn’t see the text until 30 minuntes later. I walked back to the break room; everyone left & Mrs. Yalor was sitting at a table with her bags along with my backpack. “I can still bring you home if you still need me to”, she said that in a lower tone with her eyes on mine, I felt that heat rush again then I called my mom a few times but no answer. “We can head over, my mom isn’t answering but I’ll just text her.” I saw my mom leaving with my car on the house camera that pointed towards the driveway. Maybe she could come over for a bit to give me more ideas on a Head-to-Toe assessment, I thought to myself as we walked to Mrs. Yalor’s car. We talked for a bit about the hospital, then my mom called me back.

“I’ll be at the store for a bit, let me know when your instructor brings you home.”

“Will do.” I told her. I hung up & Mrs. Yalor looked at me, making eye contact again, “Where to?” she asked.

I gave her the directions to my house & thought Damn I feel like I’m talking her through it. I started drinking my tea to cool off & clear my head so I wouldn’t say anything inapproriate by mistake if I accidently speaking my mind out loud. As we got closer to my house, I noticed she was looking at me after each direction. After she parked in my driveway, I thanked her again & she said “Anytime, & thank you for the ride too.” I laughed & said “I do that same thing where I thank someone for what I did for them.” We laughed before I closed her car door, Ughhh if only she could stay longer. I thought. I walked to the front door & she watched me go inside before driving away. I undressed myself, hung my scrubs up, then went to the bathroom. When I pulled my panties down, I felt the long warm string of wetness following after. SHIT

I moved my hand from my clit down to my labias & felt how hot & moist I was. I couldn’t help it; her constant eye contact, tone, & maturity filled me with comfort & certainty. I wanted to touch myself but couldn’t grasp the fact that she has a husband. It could be an open marriage but she talked about him quite often. I thought of her hands on the sterring wheel & wonder more on how they would feel on me. I took a hot shower & tried to sleep these thoughts away.

I opened my eyes & felt cold, my nipples were hardened as I was wearing nothing but a hospital gown. “Good afternoon, Tilaina. I am Haylee Yalor & I will be your nurse for tonight. The doctor is not in right now but he will check on you tomorrow. For the moment I need to check your vitals.” She looks & sounds like Mrs. Yalor. I nodded for her to proceed. Her hands were warm & soft against my skin. I felt a sharp cold object on the center of my chest as she placed her stethoscope to listen to my lungs. I breathed as slowly as I could before she could listen to my heart racing for her. As she moved lower to check my stomach, I apologized, “I am sorry, there’s a mess I made on the gown.” She looked down & told me “That’s okay, lift your legs up for me to examine the area.” I slowly got my legs up & she provided assistance to correct them to the angle she needed. As she lowered her head in between my thighs, I pressed my knees together, “I am embarrassed.” She looked up at me, “Take another deep breath, I just need to check down here for you.” she said this as she placed both her hands on my knees. She spread them apart to see where my mess was & asked “May I touch you?” I nodded, then she pressed her index softly against my clit & dragged her finger down my vaginal opening, which made me arch my back for her to see more of me. She got up & smiled, “You look stimulated by something, may you describe how you’re feeling as I touch around this area.” She rubbed up & down my clit slowly, “I feel hot around my thighs & turned on my this.” My nipples ached & I desperately want them to be pinched hard. She entered her index finger in while looking up at me to watch my facial expressions. My eyes were set on hers as she would go in & out slowly. She curled her finger inside me, making me moan but I bite my bottom lip to muffle it to avoid any distruption from anyone who would enter the room from the hall outside. She licked her lips & lowered herself as she kept our eye contact, then rubbed her thumb on my clit. I feel another heatwave rushing over my body as she quickened her pace, this time she rubbed her thumb in a circle around my clit. I covered my mouth, trying to quiet my moans. She lifted her head to ask, “I need to examine you some more.” I widened my eyes as she opened her mouth to place her tongue on my clit while her middle finger entered alongside her index. I gripped the gown with my other hand as she licked up & down on me. She curled her fingers as she went faster in me & I moaned harder into my hand. I started to shake as she made my previous mess spread more onto my gown & the paper sheet that I laid on. She changed her tongue movement & circled around my clit with rapid finger curling inside me. My breathing quickened with gasps to help me recollect myself but a rush came over my body as I felt a wetter sensation come out. She removed her fingers & tongue then got up to look at me. “Seems like your stimulation has come to an end, hmm?” She looked down at my eyes & I used my gown to cover my head out of shyness. She pulled my gown down & told me, “I am more than glad that you’re relieved. I will be back to check on you.” Her smile was quite genuine but I knew she was teasing me.

“What the FUCK??” I sat up from my bed with my heart racing & felt wetness through my panties.