Chapter 1
CHAPTER 1: INTRO
We had our love which was pure and sweet. It was pure because it began early as I thought, it was there when we were young. I knew our love was meant to be. He is the only one who gave me the affection and love . The amount of love I needed he provided. Who would not want a guy who looked at you with love and affection? Who treated you like his treasure? He loved me and I knew he cared about me so much. I knew I loved him. My mind tells me that I do love him.
And suddenly like a quick breeze his love faded. I lost him slowly. It just happened and I watched. He slipped out of my hands distancing himself from me. I hated it and became bitter with hate. I didn't hate him, I hated myself because I knew it was my fault not his. Even though his love died slowly, I still knew he loved and Cared just like before and If he doesn't realize this sooner, I will show him with so much passion. Even though he refuses to see it, I will show him it is only my love that matters. I will show him that I'm the only one that's made for him in this life. That's how my so called love turned into a sinister obsession masterminded by the devil's whisper.
Kim, a very attractive man. Hardworking and lovable from Jos. But I wasn't from there though. I was from Benue State but my family moved to Jos when I was five. I and him were neighbours and we attended the same primary and secondary school. We became best friends in primary school even though Kim was ahead of me with a class and in grade 8 he asked me out and yes was the answer.
I will admit, I was an over protective girlfriend but what could I have done when Kim was every girls dream. He was dark and tall, brilliant, had pink full lips, had an enchanting smile and laughter. He kept his hair in an afro and had dove eyes which he hides behind his medicated glasses. He was very outgoing and was a typical flirt. I had told him how envious I was when he flirts with other girls but he always whispered into my ears " You are the only one I like". Those words weren't what I was going for. Sometimes I wondered what he loved and not liked in me. When he moved into Grade ten, he began to moved with his seniors and they never wanted me near but endured because of the golden boy.
Two years later, Kim got admission into Bells university. I was indeed happy for him but when I went to Lagos to spend some time with him, I could see some of his female friends checking him out. I was so insecure about it and I had confronted him but he just parted me and smiled. I was agitated but he kissed me on the cheek as he always does.
I wondered why he never kissed me. We have been dating for years and our kissing had not extended from the cheeks. Anytime I tried he would say he's not comfortable or in the mood. I didn't mind because I believed my trust issues were getting in the way and Kim never broke any of his promises, always being on time and always being there for me. I fell in love with him more.
Finally, it was time for me to go to university as I had chosen Bells since Kim was there. The thought of being closer to him made me happy. At least I could put an eye on him and make sure those girls stay far away. When I told Kim I will be coming to Bells, I could hear his voice break through the phone then he asked, "Don't you think we should just have our space?" . Even though it was said nicely, I just couldn't get it out of my head. "What do you mean by that Kim? We are a couple so what space?", My eye twitching.
My mother listened to our conversation and when we were done, she began her speech. "I think he's right darling. You have been... Sticky on him and I think you shouldn't be more sticky. I'm not trying to say anything harsh but I think this is too much. You visit him every month even though you have school and now you are off to the same university, I think it's too much. You don't even like Bells, It's not late to change your mind, you could go to Neil?", Her mother smiled as Luna stood up and walked away. "If I were in Kim's shoes, I would have jumped off a bridge", her sister who was also present said as her mother rolled her eyes.
When I arrived at Bells, he introduced me to his friends even though I knew most of them and he showed me around. Every month he took me to the movies, the beaches where we took little walks. We experienced our love and I never wanted to loose it. We made so much memories together which I can never forget. We watched Netflix horror movies at night, we played games together, he got a dog for me but he already had a cat called Muzzy who hated me. Kim was a total cat lover as he treated his cat like a daughter. Muzzy and my dog Tobi never got along but other days they were playmates. It was a typical hate and love relationship. After the fights with Tobi, little Muzzy tippy toes to her beloved owner for protection which annoys me.
- I hated little Muzzy and she hated me too. Anytime I and Kim are having our romantic time, Muzzy comes in to ruin everything. She snuggles into his arms and he becomes distracted. When I try to push her away she hisses at me."It's okay Muzzy. Shush before Luna bursts", Kim would say and the demonic cat meows in response then he laughs. She just annoys me, especially when she sleeps on my side of the bed in Kim's villa with him cuddling her. Maybe it's because he wants to be a veterinarian", my mind told me as I ignored them.
Our lives had been going smoothly, Just little arguments which didn't last long. But then, the worst finally happened when Kim started distancing himself from me . I asked him the matter but he said it was his work which is time consuming. He had become a student veterinarian in an old man's hospital.I didn't know what to say, I just left him because anytime he arrives home he is tired. I told him my concerns, telling him he has another girl but he said he doesn't". On a cold night when he came home we had a serious argument with me attacking him with lots of questions and my anger rose as bad thoughts came into my head but I pushed it away. I was just a concerned girlfriend and wasn't ready to lose my man.
After it, my inner voice started to question if he ever loved me cause I don't remember him saying that. My head advised me to let him be and move on. But my other voices told me he was just shy of saying it and I just needed to show him even though it resulted to violence. My brain became confused as it became pressured. I knew Kim wasn't a shy person but my head shushed me at once and manipulated me into believing he was. I believed anything because I loved him.
There wasn't communication between us anymore I tried my best to make that communication work, which it did. We talked but it didn't last long as he was always working. And on that unfortunate day, Kim called it off when he returned home. "What do you mean Kim?", I asked. "I... I mean I would like to break up this relationship", Kim said.
" I don't understand", I asked."Okay Luna, I would want this relationship to end",Kim said. "This relationship was great and I enjoyed it but I just think it's time for it to end Luna. I liked you but I now love you as a friend and that won't change for anything ,but it's time for us to go our separate ways. We could still talk.... but this time... as friends",Kim said while holding my hands.
I could hear my inner voice screaming at me. My head thudded and I could see myself smashing Kim's head on the wall." Leave him Luna. ", I heard a voice say."Kim listen to me. I feel you are just stressed because of your work so you don't know how to think now. You just need to rest", I tried reasoning with him but he didn't listen.
" Is it because of the fight Kim? I promise I'm so sorry. It wouldn't happen again. I would change if my character isn't right, I promise", I held his shirt. "No Luna it isn't you. I just think today marks the end of our relationship. I just need space out of a relationship right now. It's difficult to explain... Space is what I need , a new air out of a relationship. What are you saying?, Luna whispered.
"Leave him Luna just move on", my good voice advised. "No Luna, prove to him you are the only one he needs in this life. "He Said he loved you but he doesn't realize it yet", another voice said.. "Do you have a girl in mind", I asked him."No I don't", Kim answered. "That's it. During this period, you will show Kim he can't survive without you. He loves you Luna but he doesn't want to admit it but you will make him realize even if you both will die", I heard the voice as it whispered into my ears.I wish you good luck Kim, I said with a smile.
That voice then turned into my sweet melody, Which turned into a friend that whispered ideas to me. It was toxic, It put deadly venoms which corrupted my mind. This venom was full of desperation, longing , obsession and addiction. You know that melodious tone Which can't get out of your head just after listening to a song , that's how it was. I was addicted to it's voice and that's how I shut the good voice becoming intoxicated by the other. That's how I Luna, gave into my demonic whispers.
