Chapter 1
I remember when I lost you, it was as if time had stopped. I remember feeling complete dread even before the news had came to light. I think I knew the moment you left this plane, and then my worst fear came out to be true. I heard the foots step of the doctor walking towards me, and somehow I knew. Everything in me went numb. When the words final fell from his lips, the world around me.. went completely silent. The only words I heard him say was “I’m sorry to tell you but he didn’t make it…” I remembered pausing in place, and it felt like my heart had dropped to the pit of my stomach. I felt the air around me thin, and my eyes started to become blurry. And I remember saying “What?”as if I was surprised or didn’t hear him. And he repeated the words “I’m so sorry”. And I felt the tears fall down my face, I wanted to fall to my knees but I resisted gravity and held myself up
. I took a big gulp and I said “ Your lying”in repeat. I didn’t even give him a chances to speak again. I ran passed him and ran into his room as fast as I could. I remembered my feet felt like gravity boats weighing me down, and the heavy feeling on my chest felt like a huge paper weight. But I resisted the urge to stop and catch my breath. But when I finally reached your room I stopped at your doorway. And I walked up to your bedside, and I looked at your lifeless body. And I broke down in my place. I got to your bed side and I dropped to my knees. And all I had held in me, release.
