It all started with a grudge

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𝓥𝓮𝓻𝓸𝓷𝓲𝓬𝓪'𝓼 𝓟𝓞𝓥

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CONTENT WARNING

It All Started With A Grudge is a mature WLW story intended for adult readers (18+).

This story contains themes and scenes that may be triggering or uncomfortable for some readers, including:

Sexual content and mature sexual themes References to intimacy and sexual situations Abusive relationships Emotional and psychological abuse Physical abuse Manipulation and controlling behavior Trauma and PTSD-related themes Homophobia and discrimination Forced separation and abandonment Family conflict and strained relationships Violence and physical fights Illegal street racing Dangerous driving and reckless behavior Alcohol and substance references Profanity and strong language Jealousy, possessiveness, and toxic behavior Grief, emotional distress, and mental-health struggles Mentions of past trauma and abuse Characters making unhealthy decisions and mistakes

Some events may be emotionally heavy and are included as part of the characters' stories and development.

Please read at your own discretion.

This story contains fictional characters and situations. Abuse and toxic behavior portrayed in the story are not intended to be romanticized or presented as healthy relationship behavior.

18+ only.

Now with the story enjoy and sit back your in for a long ride🖤: Now playing -The walls by chase Atlantic

It all started when I was eighteen and Astride was nineteen we were childhood friends who were practically inseparable neighbors at that since childhood we were the best of friends until we both turned sixteen when we both had confessed our feelings for eachother and started dating secret in relationship but it was "forbidden "Astride had three older brothers and strict parents & three older brothers who were very protective so we had to hide our relationship until I turned eighteen and had been in the room losing my virginity when astrids mom had walked in and caught us it was awkward.

After that day I never saw Astrid again its like she just disappeared right after she had taken my virginity, like she fell off the face of the earth ironically..no text , no calls just nothing for weeks..months..years eventually I gave up and became angry at the world and developed an grudge and got caught up in some questionable situations for the feeling of freedom..now im twenty-three and have been a illegal street racer since I was eighteen..now I have an reputation there since I have proved myself time and time again but there's still this feeling of missing Astrid she was my best friend my ..girlfriend at the time whatever.

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I look around realizing the race is about to start , the crowd cheering " the black dove"my racing name & I can hear other cars Rev their engine. I walk over to my race car its fast but it's old and get in the driver seat of my race car gripping the steering wheel hoping and praying that this car doesn't give out on me " not tonight " I have people expecting me to win fans watching me I glance up realizing the race is about to start I put my left foot on the gas while staying still hoping to get somewhat of a kick start.

The light blinks green and I step on the gas, getting a headstart my mind races back to Astrid. *"how can she leave me after taking my virginity"* that question rings in my mind over and over again making me lose focus on the race monetarily as I hear a car reving to get past me I snap back into reality stepping on the gas hoping to win and using my anger as fuel .

I step harder on the gas the speed damn near dangerous but I don't care that much. I see the speed increase as I pass the finish line in first place and the crowd screaming " black dove" over and over again as I rest my head on the steering wheel panting out of Breath as I almost lost control by thinking about Astrid while driving.

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I step out of the car once it's safe putting on a fake smile for my fans as I get handed another yet trophy as I look in the stands holding my trophy and spot a familiar face almost dropping my trophy and whisper quietly to myself clutching My shirt and frowning"Astrid?!", as my heart races and my eyes widen.

I take a deep breath thinking it was just my imagination and that Astrid is still gone, so I go back to focusing on my fans by signing autographs and smiling tho it doesn't reach my eyes & occasionally glancing back at the stands where I thought I saw Astrid standing but I see my friends walking over congratulating me on winning first place and they suggest that I got a party to celebrate my win , I hesitate as I'm not a big party person before answering

"yes" .

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As I follow my friends I can't help but glance back at the stands where I thought I saw Astrid, and I get into the passenger seat looking out the window visibly distracted as my friends drive towards the club chatting about their days.

Eventually after what feels like forever the car finally parks and I get out before following my friends inside the busy club as the neon lights surrounds us and the cigarette smoke smell, I immediately walk to the bar and order a glass of whiskey while my friends order tequila taking a sip of my whiskey , and I look around realizing that this club is extremely busy tonight and I start getting a little anxious as I haven't been out in public for a couple months but I know I needed to let loose.

Now playing- Right Now by Partynextdoor 🖤

I walk to the dance floor feeling a little tispy and start dancing on the busy dance floor when I lock eyes with some other female a stranger who had black long straight hair and a red leather jacket they look familiar really familiar but older & intimidating and meaner not to mention smells like cigarette smoke and I notice the scars but im drunk so I may be seeing wrong. I brush it off and continue dancing to the beat finally letting loose and enjoying myself really viking to the music until I bump into the same person who has been eyeing me all night its Astrid.

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I look up " *Watch where your going* "acting as if I didn't know it was Astrid she just shrugged and ignored me " *what are you too cocky to apologize or something you bumped into me*" she replies "*Your drunk princess*" I roll my eyes and say*"No Shit*" she just does that annoying smirk and says"*Okay smart-ass I'm sorry for bumping into you"*I reply "*I'm surprised I didn't expect you to apologize"*she rolls her eyes *" You don't know me princess "I sigh realizing Astrid is right I whisper barely audible"*Your right" I say reluctantly not wanting to admit it with bitterness and anger directed at the person who left without any explanation is now back "*Great"* I mumble irratiable . Astrid just snickers with that stupid ego of hers and I roll my eyes and ask "so after all this time your back why?" Her expression turns serious almost unreadable and replies back " What you didn't miss me princess" I roll my eyes again "*no why would I miss you , you left ME after taking my Virginity its supposed to be the other way around..could you atleast explain why you left?" .

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Now playing-Letter home by childish gamino

Astrid hesitates before her expression and demeanor turned defensive & bitter as if she was angry at something or someone before I myself frowned "do you have something to tell me Astrid? " And Astrid replies "* not tonight"* I roll my eyes " if not tonight then when?"she sighs as if it its something heavy and explains "that night when my mom caught us she had enrolled me into a boot camp the next day for being gay ,you thought I wanted to fucking leave? I had no choice..I cared about you and I had to live in a boot camp for 5 years..because my fucked up mother was homophopic and sent away her only daughter because she believed it was a phase so you don't get to sit there judging me you have no idea what I've been through "I find myself getting angry at astrids parents but also sympathy for Astrid I had no clue shes been through all that but im also angry for her.

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For a moment, I don't know what to say. Five years of anger suddenly feel meaningless compared to what she's just told me. I still want answers. I still have so much resentment buried inside me. But looking at her now, all I can see is the girl I used to love-the girl who never actually chose to leave me.

I don't say anything. I just step forward and pull her into my arms.

No words instead of saying useless words I throw myself in her arms to embrace her in a hug because under all the anger for her leaving she was once my friend and girlfriend . She freezes "what are you--" I only hug her tighter and say"give in , your safe" she hesitates before wrapping her arms tightly around me and saying "don't get used to it" I know shes set on hating affection so I reply "you couldn't count on it"

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𝓘 𝓭𝓸𝓷'𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓷.

𝓘 𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓯𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓸 𝓵𝓮𝓽 𝓹𝓮𝓸𝓹𝓵𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓰𝓾𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰𝓼 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓸𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓻 𝓸𝔀𝓷.