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Once in eternity... (a song)

I almost sang this song aloud when I arrived at the office of a well-known digital company and the cold air was blowing. While the content production department team was introducing me to the office, my eyes and ears are not focused on the introduction, but all my attention is in the chief's room, my idol's room.

"What's your name?"

"And... I?

"Didn't you hear me?"

My mentor, her name is Yah. She looks at me with anger, but she sees That I'm still focused on the boss's office. She seems to understand that I could ask about the frosted glass room with a dim light inside.

"Did you feel cold looking at that room?... You're just an intern. I don't think it's necessary for you to get in touch with Chief M.L."

Note:

M.L. = Mohm Luang - The last title of the Thai royal

family or the son of a king's great-grandson.

"Chief M.L.?"

"Yes, we call her Chief M.L., did you know that? Is she that famous?"

I nod and smile. Clear... I also knew Chief M.L.

She's the reason I have to try as hard as I can to work here.

No one knows how much I tried to be like her.

"If I pass the training program, can I meet her?"

"Well, i'm not going to Mon is your name, right?" Yah smiles at me, revealing her wrinkled eyes that make it clear that she is older than me. "Sure, if you pass the program you'll find her, but you'll meet her? I don't know why an intern would have reason to communicate with our boss."

"No way?"

I'm disappointed. How can I find her with her being thd boss here? My duty is to follow the team. I might have some other chance.

"No way"

I'm changing my smile. Yah looks at me and smiles mercifully.

"When you smile, it brightens up the atmosphere.Unlike the M.L. who never smiled, has she ever been happy in life?"

"Khun* Sam... Oh... Chief M.L." I'm trying to call you like the others to blend in here. "I saw in a magazine that she smiled."

Note: 'Khun' is a formal pronoun used before the name.

"Only when she is forced by the situation. Usually, she's never in the mood to cheer us up. She looks better in her office."

Why did I feel yah doesn't like her? To me, my heroine is so excited. Know? All these years I've been following her closely. There's nothing about her I don't know about.

I even know she just got back from a Japanese restaurant... I'm following her on Instagram.

"You said I might have a chance... When?"

"Tonight Mr. Kirk, the owner of the company, will attend a party to celebrate that the company has hit the goal. Unfortunately it is not the annual trip to Hokkaido."

She said that like she was dreaming of a fairy tale. Looking at the current economy, I felt empathy for the entrepreneur. Just one party is enough for me.

When I'm passing through the boss's office, the door suddenly opens for someone I was hoping to see. My heart skips a beat. Now I'm looking down embarrassed like I'm afraid she recognizes me.

It's a secret love. The smell of Chanel Number 5 is spreading through the room. The little woman passed them all by. I can feel the coldness of everyone here. The tension's in the air.

"Phew... She's gone."

"Why do they get tense like that? Like a rock."

"Don't you? You've lowered your head too, haven't you?"

"I... I'm just shy, I'm not afraid, but the others..."

"It is better to avoid eye contact with her. If you don't want to be cursed."

"Is this serious?"

"Yes, i'm sorry. I'm serious."

Although I've been somuch more convinced about her, I'm hoping to find Chief M.L., the one I've been loving for a long time. I don't think anyone in this office knows M. L. Samanun as well as I do.

You could say I'm a real fan of hers.

I've been waiting over ten years to find this woman.

Although I may remember her sweet face, she probably doesn't know who I am. OK. I'm here with no expectation. Just loving and following this beautiful, intelligent woman is enough for me.

Now I've become an intern, and the older men keep talking and visiting me because I'm new here. Like a student got into the middle of the course and everyone was paying attention. I tried hard not to draw attention among women, because they are full of envy and I do not want to have problems.

The company has run media, advertising and print media production services. They have survived so far because they have moved into the digital world with social media strategies and the vision of Khun Sam, who is called chief M.L. here... One day I'll be like her.

My duties are to manage documents and the commitments of this department...

But I'm so happy. My happiness depends not only on the work, but watching it behind the frosted glass. Sometimes she goes out to go to the bathroom and then goes back to work in her living room. What a working woman.

I'm jealous and I understand her boyfriend at the same time. A smart woman like that, i'm sure no man will like it.

"Hey, guys. Are you ready?"

When the clock struck six o'clock at night, a good-looking boy and casual clothes came smiling cheerfully at us. Everyone dropped their posts and smiled.

"Ready!"

They made a sound of happiness. It could be because they finished the job and they're on their way to the party. Even I made noise.

Oh... my heart is beating so fast. I'll see her face up close.

"Then I'll see you at the Na-Mo coffee shop. Let's enjoy it!"

"Come on!!!"

They're clapping like savages who are on the hunt for a sacrifice. Suddenly everyone is silent when the frosted glass door that everyone calls the 'freezing room' is opened and Khun Sam's little body, whom everyone fears, is leaving.

The tiny body is wearing a casual black blouse, which looks luxurious when it's on your body. Flawless makeup. His face is so sweet and charming staring everyone with his brown eyes.

"What an animation, huh? Haven't you ever been to dinner?" She said with her anasalada voice after putting her hands in her pockets. "Do you also think you're a leader of protesters? Noisy."

"Nervous."

The excited boy's hand lands on her shoulder. I'm impressed with their height difference, she's so cute.

Everyone here respects you a lot, and that's funny to me... Maybe I'm the only one who thinks she's so... adorable.

The one where I love everything you do.

The Na-Mo cafeteria is reserved for our party. The owner is a friend of Mr. Kirk's, so it was easy to close for us. I found out that today's smiling guy owns our company, and he's Khun Sam's fiance.

A perfect match.

To make us more comfortable, Khun Sam and Mr. Kirk stayed in a private area. You're me off. I thought I'd see Khun Sam's face up close.

"What's wrong with you? She looks grumpy."

I'm just in front of the bathroom mirror. My colleagues are talking to me while I'm retolling my makeup.

"Nothing, I'm just bored. I thought I'd see Khun Sam up close today.”

"God! It's better that way. If you see her, you won't enjoy dinner."

I said, "Why?"

"A lifeless woman like her will make you sick of food."

i said, "Exactly." Another colleague said in support, and whispered. "Her face is so straight... must be Botox effect, never smile and never express anything. Even when you're angry.

"But everyone fears her." I said without thinking about being new here. They agreed and explained.

"We're afraid of her because we don't know what she's thinking. It's hard to predict. She's never been happy? We don't know that. Even when she found out that an accounting person is in a relationship with another of the purchasing team, she didn't express anything on her face."

"Is it because of your stillness? I think it's because she's bossy.

"It would be better if she were bossy, we could deal with her. But that, we don't know how to deal with."

"No, all I know is that she's not like that."

"Do you know her well?"

"I don't know her... well. But she's the kind of woman who lights up the world with her smile and she likes dogs."

"Does she like dogs? I always thought she liked cats." After my colleague finishes ironing her lipstick, she walks away. "Hurry up, or there won't be anything left for you."

I said, "Yes."

After they all leave. I'm still bored in the bathroom.It's like my expectation is down the drain. It would be nice to be able to see you for at least a minute.Just a minute, but I don't stand a chance.

So, what am I doing here?

I look thoughtful at my feet for a moment, so I hear someone flush. There's someone else here.

Noise….

The door is opened by a woman the same height as me, and the smell of Chanel number five attacks me. My heart misses the beat and I see in the mirror brown eyes staring at me.

"How do you know I like dogs?"

Whoops!