Chapter 1
Chapter 1 - Alone
“Then try harder”,
said my own voice that felt louder than my usual voice.
I’ve lived alone ever since my Dad died,but I still see him everytime I’m in pain or frenzy, I see him brighter than before.
Sometimes in corners of rooms,next to people,next to me.To guide me,protect me from myself,my actions and thoughts that have a record for destroying everything around me.
“Don’t do that,Damian”
“You shouldn’t have done that,Damian”
“What’s wrong with you?, Damian”
are a few words I hear from Dad.....very often.
“It’ll all be fine,Damian”
is something I hear during the more trying times,but it feels.....so...off.
I guess I’m being dramatic for my state though,
I have my sister,Sera and my loving mother Hestia
She might not be mother of the century but she did make the house a home for my fundamental 15 first years,She is a little mean to Sera but I believe that comes with the stress of being a mother.
I heard a knock on the door that also knocked me out of my day dreaming.
“Ma’am , is anyone at home?”
It was a woman’s voice
I looked through the peephole intently, I saw a distorted face but I could not make a mistake about the distinct blue uniform
It was the police
“What do they know?”
“Do I open the door or pretend its empty”
Wait,no I haven’t done anything.
My mother appeared from behind and pummeled me out of the way
“What are you just standing there for? Open the goddamn door,can you do anything right?”
She pulled the door open , It was a female cop,smooth shiny black hair,East asian descent possibly,about an inch shorter than me around 5′7,conventionally attractive...I think.
“Come on in Ada,did your dad send you this way?”
Seems like my mother knew this woman.
seems like my mother can make friends
“Yes ma’am my dad sent the flowers you asked for last week,Dad’s restaurant will be closed for another week or so ,I was off duty anyways so thought I’d drop by”
“Oh, You did not have to,its hot outside isn’t it,lemme get you some orange juice since you’ll be heading home anyways”
“Oh,its alright ma’am,I have to go leave the police car back at the department and then go home”
“Damian here could drop you home if that’s alright”
*nope,too sunny,not happening*
“Its alright ma’am, I could just take the public bus like a million other people”
*Okay now i feel bad*
“Oh my mom’s right I’d love to take you home”
“Oh wow your son’s sweet”
“Don’t let it get to his head,Its just how we are supposed to treat people”
“Right... I’ll go drop her then”
I’m following my mother’s friend’s daughter who is a cop back to her station,“following” with consent, what’s that called?.
Who knew I’d have to follow a cop, what am i doing?.
Yeah, I see the police station slowly getting larger.
*I look to the right*
She’s smiling at me from her car.
..
I should smile back
Oh god i should look forward,
Is eating and driving legal? how far away is it from drinking and driving,what if my donut is soaked with alcohol? is that drinking and driving?
I should focus on this task at hand
I am smiling at her.
Okay 10 or maybe 15 minutes away from a cop in my car, she is doing her thing, Oh did i tell you I love music?
Hope she likes music,I wonder if she would like rock music, I mean everyone likes rock music.
*tap tap*
I turned to my right to see her,she’s at the door
She always had a constant smile on her face but it never seemed forced, it just seemed like...I dont kn-
*tap *tap**
oh, car door.
“Hey, you okay?? you seemed a little dazed”
“Oh, well I was waiting i guess I did not see you...soo which way?”
“Its a few miles straight on the main road,I’ll guide you there”
“Oki dokey away we go”
*she giggled as she looked at my face*
did i look stupid?
“Soo um, the road, It’s convenient isn’t it? straight road from work and all”
“Yeah it is there is a direct bus too, its pretty cheap,saves on the tax money people spend on my salary haha”
“Oh, I’d totally give you my tax money,I’m sure you do a good job”
“Here to protect and serve *giggles*”
I felt a little tension near my mouth.
“Oh right there,that’s my home ,you can stop right here”
I halted my car near her place.It was a fairly modest, Dingy little place with a lot of colourful plants outside, The house in itself looked old but very well maintained It had a mildly yellowing walls on the outside with a rain water pipe? looked like a rain water harvesting system.
“Come on in,take a break lemme get you some tea”
“Oh no i gotta go,I’m gonna begin getting spam calls from Sera and mom”
“Sera?”
“Oh,she is my little sister”
“Oh your mom never told me about her”
*really? I thought she would’ve considering their close and warm relationship*
“Maybe she missed it, you know old age..bad memory”
“hmm,probably”
“Alright then have a good day”
“You too,Bye”
I just watched her walk away and....she turned ...okay I should leave now it just looks creepy.
Alright enough social contact for the year time to slumber in my dark cave as I stare at the glow of CRT monitors.
Its a Saturday, maybe I shou- *phone rings*
“Yea?”
“Damian,Mom’s calling she’s throwing things around again, come home”
“Be there in a jiffy” *phone snaps close*
...
So much for a peaceful saturday,Time to micromanage my fairly stable family.
Deal with an erratic mother,Internship, Final year project ..I’ll just solve world hunger while I’m at it.
