Chapter 1 -Alyssa
Present
“But he never was yours and he never will be” my diary spelled out , I closed it with a thud . This cleaning shit is not for me clearly , somehow i always end up with a pile of dirty clothes and trash on one side and on the other side a pile of diaries I filled with obsessing over someone and a random collection of stuff on me like the duck hat , joker sock on my right foot and a princess ballet shoes on my left foot.I stood up clearing the clutter off my lap oh look there’s a bracelet ! I always end up finding tressures while cleaning my room , but one thing about me that has changed is i don’t obess over anyone now or that some one , I’ve moved on , now I am 23 years old and trying to be a writer .
All those pages I wasted on someone made me a writer , as they say there’s always good in bad.
It’s been seven years I saw him last , I wonder where he is , what he’s doing . God am I obsessing over him again !? God no not again.
My mother pulled me out of my thoughts when she called me downstairs for dinner , we had a tradition to always eat at least one meal together , i get up from all the clutter and walk downstairs wishing my mother doesn’t see the mess I made in the name of cleaning and yes I still live with my parents I like it this way , thankyou
My kinda innocent mother smiles up at me while I get to the table and we get the dinner served to us by James and Elena my most favourite helper around the house , both my parents are owners of our realestate business at Manhattan , The Torrances , quite a well known family , I don’t like the fame though . Whatever , we eat our dinner slow and agonising as both my parents like to be quite while eating I mean why ? Laugh , talk like normal people. We finish dinner and get to our respective rooms as ‘family time’ is now over , I call up my best friend zoya she picks up kinda groggy “are you asleep ?” I ask with confusion as she never crashes before midnight. “No I am not! I am with Paul” she says in a hurry “oh you didn’t tell me ? Did he bring chocolates again ?!” I ask with excitement cause she always saves up his chocolates for me “ Aly! Understand I am WITH paul” i quickly get what she is implying but I had to ask her this! “Where do you think he is right now ?” I ask her kinda sorry for ruining her moment . “Who!?” She said loudly “geez girl relax , He !” I say again pleading her to remember him “Aly I swear to God it has been five years ! Let him go and let me fucking come!” She says in a hurry “okay fine bye selfish bitch” I say as I hang up but I need to know where he is ! I pull out Instagram , my only escort ; as the hum of a soothing harry styles’s song hums in my ear I type in the name of Ethan Hawkins.
