The beginning of the end
Chapter 1
In the dim lit room I stare at my reflection in the mirror, the olive green eyes stare back at me as I bit down on my lower lip sucking the juicy lip gloss I have already applied.
I low chuckle broke free from behind me "so when are you planning to tell me if where exactly you're going" I turned, my gaze settled on her figure sitting on the edge of the bed. My lips part open trying to form a lie that I knew it was gonna be weak "Am just going out"
Mia groaned bouncing to her feet from the bed swifting toward me "Look at you babe, you look like you've seen a ghost...there's no way you're just going out" she paused for a heartbeat letting her suspicions settle over me "spill the tea girl...where to."
My gaze settle on the bed 7 steps away from us, I needed a lie... a strong one but I can't form one. Her eyes narrowed as if she just found out she's being betrayed "you're not breaking up with Lorenzo are you?" My lips part open, how did she know "how did you know" I ask not wanting an answer but to ease the tension...it didn't work "What Stella no, you're not doing that"
"Am sorry but I have to...this is about me after all" I try to reason with her but her eyes were wild and stubborn."I know he's your friend but sometimes you just need to let me take care of my personal life" I try again but this time I just don't want things to be awkward "Let me guess the same stupid excuse, he's too nieve for you"
"It's not an excuse Mia...I try to reason with you but you're too stubborn" I say my voice rising in frustration but I quickly regret it when I realize that she still has that stubborn look. "Stella you're gonna regret this..." she whispered tearing her eyes off my face "the only thing I'll regret is braking his heart...not losing him" I mumbled not for her ears but for my inner thoughts.
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I paced back and forth in the quiet dimly lit street. He hasn't arrived I've been here for more than 5 minutes and am getting anxious the more I keep pacing. Under the street lamp lights a figure appears charging towards me, It's Lorenzo and the moment he stopped in front of me he was breathing heavily.
"First time being late and am sorry babe" he mumbled breathlessly palms on his knees trying to catch some air "where were you?" I asked whispering back "I was in the library but I came the second I saw your text" this is it...the reason I don’t want him, see he was in the library, he's just too nerdy for me.
"I don't remember planning a date or did something happen" I quickly shook my head trying to denie the truth but it was already burning on my toung "no...I mean yes...listen I...no we need to talk" I stammered on my own words suddenly feeling worse that I already did.
"Ok am here babe talk to me" he smiled sweetly and I would be lying if say I wasn't on the verge of crying "So...I thought that we should try to uhm...forget about us"
Silence
Silence
Silence
"Forget about us...?" he asked and I could read the confusion written all over his face.
"Yes, yes I mean like we are not working out can’t you see" I say trying to reason with him "we are not working out?" he whispers back and gosh he's driving me nuts, the more he keeps repeating what am saying is the more he's making this awkward and making me nervous. "Lorenzo we are too different for each other that's why this isn't working out"
"They say two opposites attract so what are you saying" I snapped my patience running thin "for goodness sake we are not in some stupid physics snap out of it...just accept it" I swallowed hard regretting for snapping at him.
"Five months Stella...you're throwing five months of this relationship to waste" my lips part at his statement but no words were forming "tell me who's fault it is that we need to break up" I locked eyes with him, well it’s not my fault that he's boring and too nerdy and am definitely not lying about myself.
The sweetness in his eyes faded within seconds leaving his icy blue eyes cold, I've never seen this side of him. The atmosphere grew thick with tension and all the playfulness in me faded. I refuse to look away or show weakness not when his true colors were about to show but deep down...am scared of whatever is coming.
A sharp ringing broke through the silence making me flinch back from my position, I quickly dug my hand on my purse yanking my phone out. Who ever is calling, I owe that person a hug at least I had an excuse to get away from Lorenzo.
As I stared at the light blue screen I saw my mother's name bright and clear, I shift my gaze back up to meet Lorenzo's intense one still locked on me not daring to look away. "It's my mother I need to take this" due to respect for my mother he lowered his gaze slow and steady.
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The color of his eyes, the shape of his eyes even his voice...I just can’t recall them, it's like he's a stranger to me. He barely glances at me or acknowledges my presence when am around, I know am the one who cut ties with him and maybe I was stupid thinking I could be friends with him.
I respect his decision just like he respected mine but seeing him forgetting me this easily does hurt my pride, maybe he was never who I thought he was after all.
