Prologue
God please give me another chance. Please let me get through this. I don’t want to die. I want to live a healthy life. I just want to be a good person. I hate myself. I just need another chance to prove to you, to everyone that I can change. I swear I won’t take it for granted this time like I have fucked up so many times before. God, if there is a God, I know I have more purpose than this filth of a life. Please help me stop. I know I can do better.








