Chapter 1 — The Golden Boy
The lecture hall smelled of turpentine and old paper.
Im Si-wan sat in the second row, his sketchbook open to a half-finished charcoal study of a broken vase. The subject was mundane, but his rendering was not—the cracks in the ceramic seemed to bleed outward, shadows curling like smoke from a dying flame. He had been told, more than once, that his eye for decay was unsettling. He took it as a compliment.
Professor Choi Do-hyun stood at the podium, motionless as a marble statue. His suit was charcoal grey, perfectly pressed, not a single thread out of place. His hair was dark and swept back from a face that could have belonged to a Renaissance painting—sharp cheekbones, a mouth that rarely smiled, and eyes the color of tarnished silver. He was thirty-four, the youngest tenured professor in the fine arts department, and every student either worshipped him or feared him. Some did both.
“Destruction is not the opposite of creation,” Do-hyun said, his voice low and unhurried. He never raised his voice. He never needed to. The lecture hall had gone silent the moment he began speaking, eighty students holding their breath like a congregation at mass. “It is the mother of it. Every masterpiece begins with the destruction of a blank canvas. Every sculpture emerges from the violence of the chisel against stone. We romanticize the artist’s hand, but we forget—the hand must break something first.”
Si-wan’s pencil stopped moving. He looked up.
Do-hyun was not looking at the class. He was looking directly at Si-wan.
The professor’s gaze was unnervingly still—not curious, not warm, not cold either. It was the stillness of a predator who had already decided you were prey but was in no hurry to prove it. Si-wan felt the back of his neck prickle. He held the gaze for a heartbeat, two, then dropped his eyes back to his sketchbook.
“The beauty of destruction,” Do-hyun continued, his attention sliding away as if Si-wan had never existed, “lies in its honesty. A broken thing cannot pretend. It reveals its structure, its weaknesses, its truth. The artist’s job is not to hide the cracks. It is to make you fall in love with them.”
Around Si-wan, students scribbled notes. Phones recorded audio. But Si-wan wrote nothing. He was still thinking about the weight of those silver eyes on his face.
After the lecture, the studio was a chaos of easels, paint rags, and the low hum of conversation. Si-wan had claimed his usual corner—a cramped space near the north-facing windows where the light was pale and forgiving. He was working on an assignment: a still life of wilted flowers, the petals brown and curling, the stems slumped like exhausted dancers.
“Still drawing dead things, Si-wan?”
Jung Su-jun’s voice was a scalpel wrapped in silk. She appeared beside his easel, arms crossed, her smile thin and sharp. She was pretty in an obvious way—dyed hair, flawless base makeup, lips glossed pink. She was also the unofficial leader of the university art team, the same team Si-wan had been recruited into six months ago. And she had hated him from day one.
“It’s the assignment,” Si-wan said quietly, not looking up.
“The assignment was ‘still life.’ Not ‘still death.’” Su-jun laughed, and two other students nearby laughed with her—the Pavlovian response of those who wanted to stay on her good side. “But I forget. You’re the talented one. You see things the rest of us don’t.”
The word “talented” dripped with venom. Su-jun had placed second in the last departmental critique. Si-wan had placed first. She had not spoken to him for three days afterward. Now she spoke to him constantly—each word a tiny wound.
“Su-jun, leave him alone.” Chang Ju-ho appeared from behind a stack of canvases, his broad shoulders blocking the fluorescent light. He was the only member of the art team who openly defended Si-wan. “The critique’s in an hour. Don’t you have your own piece to finish?”
Su-jun’s smile tightened. “I finished yesterday. Unlike some people, I don’t need to scrape and repaint until the last minute.” She glanced at Si-wan’s wilted flowers, then back at his face. “You know, if you put as much effort into being interesting as you do into being pathetic, you might actually have friends.”
She walked away, her heels clicking against the concrete floor like a countdown.
Ju-ho crouched beside Si-wan’s easel. “Don’t let her get to you. She’s jealous.”
“I know.” Si-wan picked up a brush, dipped it in watered-down ochre, and added a shadow beneath one of the dead petals. “It doesn’t make it hurt less.”
Ju-ho was quiet for a moment. Then he said, “Did you notice Professor Do-hyun during the lecture?”
Si-wan’s brush paused. “What about him?”
“He was staring at you. The whole time.” Ju-ho lowered his voice. “It was weird, man. I’ve never seen him look at anyone like that. Usually he acts like students are furniture.”
Si-wan’s stomach turned a slow cartwheel. He had felt the stare, of course—the weight of it, the stillness. But hearing someone else confirm it made the feeling solidify into something sharper. Fear, maybe. Or something else. Something he didn’t have a name for.
“I’m sure it was nothing,” Si-wan said. “He probably just noticed I wasn’t taking notes.”
Ju-ho didn’t look convinced, but he let it go.
The group critique was scheduled for four o’clock in Studio B. By three-fifty, the art team had assembled: seven students, their easels arranged in a loose semicircle. Professor Do-hyun would arrive exactly at four, as he always did. He was never early. He was never late. He was as predictable as a clock and twice as cold.
Si-wan had positioned his wilted flower painting at the center of his easel. He was not entirely satisfied with it—the shadows were too heavy, the composition too safe—but it was the best he could do under the circumstances. The circumstances being Su-jun’s constant commentary, the pressure of the team, and the lingering feeling of being watched.
At three-fifty-five, Su-jun’s easel stood empty.
“Where is she?” asked Min-ji, a first-year with braces and nervous hands.
“Probably fixing her lipstick,” someone muttered.
At four o’clock, the studio door opened. Professor Do-hyun walked in, a leather portfolio under his arm. He took his position at the front of the room—a tall stool he never sat on, preferring to stand with his hands clasped behind his back. His silver eyes swept the semicircle, counting heads.
“We are missing one,” he observed. His tone held no concern. It held nothing at all.
“Jung Su-jun, Professor,” Ju-ho said. “She was here earlier. She must have stepped out.”
Do-hyun’s gaze lingered on the empty easel for a moment longer than necessary. Then he turned to Si-wan. Not to the group. To Si-wan alone.
“Im Si-wan. You share a studio with her. Have you seen her?”
The question was polite. The look beneath it was not. Si-wan felt pinned, like a butterfly under glass, every fragile part of him exposed.
“No, Professor,” he said. His voice came out steadier than he felt. “Not since before the lecture.”
Do-hyun nodded slowly, as if filing the information away in a room Si-wan would never be allowed to enter. Then he opened his portfolio and said, “Very well. We will begin without her. Ju-ho, present your piece first.”
The critique proceeded as if nothing were wrong. Students presented their work—a jar of pickled eggs, a crumpled receipt, a mirror with a single crack—and Do-hyun dissected each piece with surgical precision. He was brilliant, Si-wan had to admit. His feedback was never cruel, only absolute. He saw flaws no one else noticed and potential no one else imagined.
When it was Si-wan’s turn, he stepped forward and faced the professor.
“The wilted flowers,” Do-hyun said, studying the canvas. “Explain your choices.”
“I wanted to capture the moment after beauty leaves,” Si-wan said. “Not decay, exactly. But the stillness that comes before it. When the thing is still itself, but you know it won’t be for long.”
Do-hyun was quiet for a long time. When he finally spoke, his voice was softer than Si-wan had ever heard it.
“You have a gift for seeing what others refuse to look at.” He stepped closer, close enough that Si-wan could smell his cologne—cedar and something metallic, like distant rain. “But you hold back. These shadows are careful. Controlled. You are afraid of the dark, Im Si-wan.”
Si-wan’s breath caught. “I’m not afraid.”
“Then paint what you see. Not what you think you’re allowed to show.”
The professor turned away, and the critique continued. But Si-wan’s heart did not slow down for the rest of the hour.
At six o’clock, the critique ended. Students packed up their supplies, stretched their stiff limbs, and drifted toward the door. Si-wan was rolling up a drop cloth when Ju-ho approached him, phone in hand.
“I’ve called Su-jun six times,” Ju-ho said, his brow furrowed. “Straight to voicemail. And her roommate says she never came back after the lecture.”
Si-wan looked at the empty easel, the forgotten palette, the half-empty water cup still sitting beside it. Something cold slid down his spine.
“She probably just went home,” Si-wan said. But even as he said it, he didn’t believe it.
Su-jun was many things—jealous, possessive, cruel—but she was never absent from a critique. She loved attention too much. She would rather die than miss a chance to prove she was better than Si-wan.
Ju-ho shoved his phone into his pocket. “I’m going to Professor Do-hyun’s office. Someone needs to tell him she’s missing.”
Si-wan caught his arm. “Wait. He won’t care.”
“Then someone needs to make him care.”
Ju-ho walked out. Si-wan stood alone in the empty studio, surrounded by the smell of oil paint and the ghost of Su-jun’s perfume.
Outside the window, the sun had begun to set, casting the room in shades of amber and blood. Si-wan looked down at his painting of wilted flowers—the petals brown and curling, the stems bent like broken spines.
He thought about what Do-hyun had said. You are afraid of the dark.
He thought about the way the professor had looked at him. Not like a student. Not like prey, either.
Like a collector who had finally found the piece he’d been searching for.
Si-wan packed his brushes and left the studio, locking the door behind him. In the hallway, the lights flickered once, twice, then steadied.
He did not know yet that Jung Su-jun would never walk through that door again.
He did not know that Chang Ju-ho would be next.
And he did not know that Professor Choi Do-hyun—cold, collected, impeccably polite—was already deciding which drawer in his basement would fit him best.
All Si-wan knew, as he stepped out into the evening air, was that he could still feel those silver eyes on the back of his neck.
And that some part of him—a small, shameful, hungry part—hoped he never stopped feeling them.
End of Chapter 1








