Your warm hands against my gloved ones.
Kaz Brekker, The bastard of the barrel. How could YOU of all people fall for some limping man, you had your whole life ahead of you! Well you were in kettedam, better stop dreaming.
The Crow club reeked expensive brandy, loud voices all around, men chattering and laughing drunk off their asses. Yet you had to keep your eye out, after all creepy we’re around here, and all you wanted was to get a job. Preferably by Kaz where you could travel enjoy your freedom.
Well now it’s been a year after you’ve joined and holy shit, who knew Kaz Brekker was so goddamn hot, you basically helped with jobs, worked close with the crows. After all pekka was already on y’all’s asses.
Currently you were taking a shot with Jesper, which Jesper was fairly enjoying wylan, probably best to let them be...
“I wonder if Kaz will have us on a job tonight” you said voice a little lazy and buzzed, you did help clean all day of course your lovely thoughts were cut in by Kaz himself, great resting was indeed probably over. “I haven’t heard of any jobs. Not yet at least.” Kaz said in his usual gruff tone, that limping man was lucky he was attractive otherwise you would’ve probably strangled him already, you gave Kaz a lazy nod “As long as I don’t have to waste my precious ammo” Jesper loud voice cut through, as he was halfway busy being inlove “Jesper not all of us have time to be whipped for our lovers or anyone in general” you said looking up at Jesper with a slight glare, Jesper was now the reason you’d be wide away, instead of snoozing away peacefully.
“Jesper, I think one of our crows needs rest, and I will allow it since we don’t have any jobs yet” Kaz said sharp blue eyes scanning you, hands firmly on that crow cane like he was awaiting your next answer before Jesper tried to cut in and say something stupid. “I will walk you to your room” Kaz said quickly before starting to walk, gosh how impatient could this guy get?.. “Yes boss” you’d mumbled with a groan as you followed Kaz to your room, he was probably about to lecture you about stupid shit.
When you arrived into your bedroom, you didn’t really care that Kaz saw you change, after all you both had already seen each, it didn’t matter, nudity meant nothing to Kaz or you. So just like that you slipped into some comfy ass pajama pants and oversized shirt before laying down onto your bed before you actually woke up enough to remember Kaz was right there.
“are you just gonna watch me sleep?” You asked sleepily, getting cozy in your warm soft bed. “I wanted to—” Kaz cut himself off, gulping harshly, like he struggled to physically say the words like he wasn’t used to it. “I wanted ..to say that I want you” Kaz managed to get out, wait holy shit did he just say that? You immediately sat up, fully waking up “WHAT?!” You almost yelled on accident, the man youve been secretly crushing on, assuming it’d never happen..?! Kaz didn’t respond, or he probably didn’t know how to.
“do you want me too?” Kaz asked more quieter, almost like he was afraid of the answer, he had never be THIS vulnerable, it was kinda cute, not the point “Yes— absolutely definitely, I don’t care actually I want you” you managed to say eyes widening at the realization you kind just admitted to so embarrassing that you were totally into Kaz.
That caused Kaz to slowly turn his head towards you, and he started to limp towards you.. your heartbeat quickened as he sat down on the bed and looked at you, like really looked at you. “do you wanna ..try dating?” You asked awkwardly, a harsh gulp stuck in your throat as he slowly nodded “I usually would hate touch, yet it burns to not even be near you” Kaz said as he looked at you with such yearning, even if he couldn’t even touch you properly “Yet everytime I try, I back out” Kaz mumbled recluntantly like he was embarrassed of being a coward.
“Kaz hold your hand up, I don’t need you to take them off unless your ready” you said as he held up his hand, and you reached out yours, pressing it again the glove, Kaz went a little stiff but he didn’t pull away, if anything he intertwined his gloved hand with your bare hand. His gaze on your lips but he was holding back “You can kiss me when your ready” you murmured, looking up at him from where he was angled. “This is nice..I want to try it” Kaz murmured as he leaned forward, and you let him kiss you..he was very stiff and horrible at kissing, yet you pressed your lips onto his, almost as if taking the lead, the kiss was soft and sweet, before you both pulled away, and Kaz looked starstruck.
Safe to say, later, you were cuddling with a fully clothed suited limping man, who was actually comfortable for once and kinda trauma bonded with you, even if he had it severely worse, there was nothing sexual about it, just two lovers cuddling, and you were already drifting off, but it was nice, after all Kaz was surprisingly warm.
