Chapter 1
Truly I would be lying if I said am doing okay,
To myself
"No matter what I do I just cant seem to have
this love nor compassion towards myself, truly all I
can say are harsh words, words that evoke wrath
inflicting pain upon myself everyday, how can I
lord move from all this anger that lies within
me? Surely there has to be a way. I feel sorrowful
for my soul yet unempathetic, unapologetic for how
I feel even if it was unfair even if am hurting.
I believe I deserve nothing but pain and
emptiness for not just things Ive done but
things I haven't or have not already done, just
merely existing I dont see why I should seize
to be alive, my own existence angers me ever so much, honestly am disgusted with myself
that I wonder and truly am yearning
for a answer how can I not feel this
way father, how can I move away from
this path am walking into thats filled with
evil and emptiness how can I move away
from the judgement I cast on myself? How lord?!
truly I would love to know.
