Dear diary

Monday 12/09/2026

Dear diary

This morning I woke up tired both mentally and physically it was at this time i realized no mater how much I sleep there are some things sleep can't fix

Life is starting to feel like a prison and a routine nothing original just the same sadness and misery

But diary don't get me mistaken I'm not depressed I'm just unhappy

I mean have I thought of killing myself absolutely do I pretend to be happy even when I'm not absolutely but that doesn't mean I'm depressed or maybe I'm in denial

Every day before going out I put on a fake smile and go on my day making people laugh and cracking jokes

Behind the scenes I feel empty and overwhelmed I feel like im loosing myself bit by bit everyday

I also feel like I'm gonna die young I mean I do have plans for the future you know the normal stuff get married , get rich , have beautiful kids and live fruitfully but even with those plans I can't see myself right there

And I'm trying my best to make sure I heal but if my mental health gets the better of me just know i have tried