REMNANTS

ALEXANDER

The bright sunlight welcomed me early in the morning. Stirring in my sleep, I turned to my right towards my daughter.

Stirring in her sleep, she covered her eyes with my arm. "Dadda tell the sun to go away please "

My lips stretched into a little smile. My little girl, my beautiful girl.

Her hair all over the pillow, her pinkish cheek pressed against the pillow, her lips formed a pout.

"How long will you sleep, sweetheart?" I asked while running my hair in her brown-goldenish hair.

"Alittle more dadda" she snuggled into my chest. I placed a kiss on her forehead.

I stayed there in the same position with my baby in my arm sleeping. She was my peace, a piece of my heart, the radiance of my life.

I gently pull my arm away and step out of the bed. I went to the washroom to do my daily routine.

I came out after half an hour, dressed in black pant and white shirt.

"Come on princess get up" I say before sitting on the bed beside her. She gently rubs her eyes while sitting up on the bed.

"Morning dadda" she looks at me with her gorgeous grey eyes which she inherited from me.

"Good morning sweetheart " I place her on my lap and attack her face with kisses.

"Daddaaaaa stoppppppp" she says between her giggles.

"Noooooooooo" I say with a chuckle. "Ewwww dadaaaa" she pouts while rubbing her cheeks.

"Let's get you ready " She nods. I pick her in my arms and head towards the washroom.

After showering her, I make her wear black trouser with white shirt matching my outfit.

"Dadaa" she calls out while I dry her wet hair.

"Yes my love"

"When will mumma come back" my hands freeze at her question.

"Soon baby soon" I continue my work

"You always say that dadda " she looks down sadly making my heart clench.

Turning her towards me, I kiss her cheek "why isn't dadda good ?"

She looks at me with her doe eyes shinning with tears "Your amazing dadda but I miss mumma" she sniffs.

Biting my lower lip I look her remembering Clara.

FLASHBACK

"Come on Alexander, the baby can't even move" she says rolling her eyes.

"So what I know she can hear her dadda" I roll my eyes.

"She?" She asks with a chuckle to which I nod.

"Yeah, I know it's gonna be a girl" she laughs again shaking her head

"I think it's a boy" I sit up looking at her "no it's gonna be a girl"

"Oh okay sir it's gonna be a girl " she pulls me back into her arms.

"I am a little scared clara" I confess honestly.

"Don't worry, everything will go smoothly " she pecks my lips.

"Your getting weaker day by day Clara,it's not funny anymore" I look into her eyes, the eyes that feel like home, which make me feel at peace.

"I am gonna be okay,I promise you " she says before placing her lips on mine.

END

Pushing back my tears I focus on my daughter, "I am sorry baby ".

"Why Dadaa?" She asks in a innocent voice making me want to burst into tears.

"For not being enough" I whisper to myself.

"Did you say something dadda?" I shake my head putting on a fake smile.

"Let's go meet grandpa" she nods excitingly and runs out of the room.

A tear slips down from the corner of my eye before I can stop it.

Please come back Clara, please I can't do this.

I call her knowing she will never answer

I need you please, our daughter needs you baby please

I wipe my tears heading downstairs towards my father's room where I could hear Arielles laughter.

I step inside the room where arielle is sitting on dad's stomach playing with his beard.

I lean against the door looking at them. A small smile on my lips admiring them.

"Look dadda, grandpa has hair on his face " she makes a bad face making both of us laugh.

I don't have a beard so Arielle doesn't like dads beard. She says it's tickles and feels bad too.

"You know grandpa, dadda said mumma is coming soon" my smile drops at her comment and so does my dads.

"Yes, she is Ari " he says making me frown.

"Why don't you go and do your breakfast " she nods at dads statement and runs out towards the kitchen where the chef is cooking her breakfast.

"Come Alexander, sit " I nod and sit beside him.

"How's your health dad?" He smiles And replied" I am great, I have you both so I am great"

I smile and place a kiss on his palm. "Get married Alexander "

I exhale a deep breath before saying "I don't need a wife dad "

He nods "you don't need a wife , I agree but doesn't Arielle need a mother?"

I hate it, I hate that no matter what I do-it's not enough. At the end of the day, she still asks for her mother.

I gave her everything, a luxurious life, all the love I have inside me yet she still needs a mother and I don't blame her. I did too, when I was her age I needed my mother too.

I used to ask my dad the same question my daughter now asks Me. How do you explain to a 5 year that some people go so far that they never return, no matter how much you cry or beg, they don't come back.

"Am I lacking somewhere dad?" I couldn't help but ask.

"What no " he cups my face in his hands "Your an amazing father Alexander "

"So why does she ask about her mother again and again dad" I question looking down.

"Because she needs her Alexander " he kisses my forehead " Clara can never come back, she is too far away now. Arielle needs a mother Alexander, don't steal her childhood because of your selfishness"

"How am I being selfish dad? I can't give Clara's place to anyone else " he nods again and answers

"Don't give her place to anyone, keep her where she is. Just make a little space for someone who will make you wanna live again, who will make you feel at peace. "

I take a deep breath before nodding "okay dad, I will do it for Arielle "

His eyes widen in shock

"I am ready to get married"

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