Chapter 1: Death Wish
I am, the most hated witch in helias, the entire realm after earth was destroyed blacklisted me, casted me out and pushed me away due to them believing dark witches as myself were the reason for the gods anger towards the destruction of planet earth. I had no part in that but if I did they deserved it. They deserved to be eliminated and wiped out and it's what's probably happening now in helias, the gods are angry and I'm not talking about the pantheon deities like our beloved Zeus and Odin, the cosmic gods, the real gods that govern over them, the beings that control our afterlife, our death and the reason why we were put in helias. Helias, was an empty planet, so green, so rewarding a thing we should have never gotten and the anger of most of the humans and creatures of planet earth have caused quite the cosmic havoc, they have once again threatened those who rule above us thinking their opinion matters, thinking that created threats and being violent and cruel would help them but it just makes it even worse, we were given a second chance, why not accept it and move on ? Live your lives and be happy you are here and alive but no they must act upon revenge and vengenace is never the answer, it just leads to more death and destruction.
They dig their graves deeper and deeper everyday, the humans, the fae, the sirens and barbarians, the cosmic order wiped out the last of the vampires and werewolves, the few shapeshifters and orcs that made it are hiding and I don't blame them for doing so, this world is crazier then the last one but this one is different, magick and power rule here not technology, on earth we had guns, nuclear weapons and science but this dimension is filled with so much power and magick, witchcraft, voodoo and otherworldly energies that come to play in this reality almost like the veil is open, those of us with powers on earth were limited but now we have the freedom to be ourselves and because of what I can do I am not wanted because I'm the problem and not them. I guess everyone needs someone to blame after all we are mortal born creatures it's only HUMAN to act this way.
The humans have started a revolution, a movement to speak to the higher power and ask for the cosmic order to change their course and save us but I highly doubt that it'll work, the dark force of Azaron doesn't have any remorse, it doesn't negotiate, it is pure evil, there is no stopping it even if you tried what would you say ? PLEASE DON'T KILL US GREAT AND POWERFUL COSMIC FORCE...WE ARE SORRY..what the fuck are y'all thinking ? It's not going to work just get on your knees and take it like a champ!
My family comes from the Seeds Of Olamoth cult, they worship azaron's wife, the feminine aspect of azaron, she's just as powerful, just as strong but not at his level, Azaron has no equal and his wife doesn't either so together they made our world, they shaped it into different versions of themselves almost like god did with us in the Bible expect they are cosmic couple who bring judgement, they created us in different versions, in different species, races and colors...it's truly an incredible story one that has stuck with me all my life but I ran away before they could initiate me, I still carry with me my emblem, my books, our scribes and ancient secrets but it's just not who I am...I refuse to follow people, I rather seek them out myself and get all my knowledge from them directly and not from a cult of crazy women...
Azaron & Olamoth are the beginning and the end, ying and yang, darkness and light, peace and chaos, a beautiful balance that keeps the cosmic order in place without any problems but when both sides decide that all there is to give is darkness and chaos they must ELIMINATE the problem causing the issue, earth already failed and now here we are in helias doing it again but this time they want to fight back against literal cosmic beings that with a snap of their fingers can erase us into fucking dust, one look and we will disintegrate and wash away like we never existed we will seize to exist there is no coming back once you are wiped, there will be nothing left of you, not a memory and not a fucking person to mourn you and the cosmic family will not blink or shed a tear once you will be forgotten so why are we as a society, as a nation trying to anger them ? Y'all really have a fucking deathwish and I will not be a part of it. I refuse to be.
The group hoping to make a change call themselves the children of the cosmos, hoping that with their voice and impact they will be able to reach an understanding with the literal couple of damnation, they are everywhere on the news, looking deep and wide for recruits and I know they will be coming for me i've been waiting for months, I've recieved countless letters and calls but I've ignored them all, mind you I'm far off in the forest not wanting to be bothered and away from society because fuck those sons of bitches, they pushed me out and humiliated me why would I want to save them ? Even though deep inside I care, I care but after what they did I don't want to do shit but wait for the end to come..AGAIN.
The new group finally arrived to my town, the witches sabbat was going on, there was music, chanting, dancing and singing, fresh baked goods and a sacrificial lamb up for sacrifice to appease the gods, when really the sacrifice should be themselves to appease the cosmic order but hey whatever it takes to keep up the illusion that everything is going fine when nothing is fucking fine, we are fucked, I celebrated in my house, just me and my beautiful black feline friend, my familiar and partner in crime, Legolas, named after the elf in lord of the rings, I was gonna go with Sauron but he responded better to Legolas. Once, the children of the cosmos arrived they were welcomed and greeted with upmost respect, the witches listened to their speech and testimony but none of them dared to join, these fucking bitches told them about me, they pointed them to the dark forest.
Rain: We haven't recruited anyone in months. What are we gonna do ?
Varg: Let's go find the sorceress.
Thaldrin: Didn't we send her an invitation ?
Varg: Months ago yeah.
Thaldrin: She would have responded if she wanted.
Varg: We need her.
Moros: We don't. She was banished for a reason.
Thaldrin: She may be powerful but she is not needed.
Varg: I beg to differ, let's at least try ?
Rain: Okay, then. Lead the way barbarian.
Varg: Gladly, you orc basturd.
Moros: It was your kind who got us in this position..
Varg: Trust me I know. I'm trying to fix it.
Thaldrin: That's if we can.
Varg: All we can do is try Thaldrin.
Thaldrin: Yeah but at what cost.
Rain: There is always a price to pay.
Moros: Always, a catch with the cosmos.
Thaldrin: The dark forest is not exactly dark she is what makes it that way, the decay and spiders and rats...the town is marked by this is her work.
Moros: I would do the same to keep anyone from me after they kicked me out and blamed it all on me I don't believe she did a thing.
Thaldrin: She could have made a difference. She did not act and that is also a problem.
Moros: People give up thal...
Thaldrin: The cosmic gods don't care about that.
Moros: Humans caused this, that's who's to blame not some witch who escaped a cult and was treated like an outsider for her path in magick. You know how that feels Thaldrin, you were banished by your people for dabbling in the dark arts. Don't treat her the same way.
Thaldrin: I made a mistake that I must live with, I pity nothing or no one. It is my fault, I knew better but the dark energy, is way too convincing and attracted me like a fly on shit.
Moros: Yeah, I know what you mean but regardless be a little more understanding. I'm sure she's not bad.
Rain: I feel like she's this ugly old hag, what kind of name is Nyxara, it sounds like one of their spells, I can't wait to see the infamous sorceress of the north.
Varg: I was told stories about her, long black wavy hair, a nice rack, a bit on the bigger side and she has a cat named after an elf, can't think of the name.
Moros: Maybe she named it after Thaldrin. All the ladies seem to love Thaldrin, it's such a shame really.
Thaldrin: You're not funny Moros. I have no time to pay attention to women.
Rain: Nice rack and plus size ? Damn.
Varg: That's what they say.
Rain: My kind of a woman. Hey, maybe she'll fancy me.
Moros: * everyone laughs except Thaldrin * You're ridiculous.
Rain: Hey, I'm a man with needs.
Thaldrin: Do you always think with your dick rain ?
Rain: 90% of the time.
Varg: We're almost there, I see smoke uptop.
Moros: Damn, she's deep in this shit.
Rain: Not like she cares or needs anything..
Varg: Start praying my brothers..we need her on our side.
Thaldrin: I don't pray.
Varg: Okay, everyone else then.
Rain: I'm sure she's can't refuse us.
When they approached my property they were dropped by an invisible force field that electrified Varg as he tried to touch it and he screamed it alerted me and I looked over at Legolas and smiled and walked over to my window to see who it was and alas the children of the cosmos were here, they had finally come for me.
Rain: Jesus!
Moros: Are you okay ?
Varg: FUCK! What the hell ?
Rain: Whole place is rigged.
Thaldrin: She's got an electrical force field, interesting choice. Easy to break. Step back.
I stepped outside and they saw me standing there and Thaldrin swung his stupid elvish fingers around broke my force field I was fucking annoyed, elves are so good at fucking witch shit up...I looked at him up and down and he was honestly stunning, long black silky hair, point ears, red eyes and wearing this amazing overall coat like suit and a big pretty big red gemstone necklace, everyone else wore normal casual black clothes, some jewelry and Varg looked like a Viking Tarzan he's a goddamn barbarian, the humans who destroyed planet earth fucking fantastic.
Moros: God damn...
Rain: Wow, you were right.
Varg: Help me up asshole!
Rain: Oh, shit sorry... * Moros laughs *
Varg: Hey, hi.
Nyxara: Was taking down my shield necessary ?
Thaldrin: Yes.
Nyxara: * rolls her eyes * What do you want ?
Varg: Well, we are the children of the cosmos.
Nyxara: I know, I've been waiting for you to show up.
Moros: So, you did get our letters ?
Nyxara: Every single one and your calls.
Rain: No response ? Why ?
Nyxara: Not interested in your proposal.
Varg: Could you at least hear us out ? Please ?
Nyxara: I doubt I'll change my mind but go ahead.
Thaldrin: We shouldn't have come to her.
Nyxara: Yet you did, didn't you ?
Thaldrin: Not by choice, we don't need you.
Nyxara: For someone you don't need, here you are.
Moros: Ignore Thaldrin, he's a bit of a dick.
Nyxara: Elves usually are especially when they turn to the dark side. I know all about you and your work with the queen of the fae, mauve. I have fairies who like to hang around and the gossip is juicy.
Rain: Damn, she knows about you bro.
Nyxara: He's very popular in the fae realm.
Thaldrin: This isn't about me though is it ?
Nyxara: No but I don't care. You can come in.
Varg: Thank you, again ignore Thaldrin.
Nyxara: No worries, I can handle him.
Moros: You got a nice place.
Nyxara: Thank you, make yourselves at home, everything is made by hand not magic so help yourself, i got tea and milk and some coffee.
Rain: Don't mind if I do.
Varg: You really live out here by yourself ?
Nyxara: Yeah, just me and Legolas.
Thaldrin: You named him Legolas ?
Nyxara: Yeah, it suits him. It was gonna be Sauron but he wanted the other.
Thaldrin: You got quit a taste.
Nyxara: I know. * smiles*
Rain: You are one beautiful witch.
Nyxara: Thanks.
Thaldrin: * sighs* Rain..
Rain: What ? * Thaldrin shakes his head *
Nyxara: I see, he's the flirt of the group.
Moros: That's rain.
Nyxara: Interesting name for an orc.
Rain: It's a nickname..better than saying Elakmeyar...
Nyxara: I think it's awesome better than rain. It's giving mortal kombat don't you think ?
Rain: He is my favorite. * winks * * Nyxara laughs*
Varg: Anyways...let's get down to business.
Nyxara: Yes, let's.
Varg: How we'll do you know the cosmic order ?
Nyxara: Pretty well, I do worship the cosmic gods after all I am come from a cult who worships Olamoth I just do things my way.
Varg: Perfect, maybe you can help us. We're getting extremely desperate to find some way to connect with them.
Nyxara: It's a lot harder than you think. It's not as easy as conjuring or summoning them like we do most beings. You gotta do something that harms the cosmos and you already got their attention and I doubt they'll listen.
Moros: Have you ever spoke to them ?
Nyxara: To the goddess yes to her husband no.
Moros: How did you do it ?
Nyxara: Why would I tell you that ?
Thaldrin: Because it can save this dimension
Nyxara: Nobody asked them to seek out revenge, whatever happens it's their fault. What makes you think YOU care to them ? I don't even care to them and I've spent my entire life doing things for them.
Rain: Why would you continue then ?
Nyxara: My powers, my entire existence is all thanks to them, I wouldn't be who I am without their help, they gave me a purpose and it's time you realized that you are alive because of them and that's all the reason you need. I don't think begging is gonna work.
Varg: I know they've casted you out, I can't imagine how that makes you feel, it's not okay. I'm sorry you had to go through that but don't you want to continue living here ?
Nyxara: I'm not worried about the future, just the present, I'm very secured with myself and know that if I am to disappear and not exist again I did something wrong in life and I'll accept that punishment.
Thaldrin: If they wanted you with them, you wouldn't be here in helias, this is a dead world and we have brought it back to life temporarily,it is a curse. You are cursed just like the rest of us.
Nyxara: I wouldn't say I'm cursed. I know what I did and didn't do ,so trust me being in helias is a blessing to me my curse is this, being casted out like I don't matter.
Moros: What did you do ?
Nyxara: I hurt a cosmic child. I put a death curse on the womb of a woman who I was told was letting her little girl get beaten among other horrible things, I was lied to and they banned me from ever doing magic again, earth was a punishment and I finished my sentence, I made sure that cosmic child couldn't be born and the goddess damned me, I was cursed but I am here in helias to finish the rest of my sentence it's almost like house arrest. Actions have consequences and I vowed to get nothing but the truth if I ever casted another spell.
Varg: Is that the reason you were casted out ?
Nyxara: No, I was casted out for a lot of different things, I've hurt plenty of bad people and plenty of good ones too...not magically but emotionally.
Varg: I see.
Rain: So, you're just been in prison ?
Nyxara: Something like that, like I said in order for you to get their attention is by fucking with cosmic order, it wasn't my intention, it wasn't what I wanted but they didn't care my powers were stripped until I learned to be more responsible.
Thaldrin: Do you have those powers now ?
Nyxara: Oh, yeah i got them back and was taught new things I didn't know before, I no longer put hexes on people I curse things and bring amazing horrors and nightmares...as a warning to not fuck with me because now that there is no cosmic child to be born i I can just out right take you out and not worry about cosmic consequences.
Varg: How often do you speak to the goddess ?
Nyxara: Once a month.
Varg: You need to help us.
Nyxara: No, I do not.
Thaldrin: Not everyone can do what you do.
Nyxara: Everyone around here has caused their own deaths more than once. Why do I need to do anything for these people ? They don't care ? You don't care.
Thaldrin: I care more then you think witch.
Nyxara: You have a funny way of showing it.
Moros: You have a connection with her, if anyone finds out that you speak to the cosmic mother, they will sacrifice and kill you.
Nyxara: They know, they've tried.
Moros: What ?
Nyxara: * smiles* Come on Moros, you're a necromancer you're telling me you don't know what I'm talking about.
Moros: What you're speaking about is not possible...there is no way you have that, there is no way you are alive...
Nyxara: They've hanged me, they've shot me and they've tried to drown me, I can't die because of the link to our beloved Thanatos.
Moros: The link of thanatos is forbidden. No necromancer or dark wizard or witch can use it.
Nyxara: You would have to be living in a dead world or be the walking dead to use it, I am a servant of Thanatos, he is a cosmic titan and yes I am a witch with a dead heart, I can't die no matter how many times you try and take me out, only the cosmic family can.
Moros: This is insane..to even get such a...you would have had to recruit souls to him. Living souls to live forever.
Nyxara: I traded many souls, they weren't innocent, you see these skulls around my house, these are all of the dead people I traded to Thanatos for his link.
Varg: You are the most powerful because you are dead. Nobody, alive has that type of magick.
Nyxara: Bingo! You figured it out.
Thaldrin: And yet with this power you can help us and you are choosing to do nothing again.
Nyxara: I am not here for you. I am not here to save lives. I am here to finish my sentence. I alone did this and I am paying the price for it I suggest you lick your wounds and do the same, she is a forgiving one but don't think for one second she will let this slide.
Rain: You are the most impressive and fucking stupidest person I have ever met, have you considered that maybe you are here for a reason ? Maybe you have a purpose ? Maybe this is a test.
Nyxara: If it is I already failed.
Varg: You haven't yet...if you help us...we will pay you...we have a wonderful place up in the mountains of calar, we have others like you, a wonderful chaos and green witch Blackwood has agreed to join us she is not as powerful but she's one of you and willing to make a change.
Thaldrin: She has made her choice, we are wasting our time here. I am glad you are shackled up in this dimension, you are the worst kind of being the universe can have. You are a disgrace, what else can we expect from a filthy witch.
Nyxara: * smiles * I think it's time for you all to go.
Rain: Please....don't do this. Remember what I said, okay ? There's more to you than you realize.
Moros: It was nice meeting you, Nyxara.
Nyxara: You too.
Varg: If you change your mind, this is our location, you could really make a change, rain is right you are exceptional and needed, you have shown dedication and strength through your faults and suffering and the goddess has given you the opportunity to show her why she should continue to guide and save you, you're stuck here with us, if we die you die, I won't beg but please give it a chance, I know it was barbarian that ended planet earth and I know it was my people who hurt and casted you out and for that I am sorry but I am not like them and we have many who might not like you but that's okay, they just don't understand or know who you truly are and I can see you care. I hope you join us...thank you for your time.
They grabbed their stuff and left, I spent days thinking about it, tracing my steps and trying to speaks to olamoth but she wasn't listening or maybe she was but wasn't responding which happens 80% of the time. The guilt was killing me, the words of elakmeyar kept repeating and running in my thoughts and I decided to help them, I decided to take a leap of faith despite not wanting to do shit for these people and I packed my stuff, grabbed legolas and made my entire house disappear and the Forest went back from black and dead to green and full of life the witches were all gasping and cussing me out and I gave them the finger and told them to go fuck themselves.
I rode my carriage all the way to the Calamazar, the mountains of calar are guarded by Ice giants and trolls, it is very cold and snowy, unlike where I live where it's sunny, rainy and humid this place was like Jotunheimr, where the goddess of winter skadi was born, they do worship her and Ymir, it was beautiful, a frozen paradise, Icicles dripping from the cabins and trees, the wind wasn't as bad, but the feeling of the cold from wind was a nightmare, the snowflakes landing everywhere looked gorgeous I wanted to hide under a blanket , I made sure Legolas was wearing his coat and his booties he hated it but he looks super cute, going up to the mountains was a hard road, dangerous and slippery and then I seen it, this castle of an elvish building, I was blown away, it was big, connected to nature and the lights and glass tinted windows were stunning, the elves always knew how to build incredible architecture the elegant natural elements and curved lines and of cast iron, stone and glass was breathtaking I could tell this place either belonged to Thaldrin or another elven being, hopefully I'm not too late to make that change.
Mythrindel: Hello. Welcome To Valanore.
Nyxara: Hello.
Mythrindal: We've been expecting you.
Nyxara: You knew I was coming ?
Mythrindel: Yes. I'm Mythrindel.
Nyxara: Nice to meet you, I'm Nyxara. I'm here to help if I still can that is.
Mythrindel: We have your room ready for you and Legolas. You are just in time.
Nyxara: Perfect.
He was tall just like Thaldrin and he had long white silky hair, it was glorious, he wore a silver and white robe and a cute little gem crown, the elves always know how to dress he was beautiful, he was very hot, his eyes were an icey white and gray I mean it was like looking at an angel and his smile so captivating with his pointy ears I felt some type of way but not like I did with Thaldrin god he's such an asshole but he's hot and I hate I like him.
My cat meowed at him and I was told to leave my stuff and that they would already be there by the time we walked there, I grabbed Legolas and I carried him on my side and through the endless corridors we finally get to my room and all my shit was packed and put away, Legolas purred and meowed and jumped off me and sniffed every inch of the room and rubbed his body all over Mythrindel and he crotched down and patted his head and told me there was going to be a meeting in an hour, I choose to get acquainted with the placed it was dark and warm and had just the vibe I liked I decided to add a few things like my books and herbs and closed the curtains and just laid down in bed and cuddled up next to Legolas i gave him his big cat tree he loved and just smiled hoping that the goddess could see I was trying my best to change and make a difference.
